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Fallen  by neon-ballroom Fallen :iconneon-ballroom:neon-ballroom 1 2
Literature
Autumns fall
Summers gone too soon and the sky’s grey,
Couldn’t shake it through the rest of the day,
The blue sky is left behind,
And I can’t get you off my mind,
Shall we kiss this goodbye forever,
This is all too clever,
Dancing the night away sounds great,
Or maybe I’d rather just meet my fate,
Let’s flip the switch to the positive light,
The brightness is very bright,
I can see the moonlight outside,
It said it wants to be my guide
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Literature
Dawn
I’ll give the sky a glance,
But tonight we dance,
The time is Eleven Eleven,
So make a wish in heaven,
I have a golden dream,
It’s quite a theme,
The Kings and queens are alive and well,
But it doesn’t make me dwell,
I feel a static buzz,
And I don’t know just because,
Let’s go check out outer space,
At a faster pace,
Let’s go swim amongst the waves,
We will be no ones slaves,
We can be young like the early days,
There will be no need for anyone’s praise,
They won’t think of us when we’re gone,
We’ll stay up til dawn,
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Heat wave  by neon-ballroom Heat wave :iconneon-ballroom:neon-ballroom 8 2 Blossom  by neon-ballroom Blossom :iconneon-ballroom:neon-ballroom 8 5 Lush  by neon-ballroom Lush :iconneon-ballroom:neon-ballroom 10 3
Literature
Driveway
I could be anyone you want, Who's on your mind?
that anyone will leave my self outshined,
Can't control the way i think,
all the thoughts seem to sync,
Don't you like me for me?
i'm sorry for taking it to that degree,
do you really want me dead,  or alive to torture me for my wrong doings,
for all your own pleasant viewings, 
through all this guilt and self hatred, 
it is all self created,
and as the daylight dies,
all that comes out of me is empty sighs,
i"m ashamed of the life I'm living,
you must be more forgiving,
people have led me to believe i don't belong here,
I'd rather not disappear,
why is it that i feel like a slave in my own mind, 
as i get older my mind has declined,
i don't mean the tasteless things i say,
please just lead me up the stairway,
same feelings for those who love you,
you could just tell me to go away and shoo,
yikes i didn't mean for this to be so depressing,
i just keep my self guessing 
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Literature
Forever and a day
I don't wanna die right now but i admit i do sometimes,  Even when im not on hard times,
I attempt to look at the brightside,  but it has no guide, 
call me pessimistic, but yet its just so artistic,
I'm not suicidal in any way,  but i just wanna fly away like a mocking jay, 
i hate my self dearly,  and i don't want to be like you severely, 
i made a deal with the devil,  i had nothing to lose,  ill be leaving you clues,
i could just fade away, but now is not the day,
i don't have a bad life, its all in my head,  i guess im brain dead,
they don't know i feel sad on a nightly basis,  i just disappear into the oasis,
i wanna feel mutual love with someone, but i don't think im quite ready,  im just not steady,
Theres a full moon tonight, i can't wait til daylight, 
when i'm not alone with my thoughts, i feel more safe,  when im a closed case,
when the sun sleeps, thats when it comes peep,
 i've screwed up so many t
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Literature
what is love anyway
Wanna just walk out the door, this hopeless life want no more,
with a single plea, Now im ready to be free,
sick of feeling like i need you, I cannot break through,
i want to fly and not come back down, before you make me drown,
i sit and wonder where i went wrong,  these feelings are too strong,
i have none of you,  but all of me you have yes you do,
i just want to get things right,  but that takes all my might,
i can't find anyone else attractive, but your love is inactive,
when i see a picture of you i feel a sense of sadness,  its driving me to madness,
all the paragraphs i send,  you still won't bend,
i should and need to get over it,  but you won't let me quit,
unrequited love is what i feel,  unless i'm confused on this wheel,
it has turned me into a ball of feelings,  all i need is some healing,
i tell you that i love you and i get left empty handed,  leaves me feeling disbanded.
 
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Literature
forgetting amongst the seas
i'd take a bullet for you but I feel as like your holding the gun
to both of our heads with nowhere to run,
never again will I put trust like that into another being,
i'm trying to show you what i am seeing.
You ask for care and you receive it but you push it away,
i cannot go on living my life this way,
you claim your life isn't good yet your cup is overfilled,
you have all that you need but your heart is ice-chilled.
Considering I thought you were different it hurts more that you're the same
as all the other Jezebels, i only have myself to blame,
the love I use to feel has turned into disappointment,
i must move on, find a soothing ointment,
I wish it was as easy to let go of you like it was for you to let go of me,
but i know you are gone, out of my life, so i must sail the sea.
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Literature
from the suicide note of Adam Kreiger
''To the God, if he does exist,
who chose to play a cruel, cruel joke on me
when he placed me where he did and surrounded me with so many uncaring faces''
"I am leaving a world to which I never truly belonged or fit in. Do not weep for me, or mourn my passing. I say this not because I expect to be missed, but to allow those who truly did not care go on with their lives with a clean conscience and dry eyes. I know you don’t want to weep for me. So don’t. But I do ask you to listen to the final words of a young man who has taken charge of his own destiny" 
"I do not know if what awaits me at the end of this gun. Will there be a void? Or will I come face to face with God? I just don’t care any more. If you’re anything like your people, I wouldn’t want to know you. You preached to love one another, yet I’ve felt everything except love from Christians. Even if I could know you were different, well, I still reject you. You have left your “follow
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Literature
true love shower the flower
he trips on his words but never falls,
making his way towards the siren's calls,
he doesn't remember but never forgets,
the pains, the doubts, and all the regrets;
he feels cold like December snow,
yet in his heart's a warming glow,
feels time moving faster than light,
so stops and thinks about his plight...
feels her as beautiful as a tree in sunlight,
his heart grows warm and fills with delight,
he fears both loneliness and togetherness,
oh, how his mind's become such a mess,
all he wants is to be happy, but something is holding that down,
sees a spark in the night, his twin? finally, he's losing his frown,
his smile as fake as plastic,
the frown it seems is elastic;
he feels like a dying rose flower,
thirsting for a true love shower.
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coming  by neon-ballroom coming :iconneon-ballroom:neon-ballroom 26 10 the album that inspired my username by neon-ballroom the album that inspired my username :iconneon-ballroom:neon-ballroom 4 2

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Summers gone too soon and the sky’s grey,
Couldn’t shake it through the rest of the day,
The blue sky is left behind,
And I can’t get you off my mind,
Shall we kiss this goodbye forever,
This is all too clever,
Dancing the night away sounds great,
Or maybe I’d rather just meet my fate,
Let’s flip the switch to the positive light,
The brightness is very bright,
I can see the moonlight outside,
It said it wants to be my guide
I’ll give the sky a glance,
But tonight we dance,
The time is Eleven Eleven,
So make a wish in heaven,
I have a golden dream,
It’s quite a theme,
The Kings and queens are alive and well,
But it doesn’t make me dwell,
I feel a static buzz,
And I don’t know just because,
Let’s go check out outer space,
At a faster pace,
Let’s go swim amongst the waves,
We will be no ones slaves,
We can be young like the early days,
There will be no need for anyone’s praise,
They won’t think of us when we’re gone,
We’ll stay up til dawn,
Heat wave
Took this photo while sitting in a chair outside, all i did was point my camera up and took a photo and today I decided to edit and post it
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Blossom
My first photo edit.. I took the photo about 2 months ago during a storm and I Just now decided to do some editing
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So i don't really talk about my feelings at all.  I don't really like opening up about my feelings or anything like that.  I think there is a few reasons for that like i have a hard time trusting people to keep things between us or even just trusting in general,  i also just don't feel comfortable about my feelings because i don't even like my own feelings and i feel like they're just exaggerated and i make big deals over small things.  but theres this dream i had or dream i just genuinely have thats just been bothering me and i wanna talk about it but once again i don't like opening up to people.  So im just gonna go here and tell a bunch of strangers (nothing against you guys) instead of opening up to someone in my family or a friend because i just honestly don't like people that i know judging my feelings. So there is this girl. Her name is Grace.   Ive known her for about 8 or 9 months and ive been into her for about 6 of those months.  Now i don't know what love is, or what it feels like but when i think about her that word floats around my mind.  I don't know if she knows how i feel because i try not to make it obvious, But i am friend zoned really hard,  She calls me "best friend" and "buddy", which is hardcore friend zone. You know i firmly remember the day i met her too. It was November i believe,  and it was at lunch and my friend roman said that his friend was gonna hang out with us and me and him were sitting at a table and up comes a girl and her friend,  and one of the girls my friend says "hey this is grace"  so i said "hey grace",  and in that moment my head was going crazy, i thought  she was absolutely beautiful,  her purple hair was really cute to me and her Avenged Sevenfold shirt caught me off guard,  they're one of my all time favorite bands,  I mean to me i thought she was the most beautiful girl i've ever seen.  So the lunch went by and she was literally the funniest girl i ever met and we bonded over making fun of this other girl we didn't like.  Before that lunch ended i got the courage to ask for her phone number. At the time i didn't know how much of a impact she was gonna have on my life.  So anyways onto the dream.  So its kind of a scenario type of thing,  but like whats going on is that we are at a ball, or a dance or whatever they're called and like the song "every breath you take" by the police is on and were slow dancing to the verses and then when the part of the song where it picks up and the lyrics "since you've gone ive been lost without a trace, i dream at night, i can only see your face i look around but its you i can't replace" and when that part kicks in we share a long kiss for that part of the song.  Lol i know all that sounds really corny and love dubby and blah blah, and i know thats the quote "stalker" song but lets pretend its not.   and yes i know that dream resembles what happens at the end of the last episode of season 2 of stranger things,   But lets admit the last 5 minutes of that episode are quite amazing.   Ill elaborate some more of my feelings for her.  We facetime almost  every night and i have such a blast when we do, i laugh a lot and she does to and it just keeps a smile on my face.  i've seen her go through two boyfriends and how each breakup went down is kinda crappy because she left the guy for another guy out of nowhere and thats something that scares me cause whos to say she won't do that to me. I know thats a terrible thing to say but its a thought i can't control.  Music is a huge thing in my life and a lot of bands i listen to she also listens to as well and thats a great quality.   i have a dark sense of humor like i tend to joke about things that are messed up and i just love offensive jokes,  but she appreciates my sense of humor and makes jokes more messed up than i say and its honestly amazing.  She often gets sad,  and everytime she gets down in the dumps i always comfort her and make her laugh and cheer her up,  like i remember one time she said to me "you made me laugh when i thought it was impossible to. I mean when she said that i felt really great. wow this turned into more than just describing my dream which was my plan going into this, but hey guess i had a lot to say. 

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