I'm officially abandoning DeviantArt as a platform for posting art. This was a great site until the new interface. Now it's so slow I can't even use it. DeviantArt has completely lost any advantages it had over other sites. I'll leave up all my old
I gave three of my paintings to my now ex-fiancee because she liked them, and on the back of my mind I was thinking "Oh no, what if we break up and she still has these? I'll just have to make sure to break up at her house and grab them on the way out...
I had a dream about Lain the night before last, but I suppose it was a nightmare. I was in some old shotgun house I had lived in before at dusk. Everything was normal until I went outside on the porch. My family disappeared. It's difficult to describe but she was present at every turn flickering in and out, some versions regular, and some absolutely terrifying. All of it blended together into one nauseatingly jarring experience. I just thought DeviantArt would like to know.
I miss broadcasting for FSG. It became one of the most pleasant and prolific experiences of my life. I miss the people too. After I install the new radiator in my car I'll see if I can work on putting together a streaming machine and figuring out how to do everything in Linux this time.
I hope everyone got to see the posts I made on OPERATORchan and Sushigirl after the old machine failed. I was so devastated and embarrassed I couldn't bring myself to even show up in IRC. It felt like I had a piece of me ripped out.
Almost every day since then I get a nagging depressive feeling that tells me to stream again. It's difficult to find time and get in the mood with a full time job. I was so close once putting a Frankenstein computer together from old parts, but then the hard drive failed and it frustrated me too much to continue work. I think I'm finally ready to go at it again. Please tell them in in the chat how I feel if you get a chance.
Also that's a fantastic Amerifat Lum. I'll make a bumper video out of her.