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Stain on my Soul
It all came from your signature
Your choice to allow it
Thoughtless
Naïve
Stupid
Hurtful
They came upon me with malice
Tied me down with great cruelty
A punishment undeserved
I am helpless
Abandoned
Broken
In great despair
Stabbed in the back
Not just once but several times
You let them throw me in bondage
Threaten to have them do it again
I buried it down to save myself
From the harm you didn’t protect me from
The damage is done
The stain that resides deep in my soul
An open wound that will never mend in this life
No amount of amends can ever suture it
You justify it was “perfectly legal” or “for your own good”
Newsflash legal does not mean moral
Compassion took a back seat
You knew better
You have no excuses
Did you ever consider the price of your poor decision making?
Feelings mixed like a swirling storm inside
Where do we go from here?
What is the right thing to do?
Will you see the light?
Will you then see the stain that is on your own soul?
It all came from your signature
Your choice to allow it
Thoughtless
Naïve
Stupid
Hurtful
They came upon me with malice
Tied me down with great cruelty
A punishment undeserved
I am helpless
Abandoned
Broken
In great despair
Stabbed in the back
Not just once but several times
You let them throw me in bondage
Threaten to have them do it again
I buried it down to save myself
From the harm you didn’t protect me from
The damage is done
The stain that resides deep in my soul
An open wound that will never mend in this life
No amount of amends can ever suture it
You justify it was “perfectly legal” or “for your own good”
Newsflash legal does not mean moral
Compassion took a back seat
You knew better
You have no excuses
Did you ever consider the price of your poor decision making?
Feelings mixed like a swirling storm inside
Where do we go from here?
What is the right thing to do?
Will you see the light?
Will you then see the stain that is on your own soul?
Literature
fire in my lungs
there's this odd thought
that's been revolving
around my mind:
the only reason i'm living
is because it's too damn
difficult
to die.
because alcohol and pills
make my body just throw
it all up
before i pass out
because cuts and blood
start to clot
before i'm even
in danger
because a car wreck
is too damn tragic
because drowning
feels like fire
burning my lungs.
so yeah, i guess i'm just here
getting through the day
and i don't know what to
tell you anymore
because i'd rather
feel nothing and float through reality
then feel the pain
of death.
Literature
Burning by Water
It wasn’t when I was half way down. It wasn’t when I crashed. It wasn’t when I jumped. It was an idea that has been destroyed, been revived, survived the harshest treatment an idea can endure. It was an idea that had conditioned me into what I thought was reality. I gave into it. I gave into its hypnotizing ways, training me the basics of holding my breath, teaching me how to vanish when I’m in the spotlight, instructing me how to enter the realm of darkness until I no longer saw the light of my life. It brought me away from the ones that held my hand tightly as I was stuck in a position, which I had no control over. T
Literature
Imaginary Columns and Spires
Born to crumble,
To join the mosaic
To live false and faded
Shapeless and silent
A palace of sand
Returns to the waves,
Kicked and leveled
By a brave young stride
The illusion must die
For the life of another
For a mass fever-dream
On a blurry horizon
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Now this poem is one of my darkest but is true. In summation when I was little I was tortured by dentists over the course of several years. It was consented to by a family member that will remain unnamed. Because of it among other things I deal with PTSD and when I finally had a breakdown over it in Dec of 2014 I finally spoke of it after 20 years of silence. I was so mad and dealing with so much because of it I did not have anything to do with this person for a year. Currently we are back on speaking terms but it certainly will not erase anything. I have been in psychotherapy since then so I am getting professional help for it. I started a page to bring attention to the issue of unethical dentists so if you would like the page and help me spread the message that would help a lot www.facebook.com/papooseboards… lets put a stop to this.
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