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It seems that I have been saying that a lot lately. I'm sorry for every time I failed to notice, for every time I interrupted, for every time you've had to think of me. I am sorry for your worrying and for your caring...I must have manipulated you somehow, otherwise how could you? I am so sorry for not being there for you when you needed, for not being the smile that would've made your day brighter, for adding to the uncertainty and for being another problem.
I am so sorry for making you doubt yourself. I apologize to my friends and family, I don't see how I could've made myself anymore invisible but I am sorry just the same. Why can't I just be normal, just be happy? I don't want your pity, stop looking at me like that! Stop whispering in worry. Concern yourself with college and bills, can't you see that you taking time out of your day only makes me feel worse? I don't know what I want, if I did then there wouldn't be a problem. The more I think about exactly what is happening the more unsure I am. I won't do anything because I promised...which is something I resent greatly by the way, but for the moment I am at a loss to do anything else but just sit and wait.
If you love me talk about the weather, and if you care then treat me just the same. It's the trivial things that get me by, that make me feel normal and I need them for some common ground.
Again, I will say, because it seems to be needed, I am sorry.
I am so sorry for making you doubt yourself. I apologize to my friends and family, I don't see how I could've made myself anymore invisible but I am sorry just the same. Why can't I just be normal, just be happy? I don't want your pity, stop looking at me like that! Stop whispering in worry. Concern yourself with college and bills, can't you see that you taking time out of your day only makes me feel worse? I don't know what I want, if I did then there wouldn't be a problem. The more I think about exactly what is happening the more unsure I am. I won't do anything because I promised...which is something I resent greatly by the way, but for the moment I am at a loss to do anything else but just sit and wait.
If you love me talk about the weather, and if you care then treat me just the same. It's the trivial things that get me by, that make me feel normal and I need them for some common ground.
Again, I will say, because it seems to be needed, I am sorry.
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Master of Ravens
Master of Ravens
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My little brother is nine years old the first time I decide to kill him.
During the night, snow fell over the jagged wreckage of our land. In the morning I realize he will follow me outside if I call to him. Like an awkward-limbed colt he'll stumble through the snowdrifts, and I can leave him to the ice and wind in the shadow of a three-walled building. No one will see me. Our father will think he has gotten lost on his own. I too will cry when they find his body. When the mourning is done, however, I will be my father's true and only son. 'Cam,' he will call to me, and I'll kneel down before him.
My father. Master of
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never grow up.
I have a monster living underneath my bed.
Hes made up of burnt frog skin, white-red cobweb veined eyes and a collection of missing pebble teeth. Sometimes we play scrabble.
(The first time he was just a mechanical hum beneath the bowing wooden planks, he was just a faint smell of green and he was just a hot cloud of fog around my lips. Its the wind, its the wind, I breathed. Then he breathed back, heavy and loud and monster-like; AM NOT.)
He always spoke in capitals; MONSTERS ARE MUCH TOO SCARY FOR LOWER-CASED LETTERS, he informed me one night under pink covers. I shined the flashlight into his eyes until they changed co
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Love Letters On the Train
Dear Stranger,
I'm leaving this post-it tucked in the side of the train-seat. If you're reading this, you've seen it. I've seen you sit here every few Monday mornings, sometimes tapping a bent, unlit cigarette against your thigh, sipping from your tea (who brings a tea cup onto a train anyway?); sometimes staring at the rain outside, or reading your well-worn, beaten copy of Jane Eyre (I hate that you fold the corners down - it's bibliophilic abuse. I wish the book would papercut you to defend itself a little, but I digress).
You seemed so sad this Monday morning past. Please smile again. I love it when your eyes catch the light of something
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A conversation with someone inspired this. But really I've been feeling the need to apologize for some time.
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