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holding my breath

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holding my breath

the air is thick with apprehension but  all i can do is wait there is no reprieve from the anxious static   even sleep evades me the what-ifs play out in my head over and again    i know it all by heart i am resolute and waiting for the resolution

apprehension

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apprehension

i close my eyes and try to breathe but i can feel end approaching on the horizon the day will begin and bring with it conclusion                        confusion, but not for me there is so much dread but no doubt  just exhaustion like these years have become exhausted somehow along the way we lost our meaning    and it's going to hurt but we'll both keep breathing

isolation

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isolation

and i scream into the void because it is the only one to listen my captive audience it stares silently back i give it my troubles but they fall back on me because the void listens but doesn’t have arms to catch things with

photosynethsis

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photosynethsis

take me back      to the forest those were much simpler times though i couldn't    call them better i was a child    and i was innocent i was a child and i            was ignorant underneath the green canopy  my imagination thrived and i didn't comprehend abuse or  dysfunction or depression                   not                     yet the screaming was fodder for  my dreamed adventures and the nightmares were more easily           forgotten back then mummies and polar bears and falling from great heights are   much less scary in retrospect i believed all was well or at least all was normal and it was easier to ignore the sadn
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holding my breath

h

holding my breath

the air is thick with apprehension but  all i can do is wait there is no reprieve from the anxious static   even sleep evades me the what-ifs play out in my head over and again    i know it all by heart i am resolute and waiting for the resolution

apprehension

a

apprehension

i close my eyes and try to breathe but i can feel end approaching on the horizon the day will begin and bring with it conclusion                        confusion, but not for me there is so much dread but no doubt  just exhaustion like these years have become exhausted somehow along the way we lost our meaning    and it's going to hurt but we'll both keep breathing

isolation

i

isolation

and i scream into the void because it is the only one to listen my captive audience it stares silently back i give it my troubles but they fall back on me because the void listens but doesn’t have arms to catch things with

photosynethsis

p

photosynethsis

take me back      to the forest those were much simpler times though i couldn't    call them better i was a child    and i was innocent i was a child and i            was ignorant underneath the green canopy  my imagination thrived and i didn't comprehend abuse or  dysfunction or depression                   not                     yet the screaming was fodder for  my dreamed adventures and the nightmares were more easily           forgotten back then mummies and polar bears and falling from great heights are   much less scary in retrospect i believed all was well or at least all was normal and it was easier to ignore the sadn
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"I'm not analytical, I'm not intelligent. I like words and the beauty I find in them, not just what they mean, what they are. The flow, the feel, the taste. I like color, I like light and dark but not for what they symbolize, but for the fact that they are. I'm not a mathematician, I'm not even a rhetorician, I'm emotion and love and hate and feelings, not logic, not analysis, meaning in a way but not purely getting a point across. I'm a love of both flourish and simplicity, not for what they imply but the beauty that lies within both. I just am, and I like things that just are."


Hello, deviantArt. I'm Cassandra, and I go by a few different aliases around the Internet including MutePoetess, MusicalJuliet, and Caelis most commonly. I like to write poetry and short stories, draw, and take photos. This is one of my galleries. Related accounts are :iconirislies::iconlovefromfaraway::iconthatiris: . The first two are fairly outdated, the second one especially so. The third has fairly constant updates. In my gallery you might notice some weird artist descriptions, and some photographic art that might actually explain to you a little bit why that is. If you don't see it, don't worry about it, it's probably easier that way, but if you see it and are terribly confused and terribly curious, you can PM me and I'll answer your questions. Anyway, dA is my internet home and I sign on pretty much every day so leave me a message and remember, if you fave and run, you go straight to hell. Have a nice day =]

Favourite Visual Artist
Deviant Maevachan, Deviant FatherIsLonely, and Deviant Kagome-Kago-No-Naka, Ruby Dorchester
Favourite Movies
The Dead Poets Society, the Nightmare Before Christmas, Gone With The Wind
Favourite TV Shows
NCIS, Ghost Hunters, Mythbusters, Pan Am, The Sing Off , Supernatural, What Not To Wear (guilty pleasure!)
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Evanescence, Goo Goo Dolls, Tokio Hotel, Good Charlotte, Nightwish, Josh Groban, tons!!
Favourite Books
Green Angel (Alice Hoffman), Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Artemis Fowl (Eoin Colfer)
Favourite Writers
Poe, Shakespeare, Rowling, Richard Siken, Deviant Kagome-Kago-No-Naka
Favourite Games
Kingdom Hearts I & II, all the Smash Bros games, Pokemon!, Mario Kart!
Favourite Gaming Platform
PS2, Wii, Nintendo 3DS
Tools of the Trade
Pens, pencils, paper, Remington Typewriter <3, Bamboo Pen tablet, Panasonic Camera
Other Interests
acting, writing fanfics, reading, singing, hanging out in the library

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pamlaisly232Hobbyist Writer
happy b-dayGiggle Love 
pamlaisly232Hobbyist Writer
happy b-dayHave your cake and eat it too 
pamlaisly232Hobbyist Writer
happy b-dayHave your cake and eat it too 
gpscHobbyist Artisan Crafter
Happy birthday!
Happy Halloween Birthday.
gpscHobbyist Artisan Crafter
Ditto! :)
MutePoetessHobbyist General Artist
Haha oh wow, that's so funny, I saw just "Ditto" in my notes and I was llike, "In regards to what....?" but now it makes sense. Thank you!