In the last days of 2017, I resolved
to do my little part to make 2018 better. I decided that I'm going to change
, then what I'm going to change
and why those things
, and how I'll change them
Two months in, let's see how it's going.I
Overeating: I've made some progress. I have done this maybe 4 times, and mostly only slightly.
I still rarely separate the lunch and dinner before I start eating. What helped me get this right was mostly just having made myself the promise of not doing it, and having seriously thought through the consequences.IISleeping enough: I'm as surprised as you, but I actually made progress! Especially in February, I was asleep by midnight almost every day. The last weeks I even went to sleep around 11pm most of the time.
Setting the goals and setting the alarms I mentioned helped, but what helped most was spending more time with Ellen, and breaking with someone who (mostly through my own fault) turned out to have a bad influence on me.
Courage: I feel like I'm slightly more courageous. What's more, I feel like I might be in a spiral upwards, so I'm going to try to keep this up!
I didn't do my weekly challenges or start martial arts as I said I would, but I did sleep better and follow my conscience better.
I also spent a lot of energy the last two months on improving my life and personality, and this not only improved my life and personality, but also boosted my confidence.IV
Conscience: this one is key, it's the meta one! I've certainly improved here. It works in surprising ways. Partly it's a vicious cycle, or an upwards spiral. I follow my conscience when it tells me to go to bed early or stop eating, and that makes me sleep better, and that makes it easier to follow my conscience tomorrow too.
The cycle upwards is not always smooth - there are setbacks of course, but even more surprising, there's jumps upwards! The best example is the person who had a bad influence on me. It was my conscience that told me one day that I should stop seeing her. It was a bit of a shock, but it insisted, and I did. And as mentioned, it's made me sleep much better and made everything else easier.
But HOW did I start following my conscience? In a way I wouldn't have expected until quite recently: prayer. Or call it reflection if you will, or meditation (not mindfulness). I close my eyes and ask some questions, like: what am I grateful for? What should I have done differently? What should I do now? Am I doing what I want, or what's best? How should I approach my plans for the rest of the day? I do this a few times a day and try to abide by the answers I get.V
Knowing what to do: I've improved in this too. Partly because I've had plenty to do, partly because I reflected more on it, and decided to make my life better every day. I've made lists of things to do and am doing them and making progress, and as I said earlier it's greatly increased my confidence.
Just yesterday, I also restarted the Future Authoring Program
which has helped me a lot in the past.So that's looking good!
I'm a bit annoyed that so much of this journal is so vague. I'll have to think about how to measure progress on some of my goals.
How is the progress in your life going? Last question: how?