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No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies

But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like i do, and i blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one knows how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies

No one knows what its like
To be the bad man, to be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.

Limp Bizkit - Behind Blue Eyes

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michaelmas Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
the original album's just as good - The Who, Who's Next, 1971
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cartoonygothica Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2017
[It's a relatable poem.  I've felt unimportant and lonely too; I still do sometimes.]
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DoucheMagellan Featured By Owner Edited Aug 24, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Saw your earlier post on Tumblr and will keep this brief: 

Remember, life is about being yourself. Don't let those people who judge you step all over you, your ideas, interests, etc. They can go fuck themselves because they honestly have nothing better to do. When I used to be a self-hating, self proclaimed 'loser' a few years back, you told me to not give a damn about what other thought and to just be me. I took that advice and I taught myself to step on depression or self-hatred and just keep moving forward. We all go through shitty times in our lives, yes, but we have the power to pull through it, even if it may be very unpleasant to undergo. We are actually a lot larger than those two concepts, yet we tend to feed into it and keep it growing. It's pretty fucking sad.

I've done some pretty bad things in my life. We all have. But I'd never imagine in a million years that I would come to sincerely regret the times that I have wasted dwelling on said negativity when I could have spent that time making new friends or gaining more life skills. I have faith that you will pull through whatever is bothering you.

I cannot make decisions for you, but all I will advise is to focus on the subjects you love doing and to ignore whatever harries you. If I can do it, you can do it too.
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nadairead Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I really try to.
But these constant feelings of rejection and ignoration haunting me. They always telling me nobody really loves me.
I will never be anyone's favorite. I will always be unimportant, even for my family sometimes.
They may say it's not true.
They still have other priorities. I may not be alone, but I sure am lonely. I feel unloved and unwanted. Worthless and stupid.
So many regrets, so much confusion...
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dondena Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
I've felt that way too before. But it was my love for fandoms mostly that kept me going. Somehow the Lord saw me thru, along with prayers and good friends.
I know it can seem when we feel unloved when something else has to come before our needs. It's annoying.
But I send you my friendship. Hug for you. Sorry you feel like this.
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nadairead Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you.
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dondena Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
Welcome
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DoucheMagellan Featured By Owner Edited Aug 24, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I understand how you feel, honey, but if you keep on thinking that way, nothing will improve whatsoever. I've been through this same consistent train of thought and the only way that I broke out of it was crushing those feelings under my weight and giving it the middle finger. 

I know how it feels to be 'unimportant', 'worthless' or 'unwanted'. I always used to look at celebrities and think that they have the most perfect, carefree lives out of anyone in the universe. That isn't true. When the cameras aren't rolling, they could be suffering in silence with God knows what like PTSD, depression, suicidal thoughts and so on. They could have been horrendously bullied during school for all I know. 

Believe me, nobody is perfect. We all have our own personal flaws. I hate to admit that I have some, but I don't let it get in my way of what I love to do. Like I said earlier, depression and self-hatred are small things, yet we have a tendency to feed into it because we feel desperate during our lowest points in life. You, my friend, have a lot of potential, even more than myself. You have abilities that I would kill just to have, such as originality and being able to freaking draw complex poses without always having to use a reference to do so, that is how much I covet it. I am composed of unoriginality, which is a quality that a lot of people dislike seeing in another. 

You have many, many fans on here who look up to you and your works. There are more folks who like you than hate you. I am one of them. You and a few other fellow artists have directly or indirectly helped me to open up to new topics and overcome my hesitancy of posting certain content on here. If I had never met you and said people, I have no idea where I'd be today art-wise [probably nowhere near the level I'm at right now]. Although I'm not a person who is emotional-based, it would crush me if something bad ever happened to you. I really do care about you as a person. 

I'll relay a miniature critique: instead of telling yourself 'I will never be anyone's favourite', 'I will always be unimportant' or even 'I'm worthless and stupid', tell yourself 'Yeah, sometimes those feelings tend to sink in and I often want to believe that it's a fact, but in actuality, it's all in my head'. A fact is the Earth is round, it's been scientifically proven. An opinion such as 'I am never good enough' or cannot be scientifically proven or set in stone as a fact. These are methods that I was taught during my time of absolute turmoil and despair when I was in my early adolescence. The next time these awful feelings roll around and try to wring your neck, immediately turn your attention away from it and starve it from the attention it craves. It takes some practice, but with time and patience, it will be a whole lot easier to handle.

I cannot control the way you think or feel, I can only attempt to assist you in improving your attitude towards yourself. Only YOU can change yourself, and when a positive opportunity knocks on the door, be willing to open it because you'll never know what the future may hold for you unless you're there to see it. I strongly believe that you can do it and I know you can.
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nadairead Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I had to keep your reply for a while so I can read it in silence.
I've done that now and I thank you very much for your time and help, dear.
All I can do is trying.
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DoucheMagellan Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're more than welcome. I'm glad I could be a help. 
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RetroEULE Featured By Owner Edited Aug 24, 2017
Ich kann verstehen dass dir das echt zusetzt. Tut mir leid dass du dich so fühlst!
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nadairead Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Danke für dein Mitgefühl. :c
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RetroEULE Featured By Owner Edited Aug 26, 2017
I know those feels all too well. But when I have learned something, than its the fact that just because I sometimes feel like this, it isn't the truth.
Hope you feel better soon <:]
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pirran-p Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Relatable song 
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