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Cry, Baby
We fake it til we break it
Plaster on that smile,
pretending everything is okay
One hand a camera and a grin,
the other a blade and broken skin
Don't hide your misery
Cry, Baby, cry
Let loose the tears and hurt
Climb from the hell you were thrust into,
with salt on your lashes
Claw til the sun shines,
with laughter bubbling from your throat
Cry, Baby, cry
Let it soothe away the pain
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Literature
Breakdown
One trigger
One hurtful careless comment
     It doesn't matter
     I brought it on myself
The thoughts come rushing in
Screaming inside, til you can't hear the world around you
You pull your hair
Bite your lip
Scratch yourself
As tears puddle
It doesn't stop
It won't
The heart aches and clenches
Your chest feels so tight
You can't get enough air
You want to scream
But you must be quiet
No one likes to hear you scream your pain
You can't let them know how broken you are
How you never seem to heal
Find the closest sharp object
Slash your skin
    Over and over
You don't even feel the cuts anymore
The blood feels cool dripping off your limb
The screaming thoughts, they won't stop
The nausea hits and your stomach clenches
It rolls and your throat tightens
You can feel the pulse when your heart aches
Every word spoken
It replays just for you
Too much
Not enough
Crazy
Needy
Psycho
Bitch
Failure
Slut
Prude
No love
No friends
Family runn
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Literature
Another day
She sits in a chair
With a pencil to a pad
Scratching away, til the tears dry
     Hope breaking is a painful thing
Wishes are whispered each night
With lips pressed against the pillow
Eyes clenched damp and tight
     Sometimes the pain escapes
Each morning she lifts her face to the sun
Letting it press heated kisses to the skin
Each morning she hopes the pain will end
     Slowly her heart is decaying
     The heart yearns and cries
     Yet no one can hear the screaming inside
     The darkness is closing in
Just another day she writes
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Literature
Again
Alone I sit, hidden
Darkness casts a veil
Only under the moon
Tears shine as they cascade
Dew has fallen
Dampening my skin
The fog rolls in
As the clock has already restarted
Ink from the sky
Bleed onto the earth
Pain throbs in my limbs
Yet I still yearn
Over one hundred thousand hours
Yet still my voice cracks
     'Find me'
Grant my only wish
     'Complete me'
Wife and Mother
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Literature
Painted Lies
The best lies, I've found
Are the ones when you don't lie at all
You pick and choose your honesty
Half truths and half spoken sentences
Careful of the cliches
Never say you're fine
Always gild your mouth with frevor
The poison tastes so much sweeter
Smile, joke, tease, laugh
You've done this before
Just another mask, so calm
As the demons shred your flesh
I've found I'm a good liar
No one ever looks close anyway
They'll see paint,
when the blood flows.
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Literature
Familiar
Just a touch
   Metal across skin
Like a lullaby
   So familiar
A practiced dance
Clenching jaw
Tears will fall
Broken laughs
Echoing harshly
The drop, heavy
    The pull to your stomach
Hollowness vibrates
    Soul yearning for numbness
Stand there
    Watch the light leave
Watch me
    My will slips
Surrounded and invisible
    When I'm home
Left alone, never cared
Exclusion like sleet
Freezing, sharp ache
    My heart lurches
I'm drowning in screams
And no sounds escape
Fought too long
Weary from the battle
I think the end is near
Soon the war will stop
An Echoing peace
On the night, new moon
Darkness will hold me close
Wipe away the tears
No one can see or hear
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Literature
Bedtime Ritual
2 am
Waiting for sleep
Waiting for relief
Yet tears press
Til they fall
With eyes clenched
My chest aches
My breath stutters
I miss you so much
Yet I cannot tell you
Anything for salvage
I treasure your friendship
I'm weak, and I cry
I'll lay here in your shirt
While hoping my tears will dry
This has become a nightly ritual
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Literature
Coping
Scrape
Spark
Flame
Deep inhale
And it begins to burn
Pull the poison
Smoke, perhaps of dying flame,
Gently trails from parted lips
Suck and inhale
Til my lungs burn
As sharp as a knife
I'll pull and pull
Til the filter is soft
And with a wicked smile
A grimace of self hate
I'll extinguish the light
And burnt flesh is scent
The shaky breathe of last pull
Swirls into the night.
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Literature
Fly and Die
And I am reminded
of why I tried so hard
To push the thoughts away
Romance isn't for all
And it always seems to fall
Hearts break and heal
Others shed their skin
A new reason to breathe
Failure seems to be the only option
When love is the question
I'll wipe my nose
And brush my eyes
My heart still aches
And I may never learn to fly
My heart, the best I'll deny
Hush now, don't cry
When only angels can fly
But you're not an angel
And from the earth
You were born,
and from Earth you will die.
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Literature
Depression
Isolation
Submerged
Booming voices, but I cannot make out words
Racing, screaming, thoughts,
Yet the silence is deafening
Gasping for air, drowning in the darkness
Anxious, wanting to run
So tired, sluggish
Dull ache throbbing in my chest
Depression always whispering
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I love her
With lips so soft
she pressed them to mine
my heart began to flutter
singing a song
so sweet I cried
her scent twirled around me
like a dance only lovers move to
I could feel her heartbeat
pressed against my chest
she is my love
my dream, the dream
I spent years yearning for
as she whispers in my ear
all that I can think
is  that I love her
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Literature
Finally, Ever After
she's dreamed and dreamed
her whole life was made of dreams
she dreamed at night of happiness
she dreamed during the day
she hoped and hoped
crying and fighting every moment
trying so hard to make one dream true
given up on love, that would equal happiness
she fought to live, be successful
a month from fighting for a new dream
hazel met amber eyes
she drowned in the whiskey eyes
fighting to not fall
fighting to not feel pain again
days pass, not a month long it happened
she fell, she fought it, she kept it hidden
but when told of love, she reciprocated
she was loved, and she loved in return
a first, a wondrous feeling, of flying
a year will pass and tears fall again
she has hope of a future
she has a confident hope
she still loves and she is still loved
she is happy, finally, ever after
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We fake it til we break it

Plaster on that smile,
pretending everything is okay

One hand a camera and a grin,
the other a blade and broken skin

Don't hide your misery

Cry, Baby, cry

Let loose the tears and hurt

Climb from the hell you were thrust into,
with salt on your lashes

Claw til the sun shines,
with laughter bubbling from your throat

Cry, Baby, cry

Let it soothe away the pain
Cry, Baby
Response to a poem called 'Smile People'
I Don't agree with the 'fake it til you make it', as crying can soothe and we more often break ourselves trying to hide the pain... especially for another's benefit.
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One trigger
One hurtful careless comment
     It doesn't matter
     I brought it on myself
The thoughts come rushing in
Screaming inside, til you can't hear the world around you

You pull your hair
Bite your lip
Scratch yourself
As tears puddle

It doesn't stop
It won't

The heart aches and clenches
Your chest feels so tight
You can't get enough air
You want to scream
But you must be quiet
No one likes to hear you scream your pain

You can't let them know how broken you are
How you never seem to heal

Find the closest sharp object
Slash your skin
    Over and over
You don't even feel the cuts anymore
The blood feels cool dripping off your limb
The screaming thoughts, they won't stop

The nausea hits and your stomach clenches
It rolls and your throat tightens
You can feel the pulse when your heart aches

Every word spoken
It replays just for you

Too much
Not enough
Crazy
Needy
Psycho
Bitch
Failure
Slut
Prude

No love
No friends
Family running out
No future
No hope

A single thread,
The only thing holding you
Pulled so tight
Too tight, and thinning

The blood that trails
Feels cool beading and spilling
Across the skin

And the thought
STILL WON'T STOP

There's no one there
There's no one that cares

You try writing
You try smoking
You try daydreaming

How many breakdowns
Til there is nothing left to break?
Breakdown
Noticed I never uploaded this. Written September 7th 2016
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I've been gone for awhile.
I haven't done any photography, very little writing and only a drawing occasionally.
A ... lot
Has happened.

First, during easter weekend 2015, my cat got ran over by a car. We found him 3 days later possibly  (2 or 3 days), he passed less than a week after.
That was the beginning.
In October, things started feeling way off, more than the occasional tingling.
The very beginning of November, my then fiancé cheated on me. Came home with a hickey ...
I took my cats and stayed with a friend, trying to figure crap out, so I left my ex at home.
A week or so later, a fire happened. What art and two poems and all my supplies, some clothe, all jewelery etc was gone. The worst part, neither Mystic or Kali made it.
Smoke inhalation, as the bathroom saved them.
I was not home at the time, and the fire an accident that is no one's fault.
By then, due to my ex's reaction... I cut all emotionless ties.
Due to various reasons, I met someone right before, during and after the fire. We were just friends, but about a week after the fire... I started developing feelings for this person.
Sound sudden? I may have freaked out. It was not intentional, and I resisted, and it wasn't a rebound. By Thanksgiving  (3-7day decision making aka freaking out), we started dating.

While I have ... certain feelings on how I moved on so fast, etc..... which will probably seen in my poetry in the near future, all and all... through all the crap.... I'm happy. But almost 5  years does damage.

Thier name is  Jordan for those who are curious, natural red head... yes, I snagged a ginger.

I'll update more on that later, I guess the final thought would be... I can not tolerate betrayal... and cheating is probably one of the worse betrayals.

I am happy with who I'm with, still scared shitless, but that's life... it never stops... and we can't without being trampled.
I have a some art pencils, a new sketch book...I've replaced what I've needed as far as material possessions go. A jewelry piece and handmade runes.... that sucked.
(And birth certificate and social security card).

I'll see what I can  put up, also trying new medicine.

-kitty 🐾

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Hey belated wishes, been a while, how are you?
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Happy late Birthday! Hope it was a good one! :D
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

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