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Hands IV
'Nother in the hand-for-feet series, A.K.A. a study in procrastination. I should be doing schoolwork. I've got a packet for school due in 16-ish days and haven't finished my reading (but I have written... *checks annotation draft* ...a grand total of one sentence and a title). I also haven't finished writing that short story either, and I wanted to get that one in this time around. So, of course, I was inevitably possessed by a painting-demon and did this over the last couple days instead. 

Pose and values heavily referenced from fav.me/daymydl
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Mytherea
R. Taylor
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Lately (at least a year, probably longer), I've been struggling with my sense of confidence in what I create and something that's often called Impostor Syndrome. I won't go too far into it, because it's a negative ball of toxic crap and burns anyone who touches it, including me, and I don't really want to inflict that on you, but I've realized, importantly, that I don't share my art with anyone anymore. And I think that's shriveling me on the inside. 

While at college, I hid a lot of things because I felt shame. Shame that I wrote so many pages and people gave me dagger-looks for it, and I had to choose between being prolific and being good, because in their minds, you can't be both. Shame that I wrote what they called "genre" instead of the "true" art-form of "literature." Shame that I could draw, too. I'll never forget that one kid who saw me doodling and demanded, "If you draw like that, why are you trying to get a writing degree?" That one hurt, 'cause drawing is my hobby and something that makes me happy, but writing is my passion and something that fills me with joy. 

I had a few associates. I don't know if I'd call most of them friends, since I couldn't share that one thing that was so personal to me--my creativity--because I did so once and the jerk burned me so badly, I still hear his voice in my head (he took me apart, piece by piece, for two years; I'm still fixing the damage he caused). 

But I so, so desperately want to share what I do. It's hard to keep screaming into a void and never hearing anything but my own voice echoing back across an impossible distance. I want to share what I make in a space where I feel safe. And yesterday, I remembered: 

"I felt safe on DeviantART." 

I miss the community I had on here. I miss the friends that I made. I miss the connection I had with other people, a connection that wasn't toxic or competitive or destructive. I miss all of you and I want to come back. 

I've decided to share my writing on here. Maybe a bit more art, since I've been doing more of it now (though not much is finished). Mostly, I'll share the stuff that I either can't find a market for, or was fun but not publishable for whatever reason. I'm going to try to be more active again and give as much as I take. 
  • Listening to: My novel playlist
  • Reading: Moonshifted by Cassie Alexander
  • Watching: Highlander
  • Playing: Legend of Grimrock 2 (final boss battle)
  • Eating: Had breakfast of oatmeal
  • Drinking: Coffee. Cold coffee.

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BluePhoenixDown Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2016
Happy Birthday! :party::cake:
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tabathamax Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I am glad your back as well :)
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mary3m Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
PartyHave your cake and eat it too Happy BirthdayHave your cake and eat it tooParty
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the-suns-moon Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2015  Student General Artist
Heeyy good to see you back :)
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Mytherea Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Unfortunately, I'm still not very active (as you can see by my four-day-late response) BUT maybe that'll change. 

How're you doing? 
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