A girl on the periphery, a woman, a young woman, always spurned in love? No, convinced that she is deserving of a good love. Or maybe an okay love. And maybe he is cruel to her. Or maybe she is cruel only to herself.
A woman who loves so much it aches in her center, aches like the way your mouth feels when you take too big a sip of scalding coffee. She is scorned in love, spurned in love, and scalded in love.
Is she empty? No, she is full of words, maybe, too many words. She’s too smart for her own good- why can’t she just love simply? Why are some truths so goddamned difficult to face about yourself? Why can’t she get him
Manic Pixie Clarifies by MuertoMushroom, literature
Literature
Manic Pixie Clarifies
I’m not a bad person
I read your poems
Curious and furious
They made me feel sick
When I was eighteen,
Discovering riot grrrl and anarchism,
I thought quirks like butterfly wings
Were safer than letting anyone in.
I saw him all kinds of vulnerable
At a private pity party
November, 2011
When we killed a bottle of vodka
And I told him
Our New Year’s Resolutions
Should be to go to therapy.
I fell in love with my best friend
He threatened to break the skin
My layers of novacaine
So I could pretend that
The monster in bed
Beside me every night
Didn’t really exist.
To prevent bleeding, I cut off a limb.
So, you see,
One of th
Every feeling today will be replaced
washed away by the changing tides and waves
of everyday minutiae
dark, heavy clouds
bring with them storms
if I build my flood walls well
my healthy garden will grow
A girl on the periphery, a woman, a young woman, always spurned in love? No, convinced that she is deserving of a good love. Or maybe an okay love. And maybe he is cruel to her. Or maybe she is cruel only to herself.
A woman who loves so much it aches in her center, aches like the way your mouth feels when you take too big a sip of scalding coffee. She is scorned in love, spurned in love, and scalded in love.
Is she empty? No, she is full of words, maybe, too many words. She’s too smart for her own good- why can’t she just love simply? Why are some truths so goddamned difficult to face about yourself? Why can’t she get him
Manic Pixie Clarifies by MuertoMushroom, literature
Literature
Manic Pixie Clarifies
I’m not a bad person
I read your poems
Curious and furious
They made me feel sick
When I was eighteen,
Discovering riot grrrl and anarchism,
I thought quirks like butterfly wings
Were safer than letting anyone in.
I saw him all kinds of vulnerable
At a private pity party
November, 2011
When we killed a bottle of vodka
And I told him
Our New Year’s Resolutions
Should be to go to therapy.
I fell in love with my best friend
He threatened to break the skin
My layers of novacaine
So I could pretend that
The monster in bed
Beside me every night
Didn’t really exist.
To prevent bleeding, I cut off a limb.
So, you see,
One of th
I am proud to be exclusively a literature artist. I really don't know how to do anything else. Here on DA, Literature is not necessarily under appreciated by most of the people in the community, it is just widely ignored. I think, really, many of us are completely okay with that. For the most part, we aren't here for popularity.
We are here for each other. We don't have thousands of followers. We don't have millions of faves. But for the most part, we have been able to find other artists that help us to refine our art. I've said it before and I'll say it again: I truly cannot express the appreciation and love that I have for my frie
I want this workshop to be somewhat different from other workshops -- I'm going to break this down into two categories: technical elements and personal advice.
And I hate to say this, but the following information in this workshop only works if applied. Osmosis and good intentions do not work. Sorry.
PRE-EMPTIVE TLDR NUTSHELL
To write effective dialogue, there has to be a basic understanding of what communication is. Wikipedia sums it up nicely: the meaningful exchange of information between two or more people. It's easy but not at the same time.
TECHNICAL
This has to do with actual concepts for crafting effective dialogue. For
I 'could' write about kittens by MuertoMushroom, literature
Literature
I 'could' write about kittens
Some days, you wake up and you miss the bus. Other days, you catch the bus and the bus catches on fire. The point is, one day you won't wake up at all, and then the bus doesn't matter anyway. I pained over the order of the following stories (and poems!) but I still don't think it's in the right order. "What do all of these works of brilliant art have in common?" you may ask. I'll tell you. They're all about people and relationships between different people and the shenanigans that ensue from the kookiest match-ups! But don't be fooled. They all have a sense of cynical isolation that I can't help- I am a disillusioned sophomore, after all.
Confessions of a Nude Model by MuertoMushroom, literature
Literature
Confessions of a Nude Model
I had been standing on the pedestal on-and-off for about three hours. My legs were getting tired, but at least it wasn't cold. Around me, below me, eleven art majors and one environmental major pressed and pulled and shaped my body. Well, the enviro major had actually produced something that looked more like ET with breasts than me. As the last minutes of work time ticked away, the radio began to play Nelly's "Hot in Herre." I laughed and tried not to dance along to the song.
I turned another forty-five degrees and was again met with the penetrating sapphire eyes of one of the male art students. You would think that taking your clothes off
There she is. Green eye sun shower in the summer. A cosmos of curves mapping out the constellations of her soul. She spins and she sees me on the side and dances over. She grips my hand and pulls me into the fray and with anybody else it wouldn't happen. But to refuse her would be blasphemy. I am worshipping her with my body, motion in prayer, offering up everything that's inside, that was always inside, giving it to her. I am the slain goat bleeding, the golden idol smelted, the flood, the fire, and the pillars of salt. But she is the dove, calming the writhing, slithering snake of self-doubt, self-torture that squirms inside my gut each mi
With Nothing But Her Shoes On by MuertoMushroom, literature
Literature
With Nothing But Her Shoes On
Amy was sitting on the toilet. The lid was down and the lights were off. She was repeating the phrase, 'shut up,' again and again in her head. Nugget, the dog, was barking. Dove, the baby, was crying. Allen, the husband, was watching television. The sound was turned all the way up.
"Mom!" The son, Austin, was calling for her. "Mommy!"
Amy took a shuddering breath, steeled herself, and opened the bathroom door.
"What?"
Austin's wide blue eyes stared up at her. "Dad said to ask you about Nugg's rabies paperwork." His voice was full of snot and she loathed it.
"What about Nugg'd rabies paperwork?" She asked, each word a carefully plac
Lover-Boy sat on the park bench with his legs crossed at the knee. He shook his brown bangs out of his brown eyes and adjusted his grey pea coat. Dead leaves rattled across the park path and still Lover-Boy waited. He pulled a pack of Havana Ovals from his coat pocket, along with a purple BIC lighter, lit up, and put everything else away. He delicately smoked the Queen-sized cigarette. Waiting.
Lover-Boy watched the passersby, imagining them to be different characters from his favorite stories. The muscled young man there was Genet's Darling Daintyfoot. And the attractive youth with the tennis racket was certainly Vidal's young Jim Willard.
an Optimist's Pessimism by MuertoMushroom, literature
Literature
an Optimist's Pessimism
I am the poet of ice and honey
I am the poet of scrambled eggs
I am filled with icy lust
with burning indifference
I am the optimist you shun
the optimist you hate
the pessimist to myself
within, without, and late at night
inside, I cry
outside, I smile, or laugh, or groan
but inside, I fear
all over I sing and vibrate with love
I have flapping wings made of lace
made of moth's breath
carefully made without wax
when I fly too close to the sun
I get a nice, even tan
and a headache
I have a tail, too
furry, and black, with a hard, bone tip
sometimes it pokes me in the eye
or deeper
or lower
which is okay if you like that
It was the summer of the bad smell and I was fourteen years old. Katie and I met on a swing set. I had opted out of camp and spent the first few days regretting it- all of my friends were in other countries or gone to their own away-camps. I was sitting on a swing rereading Margaret Peterson Haddix's Just Ella. It was one of those comfortable books that, boyfriendless, I would slip into in order to escape adolescence.
"Hey!" Katie's energetic voice startled me as she plopped into the swing next to mine.
"Oh." I carefully marked my place and closed the book. "Hi."
"I'm Katie. I'm visiting my Grandma for the summer."
"I'm Ella," I repl
A girl on the periphery, a woman, a young woman, always spurned in love? No, convinced that she is deserving of a good love. Or maybe an okay love. And maybe he is cruel to her. Or maybe she is cruel only to herself.
A woman who loves so much it aches in her center, aches like the way your mouth feels when you take too big a sip of scalding coffee. She is scorned in love, spurned in love, and scalded in love.
Is she empty? No, she is full of words, maybe, too many words. She’s too smart for her own good- why can’t she just love simply? Why are some truths so goddamned difficult to face about yourself? Why can’t she get him
God, wow. I am so bad at keeping up with this website. I keep coming here once a year or so now, thinking I'll just deactivate my account, but then I get overwhelmed by the amount of work saving everything would be and I just let this account limp along.
So, if you're still out there, let me give you some links:
I've got a blog now, which you may find here. It doesn't update regularly, but it's the best way to get news when and if my work appears anywhere. I also write about my experience as an MFA candidate and thoughts about what it means to be a writer.
A story of mine called "An Emptiness That Burns" was recently published in an anthol
I've been on this website for almost ten years and I'm not sure how much of my watch list is relevant still or how much of it I still want to be watching.
If you're still watching me (and still want to watch me) let me know in the comments!
Over the next few months I'll be massively clearing out my gallery, just a heads up.
News for me: I've sold a short story! It will be appearing in an anthology slated for this November. So, again, if you're still following along and still want to be, keep an eye out here for more updates about that.