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Published: November 17, 2011


So we managed to crawl to the finish of Red Vs Blue Season 9. If you've got a few bucks to spare, it's not a bad buy. You may be able to use it to clone me someday considering how much blood and sweat I poured into it.

But in all seriousness though it is a true product of love. I don't think anyone loves working on this more than I do.

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That being well and behind me I'm already getting started on Season 10. Which will be no small task as the 10th season of this show we have huge things in mind... huge.

On a more personal note I'm beginning making some leeway on Dead Fantasy and other projects of passion of mine.

And on a even more personal note, I'm feeling somewhat empty these days. It's getting harder and harder to remind myself how lucky I am, despite the sacrifices I've had to make to get this far. It's a privilege of many sorts to work on something that makes so many people happy.

I've always said that everyone is entitled to their own sorrow, a rule I apply to everyone but myself. My personal rule being that life isn't about what you want, it's about what you need to do.

So why the emptiness?

The problem with living your dream, on the off days when you need a break. The escape your looking for is from yourself. In which there is none.


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santomon2's avatar
might these be feelings of burnout?
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skittblue's avatar
Take a break if you need to. I don't know your life or anything, and you might get paid for Red vs. Blue, but you can step away from Dead Fantasy despite all of the fanOUTRAGE that would ensue. They'll live. Trust me. By the time you die you'll wish you had spent more time on the things that really matter.
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ziginz's avatar
ziginz|Hobbyist Writer
I have some idea of how that feels. It eventually passes, but the nihilisim is a bitch. I find soaking up your free time with a pointless by addictive game helps you rest. Like Skyrim or Dynasty warriors. After a few days of that I''m usually good to go. That's me though.
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Rune33's avatar
I've been anticipating for dead fantasy VI for awhile. You are a master at what you do. It's an awesome series and can't wait for the next.
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Runetirius's avatar
Runetirius|Hobbyist Digital Artist
Well I'm not sure if this works for everyone, but whenever I need to escape from my own thoughts or work or whatever the case may be I turn to my friends. Just spend a day doing things that other people want to do. I find it's a great way to relax and on some occasions it even presents the opportunity to learn something new about yourself and your likes and dislikes. Just a thought.
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Saiyora-Saga|Student General Artist
Sounds like you need a mental vacation Monty.
BTW great job on the new RvB, still inspiring me to go forward.
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MomijiChan07's avatar
MomijiChan07|Student Digital Artist
That point of view is both poetic and melancholic at the same time. I don't know you but I hope your emptiness turns into what you've hoped for. :)
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SojiroEX's avatar
*hugs tight* Hang in there Monty. And take time off as you need it. I'm sure most, if not all of us have felt that way at one point or another. Just make sure you don't overwork yourself, get some sleep every now and then so you can have sleepy time dreams too. No one wants to see you push yourself too hard. And as always, thank you for making such amazing things and sharing them with all of us without charge. You shall forever be awesome.
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Lestin's avatar
If I'm understanding rightly,I know what that feels like...to really want to stop doing something or start but you cannot.My only hope is there is a person that can help through you
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JapanEyedPinoy's avatar
On another note: when was the last time you had a vacation?
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JapanEyedPinoy's avatar
I don't know the right things to say at a time like this, but I can tell you this: you're living in a dream that a lot of us would love to have. Heck! It's not even a dream anymore for you at this point. It's a reality. You've made a dream become a reality, something from "could be" to "is", and that to me is pretty amazing. Keep your chin up because you have every right to be proud, brud. To top it off, you're not alone because you got your fans right behind you every step of the way.

As for me, all I have is a dream that's been waiting to become a reality.
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Ashigar|Hobbyist Traditional Artist
As for the emptiness you feel inside:

Well monty there are many sides to every body and we discovery aspect of ourselves that we deny or never new existed as we go through life. I think you've spent so much time developing the "Movie Maker" part of yourself to the point were you think it's your only identity. Maybe you should kick back and spend sometime asking yourself....
"If things were different and I never got into movie making, what kind of person will I be? What would my hobbies be? What would I be good at?" I think doing this will lead to new and exciting discoveries that never would have occurred to you. Then you'll have something else to look forward too. And who knows, maybe you'll be reinvigorated and you'll but what you do now into a new perspective.

Try it!
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jadegreenaura's avatar
:C I want more Dead Fantasy but not if you're gunna overwork yourself doing it :C :C :C
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KeybladeKnight99's avatar
I can tell from RvB season 9 that you pour 200% into every frame. I'll also say that all the action in Season 9 far surpasses anything I saw in theaters this past summer. When I'm watching anything of yours, my eyes are always glued to the screen, its because its always unique and I never know what to expect, you're truly original in your work. But I can understand your weariness.
While I'm no hermit, I do prefer to have lots of time to myself. But when I do need time off from myself, I find that spending lots of time with others, helps me forgot my crazy self. Just a thought ;)
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ConsRvationOfNinjtsu's avatar
Well, I have to say, Mr. Oum, in this day and age, you *ARE* lucky. You have a girlfriend that'll put up with your busy schedule through thick and thin. You are employed, employable, and get to do EXACTLY what you love, with basically no compromises, 24/7. And you get paid to do it. Frankly, having both a good relationship AND a good job in this day and age...is about as much as you can ask for.

But on top of that, you're an internet badass, a shining example of a self-taught individual whose work is plain and clear for all to see.

I think it's fair to say that you have it better than many, MANY (and by many, I mean basically most) people, and I'm sure so many of them would trade their miseries for yours.

Remember, basically everyone has problems, so at the end of the day, it's pick-your-poison as opposed to ah-this-is-the-life.
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GuerrieroNero's avatar
Wrong link, damn:

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ExiledStriker's avatar
Monty, take as much of a break as you need. Just to get yourself together amd refresh, y'know? your fans are here and are paitent :)
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Yenkai's avatar
Dead Fantasy ??????? when ?????????
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BnetsCursedAngel's avatar
Your fans will wait for you. You need to take a break. Even if it's just a week off where you turn off your computer and do nothing but sleep and pig out on junk food. From what you've told us, it's basically been day in, and day out, endless work. Hell, I'm sure even the rest of the team at Rooster Teeth would be glad to have a week vacation. You guys are up to season TEN.

Ignore the fans who are crying out for something NOW, and talk with the other guys(gals) at Rooster Teeth, and try to get yourself a break. Like I said, even if it's just a few days or a week where you do nothing but sleep, chow on junk food, and watch a ton of bad movies. You'll come back refreshed and feeling better then before.
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RoxyRoo|Professional Traditional Artist
My sister and I thoroughly enjoyed season 9. There was just so many memorable moments. <3
As for taking a break, I suggest anything that gets you out of the house. >.>

Congratulations, Monty!
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TapMasterC's avatar
Hang in there, buddy. While you may not be able to get away from yourself, you can try to get away from your style of living. Take a step away from your regular projects from time to time and go do something different (and legal, haha.)
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Sephionos's avatar
it seems to me that your dream has also become work and too much of a good thing can be bad. Ever thought of getting another hobby on the side like a sport, or maybe some other type of art.
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XDemyxSitarX's avatar
I look up to you :3 just take it easy and don't make a overkill on yourself <3
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