You ever have one of those days when you don't really feel anything, like there are no emotions to you at all? Well that's pretty much been what my life is like now. For the longest time, I've had this numbness inside of me. As if I lack the ability to feel things long term. I've Beverly held a grudge against anyone and my anger subsides fairly quickly. The moments of happiness don't last long. Whenever I get sad, it somehow just goes away. It's kinda how people describe loosing their faith, the only difference being that for me it's emotional more than it is spiritual. I know I should be happy with my life and thankful for what I have, but there is just this emptiness and it all started a few years ago. I don't have the exact date but I just remembered not having any drive or passion anymore and the numbness just followed. Now I've graduated from college and I have no idea what to do. Even before I graduated, I had no idea or passion of what I wanted to do and now...I don't know. I mean what kind of life can truly be lived without any type of drive or passion toward anything? I know I'm alive but it doesn't seem like I'll ever experience what it is to live. I mean, there isn't really any point...if you can't enjoy it in the long term, ya know.