Listening to: A day to remember
Reading: Ocean Gardens (screenplay)
Watching: Buiten De Zone seizoen 1
Dear folk and Deviant watchers. Maybe you guys will understand.
Most of my friends hate my skinny drawings. The femboys, the transgenders, the 'other' things,...
My mum, for example, has told me she gets a bad feeling just by looking at it.
Most of my drawings were born in the night. 'Cause I prefer drawing in the night, listening to the right music (the knife, fever ray, crystal castles,...) and just ... escaping from everything I've felt that day. In a trance, I always draw the thing I REALLY LIKE. The things that actually discribes me. My fantasy is more part of me then real life at night. In that moment, it's impossible for me to draw funny things for other people. The night is just a time between me and myself. I think it's something every artist has to live with. When I wake up the next day and I see my paintings... I'm always happy with it. BUT when I show them to my friends...they don't give a f*ck. They even don't 'like' it on facebook.
BUT when I sit down for about 5 minutes to draw a cartoon about myself, they're all like: O M G, YOU ARE SUCH A GOOD ARTIST!! PLS, CAN YOU DRAW ME NOW?????
The people around me, my so called friends, are always enthusiastic about my comics, my portraits and other cartoon stuff.
People are texting me to draw a picture of them... It's always the same, people like my art, only if they understand it. If they are included in the concept.
I've created a rule to myself: If someone asks me to draw him: it's always NO.
Because, sometimes, at night, I do paintings of friends. I place them in an unrealistic world, between other heroes. But I will never ever draw friends who ASK me to do that. I hate drawing things other people just WANT. It's not me. It's not my fantasy. It's stupid.
I love the night and I love my skinny 'Athyn' boy.
And I love the people on deviant art and Tumblr, who also like that part of my art the most...