Yours Truly + Update

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By Muzica-chan   |   Watch
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Published: April 11, 2012
I am the attention whore
That goes ignored
I am the stupid little slut
Too shy to show enough

I need your approval
Just so long as you look at me

I am the attention whore
Sitting in the corner
I am the dramatic slut
Quiet enough to be forgotten

I need your hands against me
Pushing away from me
Holding me
Hitting me
Just so long as you touch me

I am the attention whore
Best left ignored
I am the stupid little slut
Too shy to say my part

I need your everything
Just give it to me

I am the attention whore
Waiting for you by the door
I am the dramatic slut
No matter what
© 2012 - 2019 Muzica-chan
More reflective poetry~ Except, instead of focusing on the fact that I am going on four years now of struggling with my gender identity and sexuality, this one highlights my amazing insecurity.

I need attention, good or bad. If I don't get it, I cause trouble. I don't even realize I am doing it. Someone smack me. ;;n;;

Anyway, if you want to talk to me more, I am on :iconmuzi-kun: now.

Actually, almost everything I do on dA anymore revolves around a group. It is :iconlove-hotel:. It is this BDSM Yaoi group. For those of you that know me, really know me, you know I am hugely into BDSM.

So far, I've had two characters. My first one joined back in January, just before I quit here. His name is Rowan. So much drama with him. He just recently left the hotel to go to Romania, where he is going to help one of his lover's raise his daughter.

Now, I have Elliot. Man...he is such a slut. He has only been at the hotel a day or two, and he has already screwed around with multiple people. I love him.

Other than the hotel, I haven't been up to much. I did make up with Hin for those of you that are curious. She and I...well, we're us. We don't stay apart long enough for it to matter. xD I apologized! I did. I didn't explain, but I apologized. I hope she forgives me...but I don't deserve it either way.

Oh! Kitty Kat, SockyTM, my AMAZING, brilliant, beautiful, and talented sempai, sent me a scarf and sweater. They are both beautiful. >w< I share this because I smile every time I see them, and I am currently wearing the scarf.

My older brother got a job at the chicken plant. Hin and her mom are working taco bell. Irrui and I are now the only ones out of school doing nothing with our lives. Irrui is still probably doing more than me. I'm so disappointed with myself and angry, but I have a plan on what I want to do. I just need to be 18.

Until then, I guess I am going to fuck around and check out schools.

So, that is my life =D Enjoy
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I read the first eight lines and thought it was amusing.
As I continued to read, a vague, undefinable sense of unease at the choice of words began to creep up on me.

When you think that the whole thing took only a few seconds, that was the fastest creeping unease ever.

I'm fairly sure I like this, rocket disturbingness included.
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xD I'm not sure if I should apologize for the uneasy or preen at the praise.
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Love it
mgless's avatar
And I really really really like this one.
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Thank you so much ^^
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