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Nekot-The-Brave
Nekot
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Hai there.

Feel free to add me on steam:
steamcommunity.com/id/Nekot/

Twitter handle is:
'@NekotTheBrave'

Ask me in a note for Skype. I'll reject requests from people I don't know unless you let me know that you're going to make a request.

Games that I play:
Kingdom of Loathing - Nekot (#1011692)
Guild Wars - Nekot The Brave
Guild Wars 2 - NekotTheBrave.2013
Battle.net (D3, Hots, SC2, etc.) - Nekot#1366
Runescape - Nekot, HC Nekot
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Twilight
Just something that I wanted to do. It's not my 1st idea, I had wanted to do something post apocalyptic, but I figured that I should start experimenting with color before I did that.

2-3 hours.

Fisher 400 Sanded paper mounted to Conservation Board
Faber Castell Poly Chromos Colored Pencils
Sponge Applicators
Brush and Pencil Textured Fixative
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Likulau
Just testing out some stuff with my colored pencils. Just learning, and wanted to do some fanart of one of my favorite characters. I've learned that even if your background is going to be simple, that you need to plan and draw it ahead of time otherwise it'll look like shit while you're trying to figure out what you actually want =P So yeah, I think this is alright, there's some missing details that I couldn't get in cus of some physical limitations with the paper that I was using that I'll have to work around. But I enjoyed drawing this overall and look forward to the next picture I do.

8-10 Hours (Had re-do it once)

Fisher 400 Sanded paper mounted to Conservation Board
Faber Castell Poly Chromos Colored Pencils
Sponge Applicators
Brush and Pencil Textured Fixative
Brush and Pencil Powder Blender
Brush and Pencil Titanium White
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Night
Just some experimental artwork that I wanted to do with the new art stuff that I got.

6-7 hours over a couple of days.
Fisher 400 8x10 Sanded paper mounted to Conservation Board
Faber Castell Poly Chromos Colored Pencils
1 Prismacolor Premiere Colored Pencil
Sponge Applicators
Brush and Pencil Textured Fixative
Brush and Pencil Powder Blender
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I Tried
Just some experimental colored pencil artwork. I'm not as skilled as I want to be, but you can't get better if you don't try.

Maybe 3-4 hours, with a bunch of downtime for fixative work.

Fisher 400 Sanded paper mounted to Conservation Board
Faber Castell Poly Chromos Colored Pencils
Sponge Applicators
Brush and Pencil Textured Fixative
Brush and Pencil Powder Blender
Brush and Pencil Titanium White

Reference, Page 151 of
"Wolves"
Written by Shaun Ellis
Photography by Monty Sloan
Copyright Paragon Books Ltd 2006
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Paper Wolf
Hadn't touched colored pencil in a while and got a black sketchbook and wanted to test it out and ended up with this.
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So, as you've probably seen, there's been a lot of changes that have been going on around my account, my activity, and other stuff. There's some pretty good reasons behind this, and I feel like it's okay to share them with you guys in case you're all wondering why I'm doing 'x' or whatever.

So I've been dealing with mental illness for a long time, in specific, I suffer from Bipolar 1 and have some dissociation disorder. For a long time, I've had the depression part of my BPD kinda treated, I guess, but I was never really able to get the mania part of BPD looked at very well because it's... well... it's not like 'bad', you know? Whenever I had a manic episode, I was able to DO things. I was able to complete projects and whatever; but I'd also suffer from all sorts of other shit while under a manic episode, like convulsing and having feelings that I didn't want (i.e. smiling euphorically and not being able to stop). So I went to the doctor and expressed my concerns in regards to my manic episodes that were fresh in my mind at the time and she prescribed me a low dose of Quetiapine (which didn't do anything at all at the time, basically) and told me to go find a psychiatrist. So I procrastinated on that for a very long time. And so I end up playing this game called 'Night In The Woods', and the main characters in that game suffer from some of the same stuff that I do, and I was able to relate a lot to the characters in the game, and it made me 'feel'. At the time, I tended to hang on to things that make me 'feel', because I've never really been normal or had normal feelings, so these were always unique experiences for me. I later learned that the main character/PC, Mae, also suffers from a type of Dissociation disorder; which after looking into that (thanks Kotaku), I was able to finally diagnose a particular disorder that I had been suffering from for like 9 years. Dissociation. So, after reading about how to deal with it, I learned that it could be caused by trauma that I experienced in the past, kinda like PTSD; and so I chose to look into my past and, attempt to unfold things that I packed away. This caused me great distress, distress that I'm currently feeling right now, and distress that attacks me at any point in time where I read or hear about anyone being raped, bullied, assaulted, or whatever. I wrote a poem about it, Trauma, and this was the very first time that I told anyone, other than the school counselor mentioned in the poem, about this incident. This was my raw feelings copied directly to 'paper', or in this case, a digital poem. I wrote this at work. I didn't care, I just needed to get it out. Now everyone knows, and it's okay. I started drawing Night in the Woods fanart because, because I wanted to. Because I wanted to do this, and it made me feel happy. So, while I was drawing and unpacking these feelings, I finally scheduled an appointment with a psychiatrist, and when I got to see her the first time, I laid out all the details that I could. She diagnosed me with Bipolar 1, which was the only diagnosis that I've ever gotten for that, despite knowing that I've had it for multiple years, and she also diagnosed me with a type of Dissociation disorder after I told her (due to self-research) that I had depersonalization episodes. She increased the dosage of my Quetiapine to 100mg, and asked me to, after two weeks, to increase the dosage to 150mg. At 100mg,  I could feel things start changing, but then Hurricane Harvey hit, and I was whisked way by work for business continuity purposes. But at that time, after work each day (I got switched from nights to work days for the time being) I got 'home' (aka, hotel), and I wanted to draw, and it made me happy to draw. It made me feel good, it made me feel something that I hadn't felt in... i don't even know. I felt passion. I felt... normal. Like... my feelings were natural, not artificial. It felt great. Then, we went home. Luckily, I didn't lose anything. Like zero damage what-so-ever, despite this being a catastrophic hurricane that totally screwed with everyone else (my team lead lost basically everything). And so, it came to around 2 weeks since I started the 100mg of Quetiapine, and so I upped the dosage to 150mg. This literally knocked me out for 2 days, I wasn't really prepared for the side effects that happened and had to take off work because I literally couldn't. But after that, everything was fine. I started trying to draw everyday, and my choice of subject has mainly been Night in the Woods fanart, because it's really helped me, and I'll continue to draw fanart for this fantastic game. But overall, everything has just gotten better. I'm actually motivated to do things, Like, I want to do things and I can actually do them. This is a totally new experience for me. I'm also like, re-learning all of my emotions because I've basically just been null for the past... way too long. No feelings, no emotions, no nothing. So yeah, I'm dealing with all of this new stuff; so I'm going to post vent art, I'm going to say shit, I'm going to care, I'm going to do what I want to do. Because I can actually do it now. There's nothing stopping me; and right now I'm just doing what I can, and that's drawing, working, participating in the wonderful Night In the Woods discord, and dealing with my traumatic experiences in the past. Unfortunately this also leaves me open to feeling those emotions in the past, which is just required for me to move on and grow. One of the nights in the past few weeks, someone on the NITW discord posted up a song, corbin aka spooky black, revenge song, with the quote "this song makes me cry", and I listened to it and it resonated so deeply with me that it caused me to have a dissoiative episode which resulted in harm done to myself and some walls in my apartment building. I hadn't had one of these, in like... a long time, 4 years perhaps? Ever since I moved from where my parents were living. So, it affected me a little bit more than 'usual' because I forgot how I dealt with these, because back then, it was a pretty common occurrence (and luckily no one but myself ever got hurt). I'm not going to explain what goes on, even though I have it fully documented, simply because I need to actually talk to my psychiatrist (who's also acting as my therapist) about it, and will do that tomorrow when I see her. But in anycase, I decided to draw some stuff about it and I've been trying to get better and stuff with art and have been looking at new ways to expand my skill set and bring ideas to live. But yeah, that's generally what's been going on with me, and that's partly why I choose to draw Night In the Woods fanart and stuff, because it's helped me and I'm going through a whole lot of stuff right now. I really appreciate the support that you guys give.


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feral-experiment53 Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
hey, thanks a lot for the :+fav: :D :D
(late reply, sorry, got busy xd)
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MisoraRae Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you kindly for the favs. :)
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ShadowEclipex Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:icondragonwant::squee: I thank thee ever so much for the watch!!~ :squee::iconbegplz:
And for faving  Inktober 2017 Day 29 Kerber Rex by ShadowEclipex , Kerber Rex by ShadowEclipex , and  Chibi RQ - Riptie by ShadowEclipex !!~
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ShadowEclipex Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for faving  AT Alga-00: Rhyz by ShadowEclipex  and  Crimson, with Crimson, during Crimson by ShadowEclipex  too!!~
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MoonandSky Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the watch and fav!!:iconfoxyayzplz: 
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wisahkecahk Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Very kind thanks for the BLADE PIXEL QUEST favourite!It is greatly appreciated!!!!!
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Nekot-The-Brave Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2018
You're welcome. Keep up the good work.
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shirogu5 Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks a lot for the fave :) Means a lot to me!
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Nekot-The-Brave Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2018
You're welcome. Keep up the good work.
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shirogu5 Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
<3
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