I've been missing in action here lately and I feel like I owe you guys a bit of an explanation.
The holidays were a very stressful time for me, but above everything, they were a very lonely time too. They threw me into a pretty heavy depression and I honestly just tried my damnedest to sleep through all of it.
Because of circumstances beyond anyone's control, we were short of money for Christmas dinner- by the time we had some, the stores were closed and we all ended up eating at a Chinese food buffet. I am grateful for the dinner, but the whole time, all I could think about was Blake saying he wanted to eat at a Chinese food buffet once he got better. He did not get the chance and I suffered through that the entire time we were there.
After that, all of my motivation to do anything just kind of went out the window. I occasionally spoke in group chats on Twitter, but mostly I just listened to music and tried to draw- hence all of the fan art and half-finished projects. Unfortunately, lately, I'm still having trouble finding the ability to reply to comments and thank people for all of the favorites and watches. I appreciate them, without a doubt... it's just that I start to reply and my mind blanks. I'm trying to get back into some sort of rhythm, but it's still really hard for me.
I'm still going to do my best to reply to everyone, I guess I'm just asking for some patience. :/
Having said that, I do have some plans for 2019.
Going forward, I want to do streams- art and games. It's something that I've wanted to do for some time and I've tried here and there. I'm going to try to work out some sort of schedule for it but it's all pretty dependent on how I feel on any given day.
I also plan to work a lot more on Nek(R)o. There are a lot of people that have told me they're enjoying it so far (THANK YOU! ♥) and I intend to keep it going. I'm just having a slow start at the moment.
I also wouldn't mind doing tutorials- traditional and digital... but I don't know where to start. If there's something you'd like me to do a tutorial on, please send me a note or drop a comment below. Believe me- any direction is appreciated.
I also plan to start doing short, written stories for Nek(R)o. They may or may not be canon (I'm undecided). I will be uploading them here and on Tumblr
. I don't consider myself much of a writer so any feedback on these would be greatly appreciated.
When 2019 started, I told myself that I wasn't going to set unrealistic goals this year. I'm not shooting for the moon. My resolution was nothing more than to try. Try new things, try to move forward, try the things I've been scared to try. Try everything I can- so that's what I'm going to do. In Jacksepticeye's video about 2018, he said "Let's try and fail spectacularly" and that's what I'm going to do. I am certain that I will fail at some of the things I do this year, but I will at least have tried.