The Party's Over.
Anymore, I'm only happy at the bottom of a bottle.
It's a sad truth, an even sadder reality,
To know that I've let it come to this point.
That's not to say I don't have good moments,
outside of that bottle, but really
it all goes back to that.
I have tried, to find that wonderful peace,
But, it's not happening.
That kind of thing happens, you know?
It's often caused by that one feeling,
nobody can seem to rid themselves of.
That horrible, draining, disgusting feeling of
Think about it, you're not good enough.
Maybe later, they say. Not right now.
Why not now, you ask.
I have somebody already.
I could be that somebody.
But, it's not me right now.
And I'm ok with that, really.
Just know, that if it's not now, it won't ever be.
I live right now.
I don't live in two years.
At least, as far as I'm concerned.
And I refuse to live yesterday.
This took twists and turns, but for some reason,
you stayed with it.
That is the nature of things really.
You stay with what isn't