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Journal Entry: Mon Jun 11, 2018, 7:30 AM
  • Listening to: Instrumental Video Game Music

I just realised I have now turned 12 years old.... on Deviantart! :lol: It is amazing what has happened since the humble beginning, the wonderful people here who have become a part of my life. And the challenges that come with being an Artist in general.

I decided to write a new journal, seeing as the previous was about cheap arts...that no one really commissioned me! I don't blame you, all this time I have been under a rock (a sparkly one though so not all bad!), so my talents might be questionable in some degree...  To be completely honest, it's more about WHAT has triggered me not to upload on dA and I think now, seeing I am 12 years old on here (lol) I have grown up and decided to be honest and truthful to those who follow my arts and general direction... It wouldn't be or feel right if I didn't at least tell you the reasons for my absence and sorta abandoning my dA account.

:star: Many years ago, I started noticing a vast change in dA, not to mention the fact it has swapped hands and has lost the community feel from 2005 when I first joined. At first, I was very protective over my art, snarling and making a big deal from losers who would troll the depths for tasty art works to pass off as their own... some did fake accounts, some escalated it and took over a persona which they where trying to steal my identity in some way, well... they didn't do it very well haha, fail to the max with "trying" to pretend it was me, certain shit like... dude, I'm not American! :lol: Changing certain key factors like that was red flags to anyone who knows me for the REAL me, even the way I type... how I express myself, I started taking the troll thing really personal, as some kind of cyber attack. But in the end, the real NatSilva shits on all of you fakers and that's the truth. I got so huffy at one point that I ditched going online for several weeks, cause I just felt....Ugh I'm gona come back and find notes and messages about "this person is stealing your art" or "they are selling your art". Ok, wait, back up for a sec there.

:star: Trolls are one thing, they are annoying ants in my ass, hovering flies that won't buzz off, desperate fools with nothng better to do than reek all over so they can feel better about themselves, you get the idea... they are just waste of time... BUT then there's the theft, to all honesty, to all those young ones out there... WHY ARE YOU STEALING IN THE FIRST PLACE? And didn't your parents teach you a single thing about respect? Just because you are on the Internet, doesn't give you the right to be a dick and steal others stuff. Pretend like you did it and keep that game going? For what?? Young people these days piss me off :/ no grammar, abbreviation of every second word, trying to adapt emojis and stupid shit that will some how make them believe they are an intellectual being to even think about having a conversation with?

:star: Theft, the one thing that urks me out... it's happened to the circle of fan artists I call my family, amongst them we have all been there, shared our deepest and darkest secrets with each other cause that's what good friends and family does, right? Without being judged or for one second think they would have bad advice if you ever needed good advice, does that make sense? C: So, here it is... the reason why I personally don't post anymore (or very sceptical about it), is partly due to theft.

:star: I have seen people use my art for tattoo's, without FIRST asking. And just because I DON'T reply when you want me to, doesn't give you the right to go ahead with it! That's where the respect thing comes in... yeah you see? :L
I had this guy note me, oh I don't know months ago, maybe even last year... he said he loved my art work and had it (a pic of Mario and Peach being all cute together or some thing) on his arm/leg whatever... At first I was reading his sad story about the reason why he got it... his mum past or some thing and he saw that pic as some thing he wanted to remember his mum by... again, this is a vague story about one incident..... Then I decided to overlook that, because I felt kinda bad for them. It still gave them the chance to ask first, before they went and did it... Getting an image FREE from the original artist who drew it, coloured it etc, then taking it with no commission for them and giving it to a tattoo artist who would then get all the praise and money for some thing THEY DIDN"T DO I THE FIRST PLACE! THAT shit overrides anyone's mum/dad, dog, pet fish...I don;t care what, dying. Sorry! NOT sorry, MY ART, I made it, why should others get the glory and thanks when you decide to steal it or take it without even a consideration to what the original artist will think or do about your stupid arrogant selfish move? :L

:star: These reasons are hard to say, but now I am stronger and older, I can truly tell you to fuck off! :D Do the wrong thing and you will burn inside, I won't care and others will see how much of a dick you are from doing this.... SO, in future I will NOT be uploading any more art work here on deviantart, if you want art, you're gonna have to pay for it! None of this free shit, points piddle. I eat, pay bills and need toilet paper to wipe my ass with! I mean, I need materials to draw with, *cough*.. So if you don't get how thw world works, go live on the street for a week and then come back and tell me how it went. It's a hard orld out there, I'm sick of always giving out to people and then getting dumped on. I will still have my arts here, I wll disable comments (cause to be honest), I can't deal with the short comments, with "That's cute" and "aww".... I want  REAL comments, from the heart! I take time to go through others arts and tell them what I feel, what it shows me, deep shit... and I CBF with stupid comments that have no heart.

Yes, I am a little bit of a sour puss atm, and it's only due to just stupdid uneducated people who come here and treat it like facebook or their own personal page, where they take others work and put it in their pages. If you want to be part of the art community, learn how to have online etiquette (manners ) first. Then you can understand why so many good artists have just had enough and are opting to go take control with their own sites. dA has gone downhill due to there not being a sense of control, so in order to play the game and survive, you must either chose to follow like a sheep and go about your business thinking you are in control but really aren't, OR lead by example. Be different, do different, be outspoken, open minded and respect originality and others things. Learn from those who have bee there, so you can pass on the knowledge later on.

I will be around again to update on a few things.... I am in the prosees of creating and putting my own website, I will have arts, photography and fashion junk in there! :D Anything from crafts and every day randoms to commissions and paid work. I won't be ditching dA, but there are some very strong changes I will have to enforce with my gallery and arts on here. Hopefully my rants haven't scared you off haha! But it be a good note that I am well, focused and determined and will still be who I am regardless of what happens! ^__^

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Anthonylopez14 Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2018  Student Digital Artist
Humdeedum233 Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
It used to be really easy to report art thieves as well. Now it's only the original artist to get anything done which is really unfortunate if the original artist is not from DA. It seems DA will not do anything it legally doesn't have to nowadays, reinforcing the lack of community.

At least at DA people who steal art tend to get a lot of nasty messages here because the mentality is different than other sites. Instagram my art gets stolen all the time and they don't even tag me.

What's worse they will get 10 x's the views because their entire account is about sharing pictures without giving credit >:V They should add a penalty that if it's stolen the likes shift over to the original artist's account

Mysterious-Cat-01 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2018
so this means that you'll continue the comic?
BeRnYGP Featured By Owner Edited Jun 12, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Wow, you change a lot. I really don't know what to say but I'm pretty sure that you change because of all what you have seen and passed these years; not only in what you have wrote in here. I differ in some points but who cares, still it's your life and you know how to handle it. It's great that you are thinking more in yourself and less in people that they only just a bother. :iconthumbsupplz:
NatSilva Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I haven't changed at all. It's certain things in life which have. I am still the same person, just because you may think I have doesn't mean I have. Please do not assume so.
BeRnYGP Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh, sorry, I am not really sure how much you have changed; but its great that you are the same Natz :D
Smoke130 Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2018
Happy 12!!!!!!!!!!!!
HamSamwich Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Looks like we feel the same way about the community, it definitely doesnt feel like it used to x'D its quite unfortunate

If youre still doing commissions, I'd love to buy one or two from you. I guess I can note you about this? Just lemme know if youre even doing them before i send notes n shit lol
Mario-Wolfe Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
That’s unfortunate considering I’m broke, but do what you want. It’s a shame you have to even feel this way. I had one of my characters stolen very recently, too. 

I noticed how long you’ve been here, and since there’s no point in keeping it a secret anymore... I tried appointing you to senior status a few months ago. I figured a lot of people really like you and look up to you, and you’re a big part of the Mario fandom on this website. I don’t think staff listened to my request, another reason why I have trust issues with this place so much.
NatSilva Featured By Owner Edited Jul 3, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
It can be difficult being honest online with others who look up to you as they have known you for what you produce more than WHO you are as a person. I have come a long way from my humble beginnings of a fan artist and gamer enthusiast, I have been interested in other things which have given me more courage than what I ever thought was possible for me to have! For that, I am forever grateful. For all who supported me, still support me (despite my inactivity in dA) and those who don't fully understand it yet but are still interested in the ride! :D

As an artist (and by artist I mean an Artist Of Everything). I think it's a great way to expand creativity,thus finding who you are an individual and also understanding other elements in the world of art which bring you closer to knowing yourself. :)

I appreciate you trying to appointing me to senior status! Oh wow! XD That's pretty amazing, I don't know if I have done much for the community though to receive such a n honour, but I deeply am flattered. :3

I understand how you feel though, it's very strange coming on here and having the audience we have as fan artists or those who appreciate our works.. and then being able to keep yourself as yourself, not changing for anyone is what's hard about being an artist in general. I guess that's why we have to stick together and support ourselves in ways that not only encourages us all to find ourselves, but to be genuine and open about ourselves as artists, not just the bright colours and great art, it's much much more than that!
Mario-Wolfe Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
You’re right. I even have made fanart for certain fandoms over my OCs just to get my popularity back up. But lately I’ve been indulging in what I want to do instead. 

I basically chose you because you’ve been here for so long, and so many people in the Mario fandom idolize you. When I was younger, I did, too. :) 
Blue-Ridge-Riley Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2018  Student General Artist
I totally understand why you're making those changes, that would piss off anyone. I'm sorry about all the art theft, I know that an apology won't help things much but I do feel bad. As one person whose art's been stolen and whose been stepped on one too many times to another, I hope you'll fair off with the commissions. You might be seeing one from me in the future! I've always adored your art since I was a youngin' (been on DeviantArt for as half as long as you lol), and you and several other artists on here is what inspired me to join DeviantArt in the first place to pursue art more. I might not have the same interests as I did six years ago, but your art always makes me smile and brings happy memories of being a kid on the internet dreaming of becoming "famous" with her art someday.

Happy 12 years! Hope you get everything sorted with the website. :)
DreamsToDream13 Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Awww happy 12 years!! I've been here 8 i think. And things have changed. It's a huge bummer too! But im glad to see you are still here and aren't going. It's good to make changes!!

I'm sure you didn't scare any one off with your talk. Thoes things piss me off too. I can't wait to see your website too!! And I'm glad you are determined! I can't wait to see what happens!! ^U^ ❤💛💚💙💜💖
Deviator101 Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2018
Glad you decided to stick it out, your art is a unique precsence on DA.
sira-the-hedgehog Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2018
Hey there long time no see
NatSilva Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
sira-the-hedgehog Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2018
welcome back uhm wel i ask an art trade remember?
NatSilva Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No I don't sorry, I don't do art trades anymore. And I have forgotten yours (and probably many others) Sorry about that.
sira-the-hedgehog Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2018
*hug* its okay
togepi1234gaming Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2018
Me when I turned 12: Now I can handle more mature games!

You when you turned 12 (on DA, but still XD): "These reasons are hard to say, but now I am stronger and older, I can truly tell you to fuck off!"

Things like these make me respect people more, oddly enough XD
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