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If I fail to respond to a comment or acknowledge a favourite, I'm sorry. I'm not generally sure where to draw the line between politeness and overreaction, and I may err on the side of saying nothing. But I do appreciate comments and faves!
The last couple of days I actually got a bunch of positive feedback! That really means a lot.
The number of feedback notifications dA says I have is dropping. Not by much. Three, another three. I think some of my work is being unfaved, and I'm not getting any new notifications.

So, that's encouraging. Well, anyway, today I'm posting more crap that only I will like! What difference does it make?
I rendered a simple thing. I'll post it later.

Edit: Here it is: 

January 2018 meme person


I'll try to post at least one more thing this month.
Well, I finally posted something: 2017 retrospective

I had held off on actually putting it together in case I made more art in December. And then I was just out of the habit of posting any art at all.

I didn't say this in the post, but it feels right to post a retrospective image to put a cap on 2017, and on my art. I have liked some pieces I have come up with, but with the new year, I have been leaning pretty strongly toward being done with all this. The problem with quitting is that I didn't even have the will to post anything saying I was quitting.

I don't know. Maybe I'll drag Ellery and the gang out of mothballs eventually.

After making my retrospective wheel today, I kind of want to render something new. Well, maybe I will.
I had as this journal entry a piece that made more sense as a literature submission. Moved here:
 

Mature Content

Changed my profile picture again. It's somewhere down there if you scroll. I'm not doing this right, am I?

...

I can rearrange the page. That is a thing I can do.
If you'd told me ten years ago that I'd spend half a decade obsessed with Poser-style 3D art; that I would accumulate a mere handful of very sporadic followers, mostly posting to myself; that I'd finally give up after six years; and in particular that my last published image would be a picture of Jenny Everywhere wearing nothing but rainbow-striped knee-socks—I'd probably say, "Sure, makes sense to me. The rainbow knee socks sound fun."

It was with this thought in mind that I didn't even try to post art on Tuesday. I did no renders the next two days, which was nice, actually. I suppose I really do have better things to do with my time.

So there it is. My 3D career closes out on a picture of Jenny Everywhere in her gaily striped socks. I'm very proud. So proud.

...

I'll render something else.
Well, I updated my DeviantID. I don't know how often I'll change the art, but it's nice to have something more recent down there.
I am trying to post more again, but I have this fear that no one likes anything I produce and everything I do is really crap.
OK, new schedule! I think I can do one of these little renders every fifteen days!

Just kidding. I'm never doing art again.


(Wait, that italicised bit was supposed to have a strikethrough.)
Well, I kept thinking I should do a comic again, and then little daily renders didn't seem like enough, so I did no art in the end.

I guess I should just say the comics are over, and still do some art, but it's not the same if I don't think I'm going to tell stories.

It may be a while before I do art again. I may never do art again (although that seems unlikely). I may do some tomorrow.

I like the last thing I posted enough to leave it as the last thing I posted. That has not always been the case. That makes it easier to just leave it as is. 
I am trying to refrain from adding, "This is crap, but it gives me something to post," to render descriptions, because I don't know what people will like. But I think it sometimes!
I hadn't sorted art into subfolders since April 2016. So I just did that for over 11 pages, close to a third of my gallery.

I should do a swimwear folder.

Bitter Ides of March got moved out of 'Featured' by my clumsy fingers and back in, so it's out of order in the Featured folder now.
Super blocked, super depressed. Expect nothing for a bit.
Forty-nine years ago today, they killed the Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Those that conspired to kill him were part of the power establishment, including government officeholders. They killed him to stop his challenge to the ruling class. Dr. King wanted to share the wealth of the nation with the people of that nation who were excluded from power; with the poor, the despised, and the oppressed.

I see people call themselves “conservative,” “conservatives,” “right-wing,” or the like for a lot of different reasons–some good, some bad. Even I’m “conservative” in some sense, on an issue or two. Tradition can be worth defending, sometimes.

But the United States of America has a history of ridiculous, extreme racism on one hand, and extreme, ridiculous “laissez-faire” capitalism on the other hand. In that context, “conservative” has a meaning. “Conservative” has a default, primary meaning. This is what it looks like; this is what it is.

A tradition of racial abuse, or of peonage, or of violence in the service of a ruling elite–that’s not a tradition worth defending or “conserving.”

(No art today.)
Well, I got the submission page working again. I don't know what that was about.
I haven't gotten the submission page to load properly for several hours. There may not be new art here for a while.
Hey, remember when I said I was finally getting enough sleep? Ha ha ha no.
I...was sort of planning to do a comic tomorrow. I want to start doing a comic a week again. I don't know, though. I'm—not so much blocked as depressed. Or too easily distracted to finish much.