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Different points of view

Wed Nov 22, 2006, 12:09 AM
  • Listening to: We will meet again

Hi there! *greets everyone with a big smile*

I was just philosophizing around a bit and I want to share some thoughts with you and maybe you want to share some of your thoughts with me.
You know, I came across many different attitudes lately. Different people often deal with situations very differently. I watch and ask myself: What would I do? How would I react? Does what they do feel right to me or not?
Here are the top 3 adorable and the top 3 annoying points of view that I met:

Top 3 adorable points of view

1. I'm often hurt by other people but I still don't stop giving my trust to others beacuse if 1 out of 10 people really is a true friend, it's worth all the trouble with the rest.
~*bows low facing such greatness*~
2. I did not hear anything from you for a long time. I'm your friend and I'm worried. Are you alright?
~*bows low facing true friendship*~
3. You really made a big mistake but it's allright. We belong together, not only in good times but - and especially - in bad. I want you to share everything with me.
~*bows low for true love - may it be the love of friends, family or boy/girlfriend*~

Top 3 annoying points of view

1. Don't tell me how you feel. I know how you feel. I don't care if what you feel is different from what I think you feel beacause if what you feel is different from what I think you feel, you must be lying. What???? You swear that what you say is true???? You must be kidding!... No, you are a liar!!!! Because I know yourself better then you and I exactly know what you really think and feel because the truth is mine all alone. So admit that I am right and shut up!
~...err... o.o ... well ... o.O~
2. Why the heck didn't I hear anything from you for a long time?! You are my friend, you have to be there for me all the time! WTF?! Your live has been an absolute disaster and you just had to fight all the time to survive all this somehow????? I don't care about this!!!! You have to be there for me!!!
3. I broke up with my boyfriend because I deemed it best. What????!!!! You fell in love with him after we broke up? You are a couple now? OMG, you destroyed my whole life. No, wait, it's not your fault. We are friends! Buuuuut ... our friendship can never be the same because you love my former boyfriend. ... I know that it's not your fault ... really ... but still ...
~O.O *will never understand this*~

Please be aware that this is about attitutes, not about people! Everyone has a "bad" attitude sometimes - this deosn't mean that a person is evil or something. In fact, also the guys that have my top  annoying attitudes are really good and nice people in many ways.
And please keep in mind that how I see these attitudes is just my oppinion. People always have their reasons for thinking, feeling and acting the way they do. Therefore you have to be veeeeeeeeeery carefull with judging - if you dare to judge at all. You never can know really everything that stands behind an action and without all the background information you may have a wrong impression very easily!

Now it's your turn. Please share your experiences with me! Just one rule: no names! People are not to be seen in a certain light without really knowing them. One should always make him/herself a picture of others from their own experiences with them!

Yours sincerely
Neomae :hug:

1st anniversary

Wed Nov 1, 2006, 11:50 AM
  • Listening to: We will meet again

Hi pals!

Today is the day! November 1st 2006. That means it is not just the day after Halloween or the first day of the new year in the pagan calendar (the beginning of the night) - Exactly one year ago my beloved :iconazraelgargoyle: revealed his feelings to me and we became a couple! That was the starting point for a journey I never thought I would ever begin.
So today I say thank you. - Thank you for all that you've done for me. Thank you for every sacrifice you have made for me. Thank you for everyone you have led me to. Thank you for everything I have learned. Thank you for every moment you spent with me. Thank you for every word, for every smile, for every touch and for every kiss. I do love you with all my heart and with all my soul. I believe in you. We belong.



Mon Oct 30, 2006, 6:45 AM
  • Listening to: We will meet again

Finally... I'm back on the net

After over 3 months of mostly not being able to be online (and fighting with maaaaaaaaaany stupid and unfriendly T-com employees *growls*), I have a working internet access. So I again can say HELLO TO YOU ALL!!!!!
I've missed you!

Finally... some really big changes have taken place

My beloved boyfriend :iconazraelgargoyle: Has moved from Austria to Germany ... just for me! I will always remember this decision!
We found a really nice flat near Würzburg and he luckily found a job here, too. :D
The size of our flat allows us, to have some pets, too. After in June 2006 our dog Axel passed away (You can see a picture of him here:… He really was a pretty dog.) I had to live completely without animals around me - you also could say I didn't have animals around me for 4 jears now because Axel lived in Lugau with my grandparents while I spent most of my time studying in Würzburg. However, now we share our home with 3 adorable ferrets - Poke, Ash and Bartimäus. I'll upload some pictures of them sooner or later.
I also decided to make a few changes in my studies. I'm staying one year longer at the University to get some better premises for my future job. This decision was really hard to make and it took its toll on me.
I attended a furry con for the very first time: the Eurofurence 12 in Nürnberg. It was a great experience! Can't wait for the next con!

finally... an old road ended and a new one began

I had to say goodbye to some really close frineds and this really really has been hard - the hardest thing that ever happend to me, I think. I left the Acheronian Clan because I deemed it best and I really wanted to remain their friend but it looks like the circumstances didn't allow it. These were the hardest months of my life. I never felt such pain before, because I just couldn't let go - after all to me they ware family. But in times like these your real friends stand out. I'll never forget that they were there for me when I really was at the bottom. I finally found the place where I belong. You can see a picture of us here - and this time it is family for everyone :):… Again thank you very much for commissioning this, :icontaibugreylion: It really means so much to Azrael and me!
There are also some great friends beyond the pride. You know who you are. I thank you from the bottom of my heart! I really do love you!

With all the things that happened I had to completely rearrange my life. It has taken its toll on me but it's over now ... and finally ... I'm happy again :)

There is one good thing in having no internet: you really have time to draw ;) I'll upload some new pics soon.



No internet

Mon Sep 25, 2006, 2:30 PM

Hi there!

Just  to inform you: I'm alive and I'm fine... somehow *sigh* I've had no internet access for almost 2 months now and I have no idea when this will change.

C U ... somewhen ... I hope so ^^ :wave:

  • Listening to: The great pretender
  • Watching: The power of one

10K and other exciting stuff

Sun May 21, 2006, 5:24 AM

Hi there :) :wave: :hug:

15.5.06 - I can't believe it ... My art really reached 10K ... 10 000 pageviews ... wow, that's something I never thought would happen, when I joined DA 2 years ago. Thank you all really much! You can't imagine how much that means to me. It touched my heart! :handshake:

I know, I'm wayyyy to slow in answering to comments or thank people for +favs and +devwatches (111 comments to answer at the moment ^^). I'm really sorry about that! Also I'm really sad that I can't spend much time with my friends here (there are some very important friends to whom I didn't talk for far to long). You know, my time at university is almost over and there's much work to do. This wouldn't be too bad if there wasn't the fact that my life became really complicated in the last months. O.o Yeah, life is a rolercoaster ^^° Hope everything will be better soon because ...

an important decision was reached :omfg:

I'll tell you more when the time has come :) Please wish me luck - I'll need a whole lot of it to stand this test.

However, I still will try to answer to as much comments as possible and comment other peoples work. But I'm afraid I won't be able to thank everyone for every +fav or +watch (I instead try to use my less freetime to draw :) ). But please be sure: I really appreciate every word, every +fav and every +watch. Thank you so much!!!  :worship:

C U with new pics :)


  • Listening to: The great pretender
  • Watching: The power of one


Sat Apr 8, 2006, 9:18 AM

Hi there :wave:

It's playtime :D
You know rumours about me? You can write them down here (…) :)
Have fuuuuun :)

  • Listening to: Slash
  • Watching: Earthsea

Waiting for the world to fall

Sat Jan 21, 2006, 1:05 AM

Hi again! *hugs you all* :)

One month left to the first of 3 important exams. The topic is psychology - a nice and interesting topic in my oppinion. It's just veeeeeeeeeeeeeeery much to learn. Probably won't have much time to spend here at DA but I still try to have a look at the page as often as possible (although only short).

Maybe you already recognized that music plays an important role in my life. In these days some beutifull songs from the Narnia movie accompany me through the hours. I'll introduce the for me most important of them to you bit by bit. Here is the first one. Enjoy :hug:

"Waiting for the World to Fall" by Jars of Clay
(from the album "Christian Music Inspired by The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe")

I'm afraid it's been too long to try to find the reasons why
I let my world close in around a smaller patch of fading sky
But now I've grown beyond the walls to where I've never been
And it's still winter in my wonderland

I'm waiting for the world to fall
I'm waiting for the scene to change
I'm waiting when the colors come
I'm waiting to let my world come undone

I close my eyes and try to see the world unbroken underneath
The farther off and already it just might make the life I lead
A little more than make-believe when all my skies are painted blue
And the clouds don't ever change the shape of who I am to You

I'm waiting for the world to fall
I'm waiting for the scene to change
I'm waiting when the colors come
I'm waiting to let my world come undone

When I catch the light of falling stars my view is changing me
My view is changing me

I'm waiting

  • Listening to: Music from Narnia
  • Reading: The Chronicles of Narnia
  • Watching: guess ;)

And so it is Christmas :) ...

Sat Dec 24, 2005, 1:31 PM

I love Christmas, I really do :) And I wanna share my very favourite Christmas song with you :hug:

Extreme - Christmas Time Again

Christmas always goes too fast
It's up to us to make it last
And all I want for Christmas is love
Come that morning and I see you smile
It only lasts a little while
How come we seem to push it all side

Don't you know that it's
Christmas time again
I'm happy for you
You know it comes and goes
So let's pretend that it'll last all year

Soon it seems to disappear
It brings us towards eves tears
The day is down but the spirit should remain
It's times like these we need a change
I care enough to rearrange
I'll make sure it'll last all year

Don't you know that it's
Christmas time again
I'm happy for you
You know it comes and goes
So let's pretend that it'll last all year

Got to give a little more
Remember what we're thanking for
All my love, kind
Let's pretend just this time
Let's keep the flow this time
That our Christmas will last all year

Christmas time again
I'm happy for you
You know it comes and goes
So let's pretend that it'll last all year

Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel
Born is the king of Israel

(I don't know if the text is completely correct but I think you get the idea ^^)


I wish you all a merry Christmas, nice and relaxing holidays and a happy New Year! :hug:
Thank you all for supporting me, inspiring me and caring for me! I'm truly thankfull for everything you do! :hug:

I'll be gone for a few days. See you next year! :) :glomp:

(Oh yeah, and please don't worry anymore! I made an important step 2 days ago, which will surely help solve my problems very much :) )

  • Listening to: christmas songs (what else? ^^)


Thu Dec 22, 2005, 11:41 AM

Simple Plan - "How could this happen to me"

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light.
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just want to scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold
On to a time when
Nothing mattered
And I can't explain
What happened and I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just want to scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just want to scream
How could this happen to me


Screaming inside is all I can do now.

  • Listening to: some music


Fri Dec 16, 2005, 1:35 AM

Hey you all :)

First of all: Sorry for making you worry with my last journal entries. Thank you all for caring and helping me. I feel much better now. A big :hug: to you all!



Thanks to :iconlilliath: I found this video about one week ago:…
I loved it so much that I had to find out more about the song and the anime.
The song is part of a campaign against drinking an driving. I love the original video. It's very sad. It can be found at the band's homepage in the video section ("untitled").
The anime, which was used in the fan video is called "Full Metal Alchemist". You can find more information about it here:…
I saw the first 9 episodes so far and I really love it. It's a deep and sad story with interesting characters and a little bit of humor. And it has some intersting surprises. :D
It's definetely one of my very favourite TV series ever - together with "Gargoyles", "Wolf's Rain" and "Ranma 1/2" (Yes, sometimes I need a little comedy without story and so on ^^°. Ranma 1/2 has really nice, funny and lovely characters :) )
If you are interested you should give FMA a try. It's really worth it!  


I'm preparing an important exam at the moment so university keeps me terribly busy. That means you won't see "real" pics by me these days. But I'll probably upload some sketches or older works.  (... O.O Oh, how I'd love to do some fma fanworks ^^°)
Yeah and you'll probably will have to wait ages until I reply to comments and comment your pics. I'm really sorry! Gomen!

Christmas is near and I'm really enjoying these days. I love the atmosphere around. You know, Christmas for me is not about presents, it's about beeing there for each other and sharing some relaxing and beautifull days with loved ones. ... And then everything is decorated so nicely. :love: All this calms me down somehow. I really feel good right now.

I hope you have a nice time, too!

  • Listening to: Full Metal Alchemist openings and endings

to talk to

Wed Dec 7, 2005, 6:41 AM

Hey again :)

Do you now these moments when you really could need someone to talk to but there's noone there? It's not that there weren't some wonderfull friends out there but that they are friends doesn't mean that they haven't their own lives and problems. I won't bother them.
I started to clean up my room while listening to some music that moves me somehow. Then there is this stupid little journal entry. Don't know if anyone will read it or is interested in it but I don't care. I still could write some of my feelings down and that's good. Later I will sit down on my bed and watch a movie with a good cup of tea in a relaxing atmosphere. Maybe this will change my mood.  
So what do you do in situations like that?

  • Listening to: Jin Roh OST


Wed Nov 23, 2005, 12:39 PM

One of the most important things in my life seems to break apart.
Seems like I can't do anything about it.
Wanna end it.
Wanna go...

  • Listening to: "Please remember"

Tagged, too

Tue Nov 15, 2005, 10:40 AM

I was tagged with this by :icongalax: ... and some weeks ago by :iconhumanofprey: with something like that :)
- - - - - - - -- -- -- --------- -- -- -- - - - - - - -

7 important things in your room...

1. my Gargoyle-thingies
2. pencils and paper
3. pc, scanner and grafic tablet
4. my CD player
5. my favourite CDs
6. my favourite DVDs
7. my telephone
- - - - - - - -- -- -- --------- -- -- -- - - - - - - -

7 random facts about you...

1. I love Gargoyles
2. I love my friends
3. I love drawing
4. I love music
5. I like Animes and Mangas
6. I need my pc (including the internet)
7. I'm lazy -_-
- - - - - - - -- -- -- --------- -- -- -- - - - - - - -

7 things you plan to do before you die...

1. walking over the Brooklyn Bridge
2. see Scottland
3. improve my drawing skills
4. drawing the ONE pic
5. buy a comic drawn by :iconritam:
6. see all episodes of my favourite Animes
7. listen to many more great songs
- - - - - - - -- -- -- --------- -- -- -- - - - - - - -

7 things you say the most...

1. Hmmmm...
2. echt? "really?"
3. Hai bzw. Ja ("yes")
4. OMG
5. Ich hab dich lieb! ("I do like you!")^^
6. Sorry
7. Gargoyle O.o
- - - - - - - -- -- -- --------- -- -- -- - - - - - - -

7 celeb crushes (whether local or foreign):

I never had a crush on an actor or something O.o I only like the voices of some. Germany has great voice actors :)
So I'll tell some characters from different TV shows/movies, who's voices I really like:

1. Brooklyn (Gargoyles) => German and English voice
2. Ranma (Ranma 1/2) => German and English voice
3. Ryoga (Ranma 1/2) => German voice
4. Kiba (Wolf's Rain) => Japanese voice
5. Hige (Wolf's Rain) => Japanese voice
6. Mirokku (Inu Yasha) => German voice
7. Setsuna (Angel Sanctuary) => German voice

- - - - - - - -- -- -- --------- -- -- -- - - - - - - -

7 favorite drinks:

1) tea
2) water
3) Kiba
4) nothing more ^^
5) -----
6) -----
7) -----
- - - - - - - -- -- -- --------- -- -- -- - - - - - - -

7 memorable kiddy shows you used to watch as a kid:

I do still watch some of them :)

1) Gargoyles!!!!!!!!!!
2) Ranma 1/2
3) Wolf's Rain
4) Inu Yasha
5) Slayers
6) Pokemon
7) yeah... there must be some more ^^
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7 you want to tag this to...

uff... I think I don't know anybody who hasn't been tagged before ^^ ... So I'll tidy up my room instead

1. one who'd like to be tagged
2. one who'd like to be tagged
3. one who'd like to be tagged
4. one who'd like to be tagged
5. one who'd like to be tagged
6. one who'd like to be tagged
7. one who'd like to be tagged
(please tell me if I tagged you :) )

  • Listening to: "On my way"


Tue Nov 1, 2005, 7:27 AM

Hi everybody! :wave: :hug:

I used watermarking on a pic for the first time today (on this pic:…).
How to make such watermarks can be found here: :iconwatermarks:

It turned out better than I thought. However, I'd like to know what you think about protecting pictures that way. Do you like it? Why/Why not? Or do you prefer other methods? If yes, which methods do you use?


"Coyote Ugly" Yes, I think I watched this movie about 5 times in the last few days. I love it ^^° Can't do anything about it ^^ The actors do a great job and the German voice actors as well. It's really a lovely movie. I even like the story - although some people may say the movie has no story at all. I'm sure it has a story. ... Yeah, I really like this movie. ... I think I have to watch it again ^^°

  • Listening to: Gravitation - Best Collection
  • Watching: Coyote Ugly

Somehow sad

Fri Oct 7, 2005, 11:20 PM

Hi again :) :wave:

You know, it seem to be the small things that hurt one most.

When I have a pic in progress I usually ask other artists for advice. I trust in their artistic eye because my experience tought me that they usually see tings I don't see. This really hepls. Most frequently I show my WIPs to two very close friends of mine because I know that they deal with the pics really deeply and are very honest.
I worked at a very important pic in the last weeks and I asked those two people again. :icondeyvarah: helped me very much. Thank you, friend! :hug:
But when I asked the other person, this person started to blame me that I only would show my pictures to this person to make this person jealous. :(
I can't believe that this person really sees me in such a way. I can't believe that this person really thinks that I only show my pictures to others to say "Hey look at this! I'm the centre of the world and you are nothing!". This happened about one month ago and it still hurts very much. And I'm sure this person even doesn't know. This person seems to be much to busy to realize things like that -_-

I feel like crying T_T
Thanks for listening/reading! :hug:

  • Listening to: Minna Ga Ita Kara <= Can't get enough of this ^^

Beautiful song

Sat Sep 24, 2005, 12:54 AM

While I'm sitting in front of my PC working on some university thingies I love to listen to some relaxing music.
My very favourite song these days is "Minna Ga Ita Kara". I simply must introduce it to you! :heart: =P


Sung by: MATSUMOTO Rika
Found on: "Lugia Bakudan: Original Music Collection"

Lyrics: Minna Ga Ita Kara

Tsuyoi no ga erai wake ja nai no wa
Wakatte 'ru
Katsu koto yori mo makenai koto ga daiji na no mo
Wakatte 'ru
Tatakau dake ga batoru ja nai no mo nan to wo ku
Wakatte 'ru

Minna ga ita kara ore wa koko made koreta n' da
Da kara mou sukoshi ore ni mou sukoshi dake
Chikara wo kashite kure
Kono hoshi wo mamoru tame

Nakama-tachi ga ganbatte 'ru no wa
Wakatte 'ru
Chikara no kagiri tatakatte kurete 'ru no mo
Wakatte 'ru
Tsurai itami wo gaman shite 'ru no mo hontou wa
Wakatte 'ru

Minna ga ita kara ore wa koko made koreta n' da
Da kara mou sukoshi ore ni mou sukoshi dake
Chikara wo kashite kure
Tatakai ga owaru made

Minna ga ita kara ore wa koko made koreta n' da
Da kara mou sukoshi ore ni mou sukoshi dake
Chikara wo kashite kure
Tatakai ga owaru made


translation: "Because Everyone Was Here"

This great strength is not from myself
I know
To not lose is more important than to win
I know
A fight is not a battle
I know

Because everyone was here
I was able to come this far
So now, lend me a little of your strength
So that we can protect this planet

My friends must do their best
I know
To the ends of our strength, we'll fight
I know
I must persevere through this bitter pain
Truly, I know

Because everyone was here
I was able to come this far
So now, lend me a little of your strength
Until this fight is over

Because everyone was here
I was able to come this far
So now, lend me a little of your strength
Until this fight is over


Neither the lyrics nor the translation were made by me. I found it on a website. Unfortunately I can't remember where exactly. I don't know if they are completely correct but I think the person who made them did his/her best.

If you have the opportunity and if you like slow emotional songs you should listen to this one. It's really worth it! :heart: :heart: :heart:
BTW: I think I like the song that much because it has a special meaning for me. Some close ones may now ^^ However, I really like it. Yes, I'm really in love with this song. :heart: =P

  • Listening to: Minna Ga Ita Kara

Pleas help!

Mon Sep 12, 2005, 11:12 AM

Hi there :)

I'm working at an important pic at the moment and now I have a problem. I have to create splashing water with photoshop 7.0. It should look like this:
Please, can anyone tell me how? I need some hints soon!

  • Listening to: Chiisaki Mono

Thanks for 5000 hits!

Mon Sep 5, 2005, 11:48 PM

Hi there! :wave:

5000 views - I can't beleive it! Thank you so much! :wave: :heart:
To say thanks I made a little gift for all who are interested. You can find it here:…

======= IMPORTANT=======
As you can see my pics are back in the gallery. The reason:…
But still Jark's fight isn't over. Please, everyone who can: Support the Yellow Alien! You can get more information here:…
As I don't have PayPal or an own credit card I'll try to find someone who has. 10 Euro may not be much but maybe it helps at least a little.
EDIT: :iconaranesh: made the donation for me with his credit card. Thank you very much! :heart: :hug:

OK, that's all to say for the moment. (I won't say anything about Katrina 'cause I think you all know how I feel about it and you fell the same way, too.)

  • Listening to: Chiisaki Mono

back and hidden

Tue Aug 16, 2005, 3:07 AM

Hi :wave:


The last days were great! :iconsiril: visited :icondeyvarah: and me for 3 days, then we went to a youth hostel for the weekend to meet our clan :iconacheronian-clan: and some of it's friends. And after that :iconchireiya, Shibu and me went to *peeeeeeeep* (Galax doesn`t want anybody to know ^^; ) to visit :icongalax: and Spawn.
It was such a great time! Thank you all, friends! :hug: :heart:


As you can see all my deviations are hidden at the moment. It's my way to support :iconjark: and the DA community. I'll take them back into my gallery when things get better.
You can read more about it here:…

Please support DA, too!

  • Listening to: Gargoyles OST

Things I have to tell you

Mon Jul 11, 2005, 5:24 AM

First of all: Correction Notice

Some of you may have noticed on ( ) that I'm one of the artists whose picture was chosen for this year´s Gargoyles Gathering-Anthology. In fact the pic that was chosen was a collaboration of :icondeyvarah: and me. We decided to participate together in hope of a better result. So we founded the art-group GArt (Gargoyle-Art) and shared the work according to abilities – Chi designed the body and pose, and I worked on the character details, shading and background.
As only my name is on the list of the artists, Chi and I wanted to let you know about fact that we did it together this way. Thank you!

And then:

I'm really sorry that I can't be very active at DA at the moment. I have a lot of things to do and I can't tell when the situation will change. I know I'm really slow at replying to comments and commenting pics. I'm sorry! :cry:

To remind myself: art-to-do-list

- wedding comission
- fanfic illustration for Sid Amos
- avatar for Sid Amos
- 600st hit present-pic for Aranesh
- 1000st hit present-pic for the Acheronian Clan
- 1400th hit pic for Rita M.
- pic for Thalion and Klaue
- Fiore faith
- pic for LGE
- pic for Spawn
- pic for Rahsyk
- art trade with d3m0n4
- art trade with Lilly
- pic for V-C
- pic for Schnuffelkätzchen
- another art project
- the second other art project ^^
- the third other art project ^^°

So I'm:
- closed for requests
- closed for art trades
- closed for comissions

  • Listening to: some great songs from "Wolf's Rain"