Seems like time for another update, for those of you who are interested.
Oh, but first, a bit of business:
Commissions are closed.
I’m sorry, but I have way too many projects going on right now to take on any more. The closest thing I have to commissions these days is my Sketch Request tier over on Patreon, if you’re interested and cool with some less-polished work.
Anyway, I’m still drawing, still struggling with depression, still trying to improve every day, and still enjoying every minute of it! (Well, not the depressing ones. Those minutes suck)
I think my current philosophy falls somewhere in between the state of laid-back mindfulness and the state of seizing every day and crushing it to my will. Neither way works all the time, so I’ll just go with whatever is handy at the moment.
For years I’ve agonized over which path was more useful. Both sides of the argument, “Let It Be” or “Carpe Diem” have their merits and can help in certain situations, but both can fall flat on their faces at times, and I grind my teeth when I hear proponents of either side seemingly contradict themselves.
My favorite example, which comes up time and again among the motivational speaker sorts, is where they will in one breath tell you that, “Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results” and, in the next breath, “Success comes from relentless perseverance and unwavering faith in your goals!”
Well, which is it, Motivation Guy?!
Then I came to realize that motivational speakers are like cheerleaders. They aren’t really there to tell you how to win, they’re there to whip you into a frenzy that gives you the strength to push through the obstacles you face.
On the other hand, it can be quite useful to focus on the moment and relax, breathe, and realize that most of your fears are just illusions, but, if I just focused on that, like some modern guru, you’d never get any elf porn.
Of course, the counter-argument is that the world doesn’t really need elf-porn, but that argument is utter nonsense, and I reject it outright.
So, what philosophy to follow?
I dunno, but it seems like I need both. I do consider myself a religious guy, which may come as a surprise to some, but my religion isn’t the sort where I need to tell you to Convert or DIE! Suffice to say, keep an open mind, don’t be dicks to each other, and do try to see the other person’s point of view, and you’ve got the basic premise of my religious beliefs. I used to worry that God would hate me for drawing naked elves and playing D&D, but, the more I studied and searched for the truth, the more I came to believe that that view of God was pretty childish, and I came to pity the people that tried to convince me of the existence of such a petty and weak-minded deity.
Anyway, I’ll get back to drawing naked elves now. I just wanted to say hello, and tell everybody how much I appreciate all of your love and support!