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I used to catch fireflies in mason jars. The nights are still dark now, but lit with a different kind of twinkling star, nothing so close as those cloud blanketed keep the heat in summer nights, holding the sunset's light as the mosquitoes came out to bite-- Me with my glass prison, for the only hope I could see: Lightning bugs. They'll die if you take them inside, their black bodies shriveled up by morning. You can only keep them in the liminal space of a northeast backyard, the sweat trickling down your ribs in the darkness, each blink of them lighting up a different part of you, but never showing the whole picture. They're as far away
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When I was 21 I married a dying man. Now, I only hold him in pictures, and I don’t cry because you can’t mourn someone who never wanted to be what you imagined them. It’s been almost a year since the funeral and I boxed up the memories he left, pressed them into scrapbooks, set them on the shelf as something to treasure but never look at. It’s not a wound now, not even a scar, just an empty attic in my chest growing cobwebs but I never have the energy to dust anymore. Since that day I haven’t said his name, but in quiet corners of our own home I can call the right one, devoid of pretenses. Other people still t
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On loving two women at the same time: First of all, get them to know each other. They both hold a part of your heart or the whole thing, equally, each with a hand. You have two hands for holding, two eyes for seeing for seeing their beauty as you bend both of your knees at the altar of their lips. They don’t even need to like each other but it would be great if they did. Especially because there are a lot of board games you need three or more people to play and it’s easier to remember where you lost your keys when there’s more people who might have seen you put them away. Second: do not feel the need to justify yourself.
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My name is five letters long but even so it is exactly half vowels (you know, and sometimes Y). in addition there’s the symmetry of five letters in each of my names, and you might suggest my satisfaction with these commonalities means I have OCD, but really, that illness is less common than you think it to be but you’re convinced there’s something wrong with me. That twitch in my hand, the fidget in my feet, it must be anxiety. You have an herbal remedy, a series of breathing exercises, anything to make me breathe, you’re remembering to breathe, right? (breathe) You ask: Why don’t you look me in the eyes? Did it
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Holy Ground
I used to think God was in dust motes. To me there was nothing more spiritual than a stripe of sunlight through the window illuminating the invisible. Churches were holy places inspiring my wonder to believe but it got a little more complicated when I had to eat the body and drink of his son: I thought Jesus just turned water into wine, not the blood of my covenant, always thicker than the water of my womb. Aren’t the most important things what you get to choose? I’ve always been one to look for answers. I couldn’t settle for predestination— it must all be answered through meditation! Travel all the way around the wor
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I Was an Empire Chapbook Cover
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Constellations
I used to catch fireflies in mason jars. The nights are still dark now, but lit with a different kind of twinkling star, nothing so close as those cloud blanketed keep the heat in summer nights, holding the sunset's light as the mosquitoes came out to bite-- Me with my glass prison, for the only hope I could see: Lightning bugs. They'll die if you take them inside, their black bodies shriveled up by morning. You can only keep them in the liminal space of a northeast backyard, the sweat trickling down your ribs in the darkness, each blink of them lighting up a different part of you, but never showing the whole picture. They're as far away
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Lucy
When I was 21 I married a dying man. Now, I only hold him in pictures, and I don’t cry because you can’t mourn someone who never wanted to be what you imagined them. It’s been almost a year since the funeral and I boxed up the memories he left, pressed them into scrapbooks, set them on the shelf as something to treasure but never look at. It’s not a wound now, not even a scar, just an empty attic in my chest growing cobwebs but I never have the energy to dust anymore. Since that day I haven’t said his name, but in quiet corners of our own home I can call the right one, devoid of pretenses. Other people still t
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On loving two women at the same time: First of all, get them to know each other. They both hold a part of your heart or the whole thing, equally, each with a hand. You have two hands for holding, two eyes for seeing for seeing their beauty as you bend both of your knees at the altar of their lips. They don’t even need to like each other but it would be great if they did. Especially because there are a lot of board games you need three or more people to play and it’s easier to remember where you lost your keys when there’s more people who might have seen you put them away. Second: do not feel the need to justify yourself.
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My name is five letters long but even so it is exactly half vowels (you know, and sometimes Y). in addition there’s the symmetry of five letters in each of my names, and you might suggest my satisfaction with these commonalities means I have OCD, but really, that illness is less common than you think it to be but you’re convinced there’s something wrong with me. That twitch in my hand, the fidget in my feet, it must be anxiety. You have an herbal remedy, a series of breathing exercises, anything to make me breathe, you’re remembering to breathe, right? (breathe) You ask: Why don’t you look me in the eyes? Did it
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Holy Ground
I used to think God was in dust motes. To me there was nothing more spiritual than a stripe of sunlight through the window illuminating the invisible. Churches were holy places inspiring my wonder to believe but it got a little more complicated when I had to eat the body and drink of his son: I thought Jesus just turned water into wine, not the blood of my covenant, always thicker than the water of my womb. Aren’t the most important things what you get to choose? I’ve always been one to look for answers. I couldn’t settle for predestination— it must all be answered through meditation! Travel all the way around the wor
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:


It's July 25th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!


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Beach Cake with candles 50x50 icon Happy Birthday!  Lavender Flower Cake 

Hope you are going to have a wonderful day. :3c
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Sun Passing by to make everything brighter and sunnier- I wish you will be forever happy! Sun 
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Hi I have never seen you before but for some reason I had a dream that involved your name and because I remembered I went to see if there was an actual moonfreak but yeah also the icon had a galaxy in the icon
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

It's July 25th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

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