Locking eyes with beautiful strangers,
locking horns with brothers.
Looking for prisons to escape from
Drama in one form or another
Devious Journal EntryStopping at a bluff overlooking the river, to lose himself in the melody of her song, and the light of the sun bouncing of her rippling surface, he picked his nose. Rolling the snot between his fingers, he fell deep in thought. He found his mind wander to thoughts of Jesus. Did some people get high to connect with this world class Deity? Why was he so popular?
Reaching into his pocket he pulled out a folded piece of paper. On the page were written a list of fresh phone numbers belonging to cute real estate agents he had seen on bill boards. He had already been with a handful since collecting them.
Ripping up the page he let those numbers scatter into the river like ashes of his former self. He promised himself that he would do two things.
That these two things would guide him on the path. Just as the river bed guides the river which she carries, so too the river carves the river bed which carries her. From there she finds a way to the ocean. He knew that
Devious Journal EntryA life from the past. My inspiration is a painting that belonged to my grandma:
You are the one who's heart is far
It took so long to find us where we are
To hide my love that we do not share
I avoid your eyes like I just don't care
We were friends in a life long passed
And a story it was that was done too fast.
A time when I knew I could just be me
Not trying to impress, just sipping our tea
Our work was hard, but our love was so sweet
We used the same plate and sat on the same seat.
Our tent had a rip from where a tree fell
Life in the highlands, just me and my gal.
Eventually we built a house on a farm
Got a white goose to add to the charm
Each night you laid your head on my chest
Lovers forever needing some rest
Work out of town called me away
I still remember leaving that day
The morning was dark but you stood at the door
as I got the cart ready and hooked up the horse
Waiving your hand and wishing me well,
That life would change for me and my gal.
I never came back is how this ta
Loves tragedyAnd one day, we will figure out how much we could have loved each other during the half lifetime we spent together, but not until those years are long over and the other is out of reach.
From a distance we will have the perspective to understand what could have been and what it would have taken on our parts and not just the other.
Devious Journal EntryHappy Valentine's Day to the man with one of the biggest hearts I know. I'm grateful for the friendship we shared in the past and for your perseverance during the hard times. Keep sharing your gift with those you meet. I know what it's like to have conflicting feelings. To be at war with myself, to feel like something is broken, to want to just be able to function with the world around me without that strange disconnect, and I know that your struggles have been real for you also. I also know that from your struggles to love yourself fully you have wanted to impart comfort and clarity to others who are trying to figure it out. I'm so sorry for the pain involved in what I hoped would be a peaceful parting. I had such an inadequacy in my ability to handle and process the situation. Be blessed where ever you are -Nate.
Black and whiteAfter sleeping soundly for what seemed a few hours of dreaming, I lightly awoke to adjust my body's position. As I roled from my back to my right shoulder, a phantom figure sitting in the great arm chair in the right corner of my room caught my periphery and gave me a split second startle. I soon expected my eyes to adjust to the contents of this form being reduced to the arrangement of colours and shapes from articles of clothes and scarves draped over the corners of the chair, but that is not what happened. Instead the form sharpened into a saintly looking man in robes. "What the hell are you doing in my room!", I screeched in a forced whisper. "You keep visiting me in the night", he answered.
After staring at his unearthly face for a few seconds without words, I finally asked him. "Are you God?" Amused he smiled lowering his eyes in the direction of his hands, fingers spreading as he pushed his palms onto his knees. "I am one of my kind, that is all" h
What drives your artWhat is the force behind your art?
Some artists create because they have to.
Either they are professionals with assignments or the have an inner urge that demands a response. Maybe it's a quest or a key question that drives them to discover hidden gems, then share them with the world.
It seems quite possible that some artists create because they DON'T have to.
Creating is an enjoyable pastime. Making art is a response to your love for life.
you dance, drink wine, and let loose with friends. Work is paying the bills so making art is a slash career or hobby to add to life's flavour.
What ever the reason, keep making it. The more we create, the easier it flows.
When I got back from up north I did some art on Napkins. I highly recommend this exercise for the first type of artist I described. Lofty aspirations and perfectionism can hurt the creative flow. As a result you do less art and the art that you embark on takes forever to do, meanwhile your ideas
LiarsFrom my basic observation, there appears to be three different types of liars.
One type uses lying as a shield, to protect either themselves or someone else of the pain that may come with a certain discovery. Call these people type (B) liars. The common liar. I fall into this category.
The type (A) liar uses the lie as a weapon, a means to inflict pain or to gain an advantage in a fight.
In a conflict, winning is the priority. The means by which the battle is won is 'whatever it takes', so false accusation is permissible to the type (A) liar.
Then there is a third category. The type (C) liars. Recreational or pathological liars. Lying will occur where no threat exists. Reality, it seems is just not interesting enough, so a new version gets fabricated. These Liars take lying to a whole new level in their comitment to edit and photoshop the reality they don't want to accept by taking on a role that is consistent with their preferred reality.
They will purp
Cozy captive"I need to heal", you say. "I must find a safe, cozy place at this point in my life where I can dig out all these slivers in my head, sort through my personality deficiencies, and transform. This time for real."
You will not find it. The God you pray to won't give you one.
Your cozy cave doesn't exist.
You will build it around yourself.
Once it is constructed you will be safe for the therapy that you have longed for to begin.
Oh how you have desired to become a person of substance and form and to feel solid, but solid is not what you become at first.
Instead you become soft like mush. Of course you are.
You are turning inside out, but this is not what you expected so it would be easier to believe you are defective.
Out of the mush strange forms emerge.
They feel repulsive and so you revert back and the mushy self continues like a cup of chowder.
The process has begun though, and the new forms come back,
Slowly to be embraced by you and th
Man on the bridgeWhat seemed like hours of honking cars, some even yelling, "jump already!", a long line of impatient commuters crawled past a man that many of them would identify as the faceless stranger that made them late that morning.
The railway tracks two hundred feet below the bridge deck blurred in and out of focus through the wet film forming over his eyes and the high wind speeds rattled his grey hoody as the bridge itself softly shook, it's gentle rhythm of movement hovering above the beat of cars driving over the separation in the bridge's pavement.
The ultimate contemplation of a young man in his twenties, who had always been so cautious about inconveniencing others was doing something different this day.
The view below was beginning to look familiar, as though time, in its unraveling, was revealing what always had been the final stretch, the inevitable conclusion to this life all along. His focus switched from his vantage point to the tape he had been playing over in his
Baldi Basic Animatic Storyboard PreviewNew Animatic of Baldi Basic, Soon! And With colors!
The Characters in there are my OCS Henry and Ellie of my Series called "Send From Above"
I added them because... they are Childs duuuh
Well, i hope you like it
PANDROID Creativity CONTEST (16K+ Points) OPEN
Welcome to my second, but much bigger art contest!
If you love to design or create art - here are the good news! One year ago I started collected over 16,500 points and 30+ art prizes. Also features, llamas, favs and more goodies that can be won! Mini Prizes for any art skill are ready to be catched, too! x3
And what about a raffle? Yeah, why not? Everyone loves them, so let´s add it as extra!
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This is a Pandroid-Battlefield related contest
Which month could be better than June - the month of Junicorn art challenge - to start a PANDROID conte
My Opinion On My YouTube/DeviantART FanbaseYeah, uh..it's not that bad, first of all. Sure, most of my YT fans are actually nice to me.
But when it comes to character redesigns, title changes, and name changes?? Hohohoho, some of them can even leave me.
Does it piss me off? No. Does it sadden me? No. Does it make me happy? Yes. They can do what they want, I don't really give a shit.
It's called having opinions, and I respect that. But don't fucking bash me into animating/drawing something I don't want to draw/animate anymore.
Let me do what I want. I'm not going to do what you want anymore because, honestly? I'm not listening to young triggered children anymore. I'm getting older, and it's time for me to face it.
This entire summer was literally just me going through so many character development phases, and some kids leaving me doesn't bother me at all lmao.
But here is way different. I can express myself more, I can share my opinions on certain things, I can talk to my fans, and I can get less pissed off here.
Updates~First of all, thanks everyone for your help ;w;
Thank you for your donations, thanks for sharing the journal, thanks for caring, and for your kind words too...
Last journal was so rushed and poorly worded oh god it's embarrasing when I look back at it- so I'll write updates over it xD
Fortunately, everything went well with the surgery. We had help from our family too and could pay the hospitalization and surgery in time. My dad is now resting and recovering at my sister's house, while mom is taking care of him. Due to our circumstances I will be working to bring some money and also pay the house... pfft I finally feel like an adult xD it sucks... jkjk
It was an exhausting week at the hospital, but finally "I'm back" kind of? I will use a day every week to answer your messages and maybe leave an update. Right now, they're a lot for me to answer right away. Thanks a lot to my commissioners for being SO patient with little me specially you Beelze idk if you're reading but hgng I'm thankfu
Happy 15th Birthday!In April I wrote a post reflecting on my 15 years at DeviantArt, since the project began in April of 2000 and was launched to the public on August 7th. I went back and re-read what I wrote, and wow, speaking of audacious I'm pretty hardcore in this post. I write from my heart sometimes and then I hit post and that's that. So for our official 15th Birthday I wanted to re-share a link to that post:
And then today, I wrote this reflection for you as a toast & thanks for all the llamas:
Happy 15th Birthday DeviantArt! We are evolving, and soon we will be able to share exactly how you can be a part of our transformation, ensuring that the DeviantArt we all love grows stronger in supporting the visual & written arts for 15 more years to come! You will soon see us release many years of effort, repositioning DeviantArt from all we have learned over our 15 years of managing the worlds largest creator community.
Thank you for all of your support over the
[Winners] Happy Gifts Month!wohoo so many people commented and joined the event
Check here the journal if you missed it: [Closed] Happy Gifts Month!
I'm so happy for seeing many many interesting answers!
So first of all, thank you for joining! ♥ ♥ ♥
Some ideas was really nice, like "everyone be happy somehow", I understand the feeling and this is pretty adorable to wish!
But this as well other topics was the answer of many many people >w<' so I tried to focus in more original answers~
And to be honest, it's beautiful to see how many people care about:
• Everyone respect each other life choices;
• People shouldn't hurt animals/humans/Earth;
• Basic care to everyone - no poverty;
And much more topics that are about human kindness! Warms up my heart to see how much you guys care about others!
Collective Feature #21UPDATES:
Not much news to share, it's been a quiet week. Tyler is over in California for training or whatever for a couple of months. Fingers crossed they'll grant him leave in July.
The weather is finally acting more like spring, with 60 degree days and sunshine, so hopefully the cold weather is done for.
I am still looking for character sheets for my characters from the story I want to continue. Note me if you know anyone who can
The same "rules" apply as they did last time. Throughout every photography category in my favorites, I will choose 10 entries (usually the first 10 that show up, or I begin where I left off) that'll be featured. With every category, I keep a record of who is featured, that way no name gets repeated twice in one category. Only one entry per category.
If you have any specific photo that fits into one of the categories that you want to be featured (yours or someone else's), pleas
Enter your Wyngro for official Stories Comics!My plans to unravel Wyngro stories and lore through NPC characters can only go so far-- I want to involve community characters as well!
That means, I want to include and draw your characters!
Why can’t you just use some? Why do I need to sign up?
The problem with collabing stories with friends, is that you don’t technically “own” all the pieces of the story. Now, this can be super fun! A big collaboration with friends can be good motivation, bouncing ideas off other people, and always having an element of ‘surprise’ around the corner, as friends come up with little bits on their own.
The biggest issue is that the story is so delicately balanced on the relationship of all the owners of the characters involved.
If one piece of the puzzle (an artist) becomes disinterested, angry, or falls of the face of the internet, the entire project becomes derailed and/or suffers in continuity/pacing.
This is a sad issue that I’m sure a lot of members o