There's going to be a lack of 4K renders until I get back home for Christmas break as you may have noticed. I try to post every 3 days so, tomorrow (December 14th, 2020) will be another content drop, but that will not have any 4K renders since I had to mail my main computer home. But the next content drop (December 17th, 2020) might have one, but I cannot confirm nor deny if that will happen.
I'm planning to drop 3 4K renders on December 17th, 2020 if a content drop happens that day. If not, on December 20th, 2020 there will be 4 4K renders. There's a few more American colossi that'll be posted. They'll probably last until early January, so, if you like American heavy tanks, you're in for a treat.
I do plan on making the American Cold War experimental T42 Medium Tank or 90mm Gun Tank T42. And after that the T69 Medium Tank/90mm Gun Tank T69.
Until the next one.
I have decided to finally open myself up to commissions to make a little bit of money on the side.
Details can be found here alongside my email. Feel free to contact me at any time.
I’m currently in college and may be slow to respond due to homework and classes, but I will respond. I’m still trying to figure out prices for this, so I am open to negotiations.
So, I'm currently back home for a short two-week break for college, then another 3 month semester. I forgot some things back at my college apartment that prohibits me from working on certain things.
I have a little black journal for my newest poems and that is back at the apartment, thus I cannot post any new poems.
I forgot my yellow notebook which contained notes regarding new Order of the Triumvirate tanks and the schedule I had set up to draw them, there's a backlog of 33 tanks on that list that stretch from circa 1943 to 1957. I have my blue notebook which has a bunch of notes for previously posted tanks, but not ones yet ready to be drawn due to the backlog.
I also left some other things that'd simplify the process of making new tanks out of LEGO. I was going to revise the T1, M6A1, M6A2E1-1, and M6A2E1-2 heavy tanks to have triple stud wide track links and working suspension. The T1 and M6A1 HT's do need their turrets to be increased in height and I'll be working on that soon. As for both the M6A2E1-1 and M6A2E1-2, the turret bustle needs to be lowered and the downward angle less shallow.
I have quite a few poems regarding a new girl I met in Army ROTC at college and frankly, she's perfect for me. Those poems will come eventually, but I'm really hoping things work out with this girl because, again, frankly she's perfect for me. I just hope I'm perfect for her. To be honest with y'all, I'd marry her in a heartbeat.
As for the Order of the Triumvirate, how's does an M7 Medium Tank with an oscillating turret inspired by the AMX-13 FL-10 with SS.11 ATGM's with Schurzen off the Pz.Kpfw. IV Ausf. H, stand-off plates from the Pz.Kpfw. III Ausf. M, and the armor of an M4A3E2 Jumbo Sherman sound? Because that is coming. How about a Kugelblitz SPAAG-M5A1 Stuart-Pz.Kpfw. II Ausf. F hybrid?
As for LEGO models up and coming, I've already revised my T71 Detroit Arsenal light tank to be able to be ordered for a physical build just like my M7 Medium Tank. The new T71 DA LT model has a revised suspension, rear hull detailing, a taller, but stronger turret that retains the same level of playability as before. By playability I mean, the gun can not only elevate but also depress.
I have plans to take BrickMania's M48A3 Patton MBT model and make 7 variants off of it. A slight modification of the engine deck and an oscillating turret means a T54E1 medium tank/105mm Gun Tank T54E1. Then I could make another turret and stick it on the T54E1 hull, boom, I've got a T54E2 MT. If I elongate the hull to have another road wheel and make a new turret, there's an M103 heavy tank/120mm gun tank M103. With that M103 hull, I can make two oscillating turrets and have both the T57 heavy tank/120mm Gun Tank T57 and T58 heavy tank/155mm Gun Tank T58. With that T57 oscillating turret, I can stick it on the M48A3 Patton hull and have the T77 medium tank/120mm Gun Tank T77. Finally, the M247 Sergeant York SPAAG is built on an M48 Patton hull, that's number seven.
Those 7 models will take a long while, as I don't want to just copy and paste the hull, even though it is a beautiful work of art. That's not how I operate. Granted, this process could be much easier if I had applied for a job opening at BrickMania during the summer of 2019 as a kit designer and gotten the job. Back then I was really torn about applying for it since I wasn't confident enough in myself and my skills to get the job, and that if I had gotten the job, my 12-year plan would have been out the window. Yes, I have a 12-year plan, it was a 14-year plan, but I already finished the first 2 years of that. Technically, there's only 11 years left of the plan now with 2019 coming to an end and all that.
Anyway, if I had gotten the job at BrickMania, I could have brought up the idea of modular kits much like the recent Pz.Kpfw. III Ausf. E that had two add-on kits that would allow you to make either the StuG III Ausf. G, Pz.Kpfw. III Ausf. M, or Pz.Kpfw. III Ausf. N. Or their M4 Sherman with their add-on kits of the T34 Calliope MLRS, M1 Dozer blade, or Crab Mine Flail. What I'm getting at is that with these add-on kits, that could have been an entire line for the M48A3 Patton MBT. Though making an M103 Heavy Tank kit would be great, people would buy those and have add-on kits for the T57 and T58. The T57 oscillating turret could be advertised to work on either the M48A3 Patton or M103 HT to make the T77 MT and T57 HT respectively.
All in all, I've got a lot planned and going on. Just keep riding with me, this tank has a long, but hopefully bountiful road ahead.
I'll be heading off to college tomorrow and will return December 18th, 2019. Do not expect any new LEGO tanks during that time period as LDD is not working on my laptop as it does on my desktop and removes 150-300 pieces from each model. Not only that, but not even all the pieces in the version installed on my laptop as on my desktop even though they are both 4.3. Considering I take 5-15 hours to build a single tank and 'simple' modifications like the M6A1 heavy tank to the T1 heavy tank took 2.5 hours, I don't have the energy to rebuild all my models and vignettes. Also, if I were to build a tank on my laptop and transferred it to my desktop the same problem would occur and I do not want to build the same tank twice or memorize how I build each tank for the next three months.
I wrote my first poem "I Want to Be" back on March 12th, 2012. It's been 7 years and 3 days since then.
Model 0 Trinity Trooper armor was drawn back in 2012 as well. Seven years have passed thus.
2012 was the end of 8th grade and the beginning of my freshman year/9th grade. I've become a far better artist and poet since then. I cringe at my old works, both written and drawn, due to how awful they look and read. Though I am glad for this reaction, it means that my standard has been raised. I have improved over these last 7 years and that's what life is all about.
You may have noticed odd nicknames in the description of poems such as: Goldilocks, Little Tiger, Curious, Grey Bay, My Friend, and Blackbird/Amsel Angel. You've probably guessed that this as the nicknames of girls I've either dated or liked. If you did, you'd be correct.
What have I learned these last 7 years as an artist and a poet? Know this, I've been an artist since I can remember. Regarding art, when I first started posted my art online such as on Flickr, Facebook, and Saber-Scorpion's Lair Forums, it was to show the world. This quickly degenerated into me wanting to get favorites, likes, comments, etc, it was all about popularity. Though I honestly wanted and needed feedback in those early years of posting. It's hard to improve when you don't know what you should or need to improve on. My emotions became intertwined with the amount of likes, favorites, and comments. I felt as though if I didn't receive those things that I wasn't a good artist and thus my feelings reflected that. I have since grown from that period, but yes, a comment would be nice, haha. Now I'm doing it more for myself, as it should be. Post your art, no matter how bad you think it is. You can always improve if you work at it. Don't drown your passion with popularity. Do it because you want to show the world something. If it's important to you, it can become important to someone else. It can become their escape, their anchor.
As for poetry, I began to wrote because of a girl. Cliche, yes, but even though the Grey Bay and I are on bad terms I am most thankful for her. She was my first muse, the entire reason I began to write poetry. The catalyst for my silent voice, the one unafraid to speak even if silent. She too was my Source of Sadness. When she first disappeared, I thought I was the reason she did. She had depression and anxiety and cut to numb herself. When she disappeared I began to believe that I was the reason she did and that I caused her to kill herself. I was 12 or 13 at the time, and you can only imagine what kind of damage that does to a person that young. I would hold onto that guilt, pain, and anger for 5 years. I finally let it go in 2018 whilst on my two-year mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. In a way I inherited her pain, loneliness, and sadness as well. I became silent and poetry was my only voice. It was how I vented, how I coped, poetry was everything to me. Music became especially important to me as I listened to music I felt echoed my current feelings and situation. It made me feel not alone.
I met others that felt the same as I. My poetry became their anchor and their hope. That brought me joy, that my pain cemented in words could be a voice of reason, understanding, empathy, soothing. I've been lucky that I could fuel such things with dark emotions. I reached a point where I wanted to kill myself, luckily I never left the floor to pursue the many ideas I had of ending my own life. That was the darkest point in my life, but I rose victorious. Now I will say that I am thankful for those 5 years of depression. Why? Well, without those years I wouldn't be who I am now. I learned of taboo and unafraid to talk about it, unfazed by it. I understood people better and could better offer help after listening to them. I learned to listen and to be a shoulder to cry on, I learned to look past the scars, and understand the human within. It's a beautiful thing, to suffer through another's pain to ease it. To share the burden, to be someone's Atlas.
Post your poems, vent your emotions. Know others feel the same as you, you need not suffer alone in silence. Though I highly suggest seeking professional help as I did via counseling. Direct your pain into something creative, it may be therapeutic as it was for me. It may be the only thing that keeps you from stepping off the ledge, but it's better than the fall.
If an ear is all you seek, don't hesitate to hit me up.