NewEraOutlaw

Good thing I told myself tonight to log in.

First of all, I didn't 'ditch' anyone. I had both no time and no motivation to draw anything. If you were paying attention to my Twitter before the purge last week (and even now,) the creative spark is gone. I haven't drawn anything substantial in two years. But aside from that, you don't have ANY idea what I've gone through since then, things that I just didn't divulge on social media.

Did you know that my mother had a stroke recently, for example? That had me VERY much on edge for the last couple of months, and needless to say, it's one more thing in my life that I don't need.

Next thing, did you know that for the last month, I was virtually penniless as well, all because I had to help with my mother and have to start over from scratch?

I am sorry you had to got through this with me, and I'd imagine that you'd be sick of the excuses by now, but try to understand here. I was in -shit- when last you saw me, and catching up on drawings for people was low on the priority list for me for a whole bunch of reasons.




I also can't help but feel that these recent sentiments from you were as a result from the tweets I made about that whole Vic Mignonia thing. Sorry, as I stated before, I NEVER said once that anyone 'lied' about what he did, and I even asked you to point out where I said I did, but you never replied. (The thread is gone now, though.) I have no idea WHY you got grimy about my opinion on the matter, especially since it's just that, my opinion. I've said nothing wrong on the matter and quite frankly, you getting offended over it was silly. Even coming here and posting where you think I wouldn't see it, instead of PMing me on Twitter where you -knew- I was active or in a reply to the thread (other than going SMH for some reason.) Honestly, come on man.

I'd be very understanding if you were upset that you didn't get your drawings after years, and for that, I don't blame you. But these recent posts seem to come from a very disingenuous place, because I'm getting the impression that my Twitter posts incensed you somehow.



I think it would quite frankly be insulting to everyone if I apologized for a long absence yet again, so I'm not going to. The most I can do is explain WHY I haven't been as active. And sadly, probably won't be active for a while again, because my problems still haven't ended. That doesn't mean that I won't be active at all on social media. It takes no effort to type a few words, but way more to sit down and draw, especially when those drawings that I owe for people are getting me no money in return for them. Currently, all of the drawings that I owe were as a result of 'contests' to guess the next Nicktoon (in your case) or outright requests that I was taking (which I WAS undertaking when I tried to get back on track.)


So that is it, really. Try to show a little maturity here. Again, I understand perfectly why you would be angry, I have kept you waiting for years for drawings. But don't come here to demonize me in public like this, especially when I suspect that your real reason for doing so is a silly, unrelated difference in opinion. It is REALLY not appreciated.

Maybe if my problems peter itself out, I will finally give you what you've been waiting for, and you can rest easy and be on your way.
But for now, not here, not now, and not like this.

I strongly considered that, to be honest. There was even a point sometime last year where I felt like giving up entirely, and just scrubbing this entire page.

Unfortunately, that would have been a huge disservice to everyone here, so I left it up, in the hopes that when things get better, I can return to drawing again.

.....and while things are marginally better than they have been now....it really hasn't. If you want an idea of how completely bad things have been for me?
There was a time where $38 was all I had in my name. That was one week ago.

Details please?