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For the love of one
"I'm fine." I lie to myself out loud. Except that it wont stop raining and deep inside I feel like im never going to see the sun again. I take a deep breath in, exhaling softly, it doesnt help. Everything is falling to peices around me, I am the devil dencing in my own personal hell. I watch the night drag on and I shiver wondering if I am ever going to see the light of day again. I dont know how long I have been here, staring out into the blank out line of the endless sky.
The moon is blanketed in lurid clouds making the night seem even darker. A chilled breeze picks up my hair, swirling it around my face causing strands to stick with my cheeks which are damp with tears. I lightly touch my hand to my stomach, the place where my child use to be. I feel myself start to shake as guilt peirces my heart, I killed my baby, my daughter.
My stomach heaves as I dry retch onto the grass my stomach bile. Evangeline, my angel, why did you have to go?
"I'm sorry," I yell into the open sky, "I am s
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Literature
Choking on butterflies
Choking back on butterflies
You told me that
You would not lie
Every time I lost myself
Your apathy it does not help
I'm falling deeper
Further away
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Literature
Hello, I love you
Hello
I hope your listening
I know that I'm too young
And I know it's not my time
But I can't help what's happening to me
I wish that I had never hurt you
But I need you here now
I know what I said was wrong
But without you I can't hold on
Without you
I know that I'm too young
And I know it's not my time
I'm sorry that I hurt you
I'm sorry that it's not our time
But I can't hold on without you
I'm sorry
That I love you so
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Literature
I remember everything
I remember everything
that you hated about me
i remember everything
i wanted to change
but now i want it back
all the same
where are you now?
will i be with you again?
I miss you
why did i go
i want you so
will you ever love me again?
I cant let you go
I remember everything
every time taht i made you cry
but i love you so
i miss you
raise my love
blaze into the fire
that i once called my own
i want you
where are you now?
Will i be with you again?
I want you
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Close enough to hurt
Im close enough to hurt you
far away enough to miss you
i am just trying to breathe
just give me the chance
to show you
everything that i am
and everything that i can be
honey its just you
its just me
i want to show you
the scary things about me
i cant leave you'
i cant let you go
i just wanted you to know
just give me the chance
to show you
everything that i am
and everything that i can be
all i want is for you to love me
but am i too lost to be found
too broken to be fixed
i will give you everything
honey its just you
its just me
i cant leave you
i cant let you go
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MyImmortalNightmare
Juliana
Artist | Hobbyist | Photography
New Zealand
I think that there are reasons why things happen to certain people. I believe that if you eat a king size block of chocolate and nobody sees, the calories dont count. I hope that i can really make something of myself, something that shows who i am and what i want. I dream about the same thing every night, i want the dreams to go away. Some nights i lie awake because i want everything to stay the same, i dont want another day to come around. I believe that we have only one heart when we have two of so many other things is because someone else has the matching heart to our own and in life we are supposed to find that other heart. I want to believe that people can change, they dont have to do stupid things all of their life.
I wish that life was predictable, that the calories didnt count, that dreams stopped when you wanted them to, that we could find the second heart, and that breathing wasnt the hardest thing to ever do.
i try to have an obsequious nature but unfortunatley i always seem to be doing something wrong, it really sucks when you are the let down in your family.
Quand je t'aime, je t'aime inconditionnellement, absolument, passionnément, et magnifiquement. Si Je t'aime, c'est mon cadeau, et si vous le prenez pour acquis, vous méritez tous les sort Unholy Dieu a en réserve pour vous.
Dont you wish sometimes that your life would flash before your eyes so that you could just get it over with?
I believe that if the world was a better place I would be a better person, but the world isn't a better place, I am not a good person. I see world as simply as I can but there are so many things that aren't simple at all.
I ty so hard to be good person but how can i with everything that has happened? Is that even an excuse, that you can be stupid because bad things have happened to you? I hate it all, i want to get out of here.

Current Residence: Whangaparaoa, NZ
Favourite genre of music: Rock/Metal/Alternative
Favourite photographer: Too many to name
Favourite style of art: Photography
Operating System: ? Thouroughly confuzzled
MP3 player of choice: I pod touch
Shell of choice: Shell (So confused...)
Wallpaper of choice: um a black one.
Skin of choice: um mine???
Favourite cartoon character: Donnie (Ninja turtles)
Personal Quote: A kiss is a lovely trick, designed by nature, to stop words when speech becomes superfluous
Interests
  • Listening to: Faraway
  • Reading: -
  • Watching: -
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: -
  • Drinking: -
You're a fraud and you know it
But it's too good to throw it all away
Anyone would do the same
You've got 'em going
And you're careful not to show it
Sometimes you even fool yourself a bit
It's like magic
But it's always been a smoke and mirrors game
Anyone would do the same

So now that you've arrived well you wonder
What is it that you've done to make the grade
And should you do the same?
(Is that too easy?)
Are you only trying to please them
(Will they see then?)
You're desperate to deliver
Anything that could give you
A sense of reassurance
When you look in the mirror

Such highs and lows
You put on quite a show
All these highs and lows
And you're never really sure
What you do it for
Well do you even want to know?
You put on quite a show

(Mother)
Are you watching?
Are you watching?
(Mother)
Are you watching?
(Mother)

You're a fraud and you know it
And every night and day you take the stage
And it always entertains
You're giving pleasure
And that's admirable, you tell yourself
And so you'd gladly sell yourself
To others

(Mother)
Are you watching?
(Mother)
Are you watching?
(Mother)
Are you watching?
(Mother)
Are you watching?

Such highs and lows
You put on quite a show
All these highs and lows
And you're never really sure
What you do it for
Well do you even want to know?
Yeah you put on quite a show

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Shryquill Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
You have so many awesome deviantion :D it'll take fover to get through them ;)
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DarkDaria713 Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2011  Student Writer
:hug: Thanks so much for the favourite! And looking at your journal, I've been there. It gets better over time, promise.
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cheesyemoheart Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2011
Thank you for the favorite! :) It made me smile a lot.
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lissabug416 Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2011  Student Writer
Thank you so much for the favorite.

You're beautiful.
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breamgappy Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2011
Thankyou for :+fav:ing my "Will" :hug:
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aBlondMoment Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2010   Writer
:hug:
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tightcupcakes Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2010
ah. great. " reflections"..
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MyImmortalNightmare Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
Eh??
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EdwardC1901 Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2010
Would you be able to take a few minutes to vote in :iconill-never-let-go:'s contest ([link]) :D :love: (if you have already voted, please just ignore this message)
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manga-panda Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2010
julianaaa! :D:D:D i was so happy to see you in the opshop!! :D i love you! btw i love your gallery! xxx
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