I need to let off some steam....

"Your so stupid"
"Go back to you drug addict, alcholic father who dosnt care"
"You need to make real friends and not these pretend internet friends"
"Why do u like miraculous its for babies"
"Your an autistic freak, who has a mind of a 7 year old"
"No"
"I can't say i love you when i dont know myself"
"Stop pretending"
"Stop being so selfish"
"Go back to ur non loveing boyfriend"
"Why do u never understand anything"
"Stop crying a real woman dosnt cry"
"You need to eat more"
"Why are you so small and light"
"Your bie that means your greedy"
"Stop being a wuss"
"Think about your family more offtern"
"There is nothin wrong with you"
"Go die"

....

These are the words i am told on a day to day bases,
This is the pain im constantly feeling

The feeling of hurt, rejection, pain, worthlessness

But i still stay strong.. but if you cut a tree everytime a word is spoken, it will eventualy break, that is the same with a mind, these words that i am told break my mind.

And there is nothin i can do.....
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Published: December 26, 2017
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Ipku's avatar
Ipku|Hobbyist Digital Artist
Do they know you like we do?
If not, then they don't matter.
If they do, then they have issues.
If they aren't looking to fix those issues, then they aren't worth your time.

Dirt like them is meant to get stepped on.
Plus, dirt is worm shit.
They are shit.
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NatalieGuest|Student Digital Artist
Things is the do know me like u guys do, there my family they know my flwas and weeknesses,
They call me them names cause they know its all true.
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Ipku|Hobbyist Digital Artist
No. Not true.
The only reasons why people call names is because:
- They have problem of their own and are taking it out on you.
- They are heartless, therefore their opinion shouldn't matter because they are naturally despicable.
- they are young, and are only copying what they hear without realizing the damage.
- its what they grew up with and don't know how to be nice.

Love yourself as we do.
As Dr. Seuss said:
"Those who matter don't mind, and those who mind don't matter. "

If they call you all these names, they don't matter.
Everyone has their flaws!

I'm short tempered and vengeful.
Oniiix is too passive and has low humour.
Ribby has no inappropriate/appropriate filter.
Dad is a pushover.
Etc...

If we didn't have our flaws, we wouldn't have anyone to fill it in.
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NatalieGuest|Student Digital Artist
Another reason is there just piss heads,
My family i just full of people who drink alot so most the times they are drunk when they say it.
But they rember saying it as well, and it still hurts.

Im one of the few sober people in my whole family

My flaws are that i trust too easily and i let people hurt me then leave me in my life broken.
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xXSaphiraNightXx|Hobbyist General Artist
Natalie?  the best thing for you to do with the words like these are to ignore them. Show those who spoke them that they will not effect you and the way you live. They are just there to put you down, do these people truly know the true you? I may not speak to you on a personal level, and  are mere acquaintances but these words should never be spoken to a person at all, and not at all in a negative light. You are beautiful just the way you are and the fact that you strive through such verbal abuse is an achievement to its own. Never let them get to you, live life happy and enjoy it with the people who care, with the people who treat you as the beautiful human being that you are. <3 You are beautiful and never forget that, okay?
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NatalieGuest|Student Digital Artist
Thank you sooo much xxx
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xXSaphiraNightXx|Hobbyist General Artist
No problem! I love your art and the dubs you do! Dont let people put you down be who you are,
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NatalieGuest|Student Digital Artist
Thank u xx
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JackHammer86|Hobbyist Digital Artist
Don't listen to them!

I have autism myself, and even my dad knows that it doesn't automatically make you stupid, sure it may give us some weaknesses but It also makes us unique in a way because we can actually do some stuff a lot better than normal people can (For example. I actually learned a lot of letters, numbers and words at a very young age). Try to remember that.
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NatalieGuest|Student Digital Artist
Autism for me made me horrible in major subjects like english, science and maths
But im extremly creative in music, art and drama x
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JackHammer86|Hobbyist Digital Artist
Interesting.

I was pretty good with most of the former but I lack a bit on most of the latter unfortunately (and I'm trying to get better at it)
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NatalieGuest|Student Digital Artist
Wow
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Don't listen to those mean comments! You are you!! 
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NatalieGuest|Student Digital Artist
I try not to, but when its family telling you it, then its much harder
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BlueLuna12's avatar
Harsh!! What for family do you actually have?!
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NatalieGuest|Student Digital Artist
A bad one
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Word of of advice honey, the people who tell you that are miserable with their own lives and they take it out on you to make themselves feel better about their own situation. So when they say those things to you, just know that they angry and probably feel just as sad as you, cause in the end you are worth it.
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NatalieGuest|Student Digital Artist
Sadly though the people telling me these are my friends and family,
The people who are suppose to care about me.

My family are kinda very abusive when it comes to words, i realy hate them to bits x
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Oh sorry to hear:( If your friends talk to you like that, maybe it's time for new friends, as for your family, have you thought of moving out?
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NatalieGuest|Student Digital Artist
Im only 17 i realy want to move out but i have no finacial support or anywhere to actualy go
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