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I have anger issues. Things I've destroyed so far: - 1 plate - 3 cups - windshield - phone - floor - my desk (today)

i'm in pain. constantly. i'm never relaxed, brain's always working. it's always there, inside me. poisoning me. every once in a while there's a sudden erruption and it eats me whole. then i forget again, try to put everything away in it's place, where it's just waiting to be knocked down again by another earthquake. i just want to be at peace. i haven't been at peace for years. air turns into poison when i inhale it. there's something wrong inside. i'm wrong. incomplete chaos. all the fucking pain i just want it to stop. can someone make it stop, i can't take it anymore, it will destroy me. i'm crying but not just from sadness. i just want...