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And It Hurts

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By Muzica-chan   |   Watch
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Published: December 24, 2011
He's got this smile
That is absolutely adorable
And speaks such sweet words
Though his grammar is terrible

And it hurts
Because I can't love him
And I know
I shouldn't even want him

He's got this laugh
That could stop a heart
And a touch that feels safe
Maybe it could even stop the hurt

And it hurts
Because I can't love him
And I tried
But failed to want him

He's got this way
That makes me feel close
And a nature
I guess it gave me hope

And it hurts
Because I can't love him
And I guess
I shouldn't even want him

But I do
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Hin is probably going to yell at me, because I said I'd quit this, but I just can't. It is like, he is so fucking perfect. If I was fractionally less fucked, I could really be happy with him.

He's a total sweetheart, even after we broke up, he still talks to me, compliments me, and treats me right. Guys aren't like that usually. Even after everything, when I'm down on myself, he tells me that I don't know how beautiful I really am.

I wish he would see how ugly I actually am, how selfish and stupid and cruel I actually am.

Wish Kat was on to make me laugh. :/
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MelancholicDripsStudent General Artist
:heart: Sadly, I know more than I want to on how this feels TT_______TT
beautifully written - so touching.
Hope you're okay :heart::tighthug:
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Suckness feeling, but I hope that yours has a happy story with no ending, rather than the mess I've landed myself in.
Thank you so much.
Always LD
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Will probably end in a mass of tears, to be honest. :aww: I'm a crybaby like that :XD:'
I hope you're all right... if you want to talk about it...
Well. Either way, I really hope that both of you will be okay. :)
Haha, it's good to try and stay positive, but it's always good to be honest as well. :aww:
Just don't lie to yourself. :aww: (Lie to me if you'd like :XD: Just not to yourself.:aww:) - not that I'm saying you are lying, just that you know... well, hopefully you get what I'm trying to say.
*Having a really hard time expressing myself today :XD:*
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I shall be there to try and cheer you up after the tears quiet down a bit. :hug:
Usually, I'm alright. Even though I'm crazy high strung, I adapt quickly. xD
He definitely will be, and I've got all of my amazing friends. ^^
Remember to take your own advice about being positive. :3
Lying is only fun when I'm telling a story, so I shan't do it~ xD I think I get what you mean. ^^
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MelancholicDripsStudent General Artist
Awe thankyou :heart::tighthug:
Alright good that you got what I meant :XD:' Sortof.
Hah.. it's true that I always give advice but never really take much heed for it...

"Do as I say and not as I do" is sort of my motto when it comes to these things :XD:'

I'm glad you'll have a good back-up :)
Still. Hope you're alright :aww: and that you get through it okay. :)
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HinfallendHobbyist Writer
*le sigh* First two stanzas and I knew exactly who this is about. :| I do not approve.
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xDDDDDDDDDDDDD Sorry, eleie.
I talked with Kat and got over it rather quickly. xD
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HinfallendHobbyist Writer
And in another few weeks, you'll be back at it :P
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xD Maybe or maybe just a few days or maybe a few months. Either way~
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BoekBindBoetiekProfessional Artisan Crafter
:heart::hug:
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BoekBindBoetiekProfessional Artisan Crafter
Me? I'm suddenly slammed with work :P Seems like people are getting in the:oh shit it's almost new year: mood, much to be done :P
apart from that, i'm oke, on my way to see my love. Christmas around the corner: family, so that should be interesting :P
And how are you on other facets?
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Ah, busy work is good for the soul, I suppose. I hope that you have plenty of time for friends, family, and romance though. =-D
Hopefully good interesting rather than the interesting things have gotten around here.
Tired, really tired, but happy. I've almost finished all of my holiday gifts. x3
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BoekBindBoetiekProfessional Artisan Crafter
Those things always get first priority :D
How did things work out for you at christmas?
Have fun with Hin when she comes over! :D
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xD That's good. I always prioritize wrong.
Eeeeeeh. Yours? :3
Definitely! We're going to write like crazy xDD
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