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I'm 23 

I've always been afraid of dying in a way. But Out of nowhere, I get the thought "that one day I will not be here" and now this fear has taken over my life in the mouth and half that I've had this thought. I'm starting to question life, heaven, what's after and what's my life going to be like when I'm 40 or 60 or 80  I'm scared of growing old and can't do things. I'm starting to feel like my life is fake like I was so happy and free and not I feel like I'm in a box. Things that made me happy then don't now. I really hate this. I can not enjoy myself because I keep thinking this moment will be over and I'll never get to live it again. I can not even get intimate with my husband as much as I had in the past.

I wake every morning thinking about this like how do people do this get older and die without freaking out. And now from last week a new thought "why do I even try anymore with my dumb luck my husband would die before me and I'll just die from losing him" (i got married last year) this made me cry so hard.

Ok so here's some more insight into my life. I'm a little special needs you could say, skills that come too easy to others might not come easily to me and I'm a very emotional person to the point that it's crippling and my reading and writing skills are of a younger person but I'm still really smart in some ways. Like I know this fear direction from a kid my age to fear this right now but my special side of me is like I don't like things changing to the point ill freak myself out.
  • Listening to: Anything to distract my mind

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Hi :wave:

My favs countries
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-Ireland
-Germany
-Italy
-England
-America

My favs colors
-Orange
-Blue
-Red
-Black

My favs animal
-Hedgehog!!!~!~
-Dog
-Wolf
-Rabbit

My favs food
-Pasta
-Pizza
-chili

My favs anime/manga
-Axis Powers Hetalia
-Junjou Romantica
-Fullmetal Alchemist
-InuYasha
-Ouran High School Host Club
-Yu-Gi-Oh
-Pokemon
thats all I can remember for now

My favs band/musician
-ItaloBrothers
-Eleventyseven
-Avril Lavigne
-Anarbor
-Basshunter
-The Ready Set
-Ben Folds
-Groove Coverage
-Cascada
-3oh!3
-Falconer
-Dj Zulan
-OK Go
-Shakina
-Lena
-Alexander Rybak
-Hadise
-LEENI
-DJ Ötzi
thats all I can remember for now

My favs Baseball team
-Cadinals

My fav type of guys/men
-German
blue eyes
blonde hair
-Italian
brown/green eyes
brown hair
Men with Accents Stamp by Lady-Trevelyan
so far

My favs non-anime show
-MythBusters
-Bones
-Storm Chaser
-Dogs 101
-I shouldn't be alive
-Csi: Miami
-Csi: NY
-Csi: Las vegas
-Viva la bam
-Heroes
-Futurama
-Unwapped
-Iron chef ameican
-Good eats
-Diners drive-ins and dives
-Family Guy
-Hole in the wall
-The Twilight Zone
-The Simpsons
-The Nanny
-George Lopez
-Ed Edd n Eddy
-Danny Phantom
-My Life as a Teenage Robot

My fav city
-Venice
so far

My fav language
-Italian
so far

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Favourite genre of music: ♥ Trance ♥ and hip pop
Favourite photographer: me or my mom
Favourite style of art: ♥ yaoi ♥
Wallpaper of choice: ♥ gercan ♥ or ♥ Yaoi ♥ or ♥ Axis Powers Hetalia ♥
Favourite cartoon character: germany , italy,,Greece,Sweden from Axis Powers Hetalia
Personal Quote: Don't f*ck with my friends
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I'm 23 

I've always been afraid of dying in a way. But Out of nowhere, I get the thought "that one day I will not be here" and now this fear has taken over my life in the mouth and half that I've had this thought. I'm starting to question life, heaven, what's after and what's my life going to be like when I'm 40 or 60 or 80  I'm scared of growing old and can't do things. I'm starting to feel like my life is fake like I was so happy and free and not I feel like I'm in a box. Things that made me happy then don't now. I really hate this. I can not enjoy myself because I keep thinking this moment will be over and I'll never get to live it again. I can not even get intimate with my husband as much as I had in the past.

I wake every morning thinking about this like how do people do this get older and die without freaking out. And now from last week a new thought "why do I even try anymore with my dumb luck my husband would die before me and I'll just die from losing him" (i got married last year) this made me cry so hard.

Ok so here's some more insight into my life. I'm a little special needs you could say, skills that come too easy to others might not come easily to me and I'm a very emotional person to the point that it's crippling and my reading and writing skills are of a younger person but I'm still really smart in some ways. Like I know this fear direction from a kid my age to fear this right now but my special side of me is like I don't like things changing to the point ill freak myself out.
  • Listening to: Anything to distract my mind

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Mike-the-dabbler Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2018
Thanks for the watch! :la:
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SawuScimitar74 Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2018
Happy late Birthday! Hope it was a good one! :D
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SleepyHoneyBee Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SIS~!!
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:


It's April 9th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!


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Happy birthday! Cake by Sinister-Starfeesh
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vafiehya Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday  my wonderful friend 
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 I Wish from God to full fill all your dreams true...      

 I Wish you get Loads of Love and Happiness that never ends...     Love you! by vafiehya 

 I Wish for you Peace and Success ahead in Life...    

  I Wish for you best of luck and Long Life ...     
 I Wish You My Friend!! Your Each Day is Bright and you have Beautiful Tomorrow   My heart beats for my friends by vafiehya 





When you look back on the past, let your memories be warm and special ones.        Be-happy-and-healthy by vafiehya 


 When you celebrate your Bid Day today, let your heart be filled with joy and love!       

 
 And when you look to the future, I wish that your wildest dreams and deepest hopes and dreams come true!      
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Happy Birthday!!! Yay!!!!!
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Happy birthday! :D
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Happy Birthday from Belgium! Birthday cake  icon Hi-I-am-from-Belgium 
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vafiehya Featured By Owner Edited Apr 9, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Dear  :iconnaruko1222: Happy birthday 
I Wish for you Peace and Success ahead in Life...
I Wish for you best of luck and Long Life ...
I Wish you get Loads of Love and Happiness that never ends...
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

It's April 9th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

Many well wishes and love from your friendly birthdays team :love:

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Happyyy birthday, sis!! :D
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Thanks for the fave :la:
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

It's April 9th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

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Happy birthday! :D
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Happy Birthday!~
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Amarna Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thx you sooo much for the fav <3
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Woah man thanks for those points
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Thanks for the fave.
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Demonic-stickfigures Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2015   Digital Artist
thank you for the watch but i am no longer on this account i have moved to :icondarkevilmuffens-jay: you can give me a watch on that account and i shall watch you back :) 
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