"Depression and inspiration go hand in hand"
Why is it so hard to get inspired?
- Listening to: not sure...something on my brother's Ipod
- Reading: instant messages
- Drinking: iced tea
Decisions...Have you ever been stuck with a choice; granted, it can give you the perfect closure on some things. But, at the same time, it can end your life. It could end everything you stand for. But yet, it's the moment of satisfaction that you have been looking for. Yearning for. Searching for years, yet this is the only answer that you can come to. Or....walking away and having your pride crushed in the eyes of others. Is it really worth it? Is it?
It's been way too long....and I've changed.It has been wayyyyy too long since I've poked my head around on here, let alone post anything. I have a lot of new stuff coming soon and I'm glad to be back. It's good to be home. I missed everyone.
Im Back?Lol my bad guys...this is probably a shocker but yea, i think it's time i came back
I know ive been away for awhile (read last journal entry) but yea i had alot of shit i had to deal with family-wise and just life-wise. Plus what may be a shocker, i DID kinda switch my main focus onto music and have been writing A LOT in the last two years ive been away. But don't think i didn't pick a pencil and a sketch book in my time away
<3 you guys and please stay true to me, i got alot of new stuff coming soon :3
Well look what the cat dragged in.............a Phil Mayhem, also known as Nexusenigma on DA, but uhhhhhh DAMN it's been too long and i've been away for too long. I (Honestly) have been working alot and trying to do alot of things for my own personal life, however that doesn't mean i forgotten about this site. I still get on DA just to look all the pretty art and stuff but....unless it's writings, you prob. wont see alot of art from me till next year. I'm making time then, trust me. Thank you all for your support and still not forgetting about me.
NOT DEADHey!! This is Wild-Adapted, Nexusenigma asked me to update his journal.
He's not dead.
He's just been VERY busy.
He's been jumping from Job to Job, going in and out of the hospital, and moving to a new place almost every few months.
He's mainly concentrating on his music right now, but has promised art as soon he has internet and remembers he has a dA.
I'm not sure when he's coming back, but he will. That's a promise. I'll make him.
He uses my scanner normally, but because of our busy lives I haven't seen him since Jan, and he hasn't been over my house in about a year.
Anyway, if he asks me again, I might do updates for him occasionally.
If you have any questions for him, let me know.
7906: The past is dead.OMMFGWTFAYT?.....WM?
(Oh My Mother F***ing God What The F*** Are You Thinking?.....Why ME?!?)
ToOoOoOo long have i been away and im sorry.
But living life in the fastlane and the woking world at the same time is no easy task.
So between swinging between 3 different jobs, writing lyrics n guitar pieces for my band-to-be, making time for the girlfriend, looking for another job, skateboarding, dealing with family issues, moving fifty thousand times in the same town, partying and crashing (or what some might call "Sleep") There's been scarce time for drawing.
But don't think i didn't draw at all. Thats just not like me. But lack of internet (till now) and a lack of a scanner made updating my dA verry hard and troublesome. So i kinda let it drift into the back of my mind, which i soo regret. But b/c of recent events, im on bed rest (Oh NO!!!!) but it's all good, im not dead yet and the pen is still crossing the paper
(Art hopefully to come this week)
-I need to steal my friends scanner L
Updating.....sorta kinda......Sooooooooooooooooooooooo Loooooooonnnnngggggg
since i've have been on dA, it's good to be back (thank goodness for new wireless internet routers)
anywho...ya know i haven't been spending ALL that time away slacking, so new art soon to follow this message and the stuff im posting is kinda older shit. So yea there much much newer shit. (Yay Shit! LOL)
so yea, se ya around
Am I slacking? (Talent goes to waste)Oi yey....im upset with myself.
I've found sooo much inspiration in the last few week to draw, yet i've only drawn lik 3 things, one which i threw away, and none that have made it onto the site. Boy, im making progress -_-
Anywho, i've decided upon which i want to work on (if time allows me to)...
As of today (lik right after im done typing this) im going to be completely ripping apart my current "Drawng style" and completely fixing it up. Which you shall see soon enough on DA.
Headshot commissions -CLOSED-Comment down below if you're interested for a slot, and include the info of what commission type you want!
Don't note me until I give you a heads-up
This will make it easier for people to see how many spots are left, in case I'm lagging behind on updating the list.
If there are 3 unanswered comments claiming a spot on a list with only 2 spots left, then you can be pretty sure that it's all filled up.
First come first serve!
-Sketch and simple headshots // and semi-/ painted headshots will each have their own list,, because the former is much quicker to do and I usually have the energy to do multiple simple headshots in a row.
Simple headshots 18$
Painted headshots 35$
You can also ask for:
sketched headshots 5$ (no color)
or semi-painted headshots 20$ (rougher,
Commissions are open
♦ SCHEDULE ♦
I usually have 4 slots per week
Fourth week open (after 27th)
• HOW IT WORKS •
Everything you need to know before you order a commission
1- Commissions works must NOT be used for any commercial use such as t-shirt designs, art sale or on books and comics that are gonna be sold.All these prices are for personal use only. If you need my works for commercial use, please get in touch by my email below and let me know what kind of art do you need and where it's gonna be used so we can talk and negotiate about prices.
2- If for some reason I can not finish your illustration, I will give your money back
Watchers-only Free Art Raffle (Aug-Sept 2018)NOW CLOSED. I'M YET COUNTING THE TICKETS BECAUSE OF COMPUTER ISSUES. A VIDEO WILL BE UPLOADED SOON WITH THE NUMBERS PICKED.
BIG EDIT: NOW WE'LL HAVE EXTRA NUMBERS PICKED! THREE DIFERENT WATCHERS WILL RECEIVE THE SAME TYPE OF ART!
Hello guys, hope you all aren't upset I got away, I was at college. Let's get back in track! If you are one of my watchers and comment this journal, you may earn yourself a totally free sketch art, like these:
The only things you need is:
1. Being a Watcher;
2. Comment this Journal with a real person or character of your preference, references included (1 raffle ticket).
(Optional: How to Get More tickets)
- Share this in a journal and comment the link back (1 extra ticket);
- If you really want it, you may donate 1 point for another raffle ticket (yes, you may buy extra tickets you want for the raffle - limited to 15 extra tickets by points so Isn't too m
Design contest! (DL. Nov.10th)Another contest. ^^ Pretty lenient and plenty to choose from so you don't feel restricted!
It's straight forward.. design anything from the links/info below!
I'll try to keep the journal short in hope people will actually ready it thoroughly unlike my other events. ;c
First things first!
Your art level does not matter, this is for creativity! Let your heart burst with imagination!^ That said, if you feel comfortable about it, you may use a base - as long as the base grants permissions for this sort of use.^ Bases are accepted--especially if used for just outfits/armours or weapons.^Digital AND traditional, pixel, any! are all welcome.
You can submit up to 2 character and 2 outfit/weapons/etc designs from each link, but keep in mind, only 1 of your submissions can win.^ To clarify. you only "need" to give one entry. but you're allowed a total of four.
Obviously, don't copy/trace/steal and all that.
Wait list [OPEN]INFO
Custom Adopts [open]
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:iconh0ujun: :iconYumiTheVampy::iconneyokko: (oct)
Updates~First of all, thanks everyone for your help ;w;
Thank you for your donations, thanks for sharing the journal, thanks for caring, and for your kind words too...
Last journal was so rushed and poorly worded oh god it's embarrasing when I look back at it- so I'll write updates over it xD
Fortunately, everything went well with the surgery. We had help from our family too and could pay the hospitalization and surgery in time. My dad is now resting and recovering at my sister's house, while mom is taking care of him. Due to our circumstances I will be working to bring some money and also pay the house... pfft I finally feel like an adult xD it sucks... jkjk
It was an exhausting week at the hospital, but finally "I'm back" kind of? I will use a day every week to answer your messages and maybe leave an update. Right now, they're a lot for me to answer right away. Thanks a lot to my commissioners for being SO patient with little me specially you Beelze idk if you're reading but hgng I'm thankfu
Happy 15th Birthday!In April I wrote a post reflecting on my 15 years at DeviantArt, since the project began in April of 2000 and was launched to the public on August 7th. I went back and re-read what I wrote, and wow, speaking of audacious I'm pretty hardcore in this post. I write from my heart sometimes and then I hit post and that's that. So for our official 15th Birthday I wanted to re-share a link to that post:
And then today, I wrote this reflection for you as a toast & thanks for all the llamas:
Happy 15th Birthday DeviantArt! We are evolving, and soon we will be able to share exactly how you can be a part of our transformation, ensuring that the DeviantArt we all love grows stronger in supporting the visual & written arts for 15 more years to come! You will soon see us release many years of effort, repositioning DeviantArt from all we have learned over our 15 years of managing the worlds largest creator community.
Thank you for all of your support over the
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