so im starting a stream right now on here
if anyone wants to come by and watch, that would be nice. im keeping the mic muted because... well... my previous headset broke, so its now a webcam and... we all know how shitty webcams are, dont we? :D
but yeah, drop on by if you want, itll be on around the following schedule at times
12:00 AM - 9:00 PM (will close up near 8:30 PM mark and chat with audience)
thisll be all week, however... itll be when i feel i have the time during the day for it, which hopefully is often so make sure to do that one thing that makes it so you get an email whenever i start streami
i... i feel absolutely terrible... i... gah...
ive been keeping my depression hidden so well from everyone that im scared of how well ive done it... ive only recently sent an email to those i trust about my current state to see if itll help (awaiting reply) and... i just wanted to let you guys in on it i guess
this... happy smiling mask of mine... its cracking... and i cant fix it anymore... i dont want to fix it, i want it to shatter and be gone so i can get the help i need... i cant keep going on like this... this mask... its gotta go... and i have to stop hiding my emotions, bottling them up and hoping they leave...