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Mother

You told me to not swear, yet you would swear at me daily You told me to not lie, yet you would lie to me everyday You told me that you loved me, yet I was a burden to you daily. You told me that I needed to be perfect, but what was perfect in your eyes? You told me that I failed you, but you failed me all my life You told me that you would protect me, but I needed protection from you You told me that I wasn't allowed to cry, but you were the one that made me cry You told me that you would help me, but I was the one always helping you Everyday the words still haunt me, but each day you told me to move on Everyday I can vision your anger, but each day I pretended it never really happened Everyday I hear your voice, but each day I tell myself what you have told me Everyday I needed your protection, but each day I reminded myself that I had to do this alone Mom, I still cant forget the things you have said and done, but each day i grow stronger Mom, apologies wont change a damn thing,

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Borderline Personality Disorder

Borderline Personality Disorder is living in a body that is trying to fight while the mind wants to die. Borderline Personality Disorder is rushing from one relationship to the next just to fill the emptiness deep inside, but also struggling to maintain that relationship to the fullest. Borderline Personality Disorder is becoming impulsive and reckless, but it is also the main reason our life goes deeper in the hole. Borderline Personality Disorder is not being able to control your emotions no matter how hard you try, but it is also why people walk out of our lives. Borderline Personality Disorder is too much. You feel too much. You think too much. You cry too much. You get angry too much. Borderline Personality Disorder is thinking that everything is really bad or really great, but never picturing the gray areas. Borderline Personality Disorder is hating your loved ones the hardest, but also loving them with a passion. Borderline Personality Disorder is feeling everything

A Small Child

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A Small Child

A Small Child I was a small child, born into a cruel world. I was a small child, that had to grow up very fast. I had to be the strong one, with many secrets left unspoken. A small child I once was, that witnessed everything All before I turned 18. I was once a small child, scared and hid from the world. I had to hide behind this smile, where everyone saw me happy. I was a small child, who was physically abused, neglected, sexually abused... and emotionally abused, It destroyed the family, and tore my self esteem apart. I hid the pain behind this mask, nobody knew our little secret. I was once a small child, feeling alone in this world. I had no place to call home, Why did my life get this way? Crying in my room every night, so they wouldn't see me as weak. Waiting for this all to end, just to wake up and it started all over again. I was once a small child, born into this destructive world. Now that I am an adult, I am trying to break free from this burden.
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You told me to not swear, yet you would swear at me daily You told me to not lie, yet you would lie to me everyday You told me that you loved me, yet I was a burden to you daily. You told me that I needed to be perfect, but what was perfect in your eyes? You told me that I failed you, but you failed me all my life You told me that you would protect me, but I needed protection from you You told me that I wasn't allowed to cry, but you were the one that made me cry You told me that you would help me, but I was the one always helping you Everyday the words still haunt me, but each day you told me to move on Everyday I can vision your anger, but each day I pretended it never really happened Everyday I hear your voice, but each day I tell myself what you have told me Everyday I needed your protection, but each day I reminded myself that I had to do this alone Mom, I still cant forget the things you have said and done, but each day i grow stronger Mom, apologies wont change a damn thing,

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What if today was my last day, Would you be there to hold my hand? What if i ended my life, Would you cry and and wonder why? What if i show you my love, Would you stay or walk away? What if i said i was fine, Would you hug me and say that im not? Would you be there when i want to leave, Or walk away and never return? What if i loved you from the start, Would you laugh or say the same thing? What if i died tonight, Would you even care or would you cry?

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A Small Child

A Small Child I was a small child, born into a cruel world. I was a small child, that had to grow up very fast. I had to be the strong one, with many secrets left unspoken. A small child I once was, that witnessed everything All before I turned 18. I was once a small child, scared and hid from the world. I had to hide behind this smile, where everyone saw me happy. I was a small child, who was physically abused, neglected, sexually abused... and emotionally abused, It destroyed the family, and tore my self esteem apart. I hid the pain behind this mask, nobody knew our little secret. I was once a small child, feeling alone in this world. I had no place to call home, Why did my life get this way? Crying in my room every night, so they wouldn't see me as weak. Waiting for this all to end, just to wake up and it started all over again. I was once a small child, born into this destructive world. Now that I am an adult, I am trying to break free from this burden.
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People annoy me ^^

Harsh words are forgotten but the pain never truly fades.

I'm sorry if I,
CRY too much..
SMILE too big..
LAUGH a lot..
SING in the car..
CUT my wrist..
DANCE in the rain..
SLEEP on the floor..
TALK too loud..
TRY too hard..
But just remember I'm me, not you.
Repost this on your page if you've been judged

Have you ever wanted to talk,
But never really dared?
Or miss that opportunity
To tell them that you cared?
Pretended that it doesn't hurt
And said that it's okay?
And spent each day wishing
It'd all just go away?
Acted how your "supposed to"
So no one knew you cried?
And never let them see
How you really felt inside?
put this on ur page if u have EVER felt this way! UR NOT ALONE!

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10 things you might not know about me:

1. Im BISEXUAL and proud

2. I have two disabilities (Fasd and adhd.....Fetal alcohol syndrome disorder and Attention deficit hyperactive disorder) I also have mental illnesses (clinical depression, social and generalized anxiety and ptsd)

3. Im emo and Goth.

4. I'm a tomboy

5. I HATE homophobia

6. I LOVE anime and manga!

7. I'm a Gamer Girl

8. I do draw, but Im not the greatest at it

9. I'm childish, but I cant help it

10. MUSIC is my life forever

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I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love


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My favourites:

TV SHOWS

Merlin
Vampire Diaries
Supernatural
Family Guy
South Park
Doctor Who
Stargate
Star Wars
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MOVIES

Lord of the Rings Trilogy
Disney movies
Back to the Future Trilogy
Iron Man (all)
Captain America
All of Star Wars
Underworld (all)
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VIDEO GAMES

Dungeons and Dragons Online
Warcraft
Age of Empires
Pokemon
Kingdom Hearts
Sonic the Hedgehog
Mario Party
Mario Galaxy
Call of Duty
Skyrim
Minecraft
Final Fantasy
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MUSIC

Disturbed
Three Days Grace
Simple Plan
Paramore
Xandria
Within Temptation
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BOOKS

Girl with the Dragon Tattoo
House of Night novels
Evermore
Hunger games
Stephen King
Sword of Truth novels
Eragon series
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ANIME

InuYasha
Naruto
Pokemon
DragonBall Z
Digimon

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Current Residence: A darken life, a darken world
Favorite genre of music: metal, rock, hard rock, country, classical, death metal
Favorite style of art: Manipulations. Photography. Gothic art. Literature.
MP3 player of choice: anything good lol
Shell of choice: ?
Wallpaper of choice: Gothic. Anime.
Skin of choice: ..?
Personal Quote: "Cant judge a book by it's cover!"

Favourite Movies
The Avengers. Stay Alive. Dragonball Evolution. Lord of Rings triolgy. Harry Potter. Pirates of Caribean. Underworld movies. Star Wars
Favourite TV Shows
Csi, law and order, Anime, Pokemon, Dr Who, Supernatural, Star Wars, Star Trek, anything on Space, Discovery or History Channel. Merlin. Vampire Diaries
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Three Days Grace. Epica. Within Temptation. Nemesea. Xandria. etc
Favourite Books
jodi picoult, alyson noel, kelley armstrong. House of Night Novels. Twilight series. Lord of the Rings. Harry Potter. Eragon series
Favourite Writers
Edgar Allan Poe. Shakespeare.
Favourite Games
Pokemon, Anime, Kingdom Hearts, DDO. Call of Duty. Warcraft. Legend of Zelda. League of Legends. Spiral Knights. Age of Empires. Stronghold. Sims
Favourite Gaming Platform
Psp, Nintendo wii, ps2, DS. Pc. Xbox 360. Nintendo 64. Ps3
Tools of the Trade
Coloring supplies, pen, paper, photoshop, camera, pencil, etc
Other Interests
anime, video games, writing, coloring, photography, Music. Cuddling

Inactive Account

Inactive Account

Sorry to those wondering where I been! This account is somewhat inactive. Im not on very often anymore. I work full time now and also in therapy. I got diagnosed with borderline personality disorder as well as complex ptsd. I am also in treatment for my eating disorder. On top of working and in a bowling league. I write when I can, I still do photography and i am swarm with messages on here. For now, this account is very inactive. If those that want to keep in touch can do so. Message me and we can either talk through KIK. Snapchat or Facebook!

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== Results from bdsmtest.org == 100% Pet 100% Brat 100% Slave 100% Primal (Prey) 100% Masochist 100% Ageplayer 100% Degradee 100% Rope bunny 100% Boy/Girl 100% Experimentalist 97% Submissive 97% Non-monogamist 71% Exhibitionist 64% Daddy/Mommy 48% Voyeur 44% Rigger 33% Owner 30% Switch 24% Vanilla 6% Sadist 3% Dominant 1% Primal (Hunter) 0% Degrader 0% Master/Mistress

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Normal Deviant: [x] You post deviations every few weeks [x] You have more than 50 watchers [x] You've been on DeviantArt for longer than a year [x] You have friends from DeviantArt [] You have drawn Fanart [x] You've improved a lot since you've joined [x] You've never had more than one account for being banned [] You check DA daily (not anymore) Total: 6 ------------------------------------------------ Cutie: [x] You make normal words sound really cute [x] You draw a lot of animals and anything cute [x] You'd rather draw cartoons than Anime [] Furries freak you out [x] You use a lot of emoticons [x] Your favorite DA emo

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