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Well well well

I don't write quite often enough, and seeing as I've only got one computer in front of me this time around to keep my fingers occupied, whilst I'm previzing my ridiculously highres scenes I might as well be writing. (Or downloading porn)

My team had 6 hours of straight meetings last friday. One involving some very high up lead designers. Although I'm not at liberty to disclose what was discussed, I am finding that to my surprise it's been pointed out that my capacity for speaking and knowing the concepts and engineering in game design is at a fairly high level. Especially for someone with no background. I guess working purely off observation can get you pretty far.

And to my point, I find observation to be fairly important in the world. We are perhaps surrounded by so many things these days that it's function is taken for granted. And in my case, I never let it slip past me why and how the things I enjoyed existed the way they were. That being animation, and fundamental mechanics of gameplay. That's why I say the most quintessential thing to an artist is perhaps the curiosity about art.

And some gay stuff

I'm finding myself fairly surprised how saddened I am about the topic of my previous journal entry. More sad than any heterosexual male should be about a former japanese tranvestite musician. Aside that, this is less a case of physical attraction and moreso about empathy. Though admittedly, I wasn't quite as interested in him/her till I found out she was a he.

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The part I find truly sad is how I can't imagine what sort of life she/he must be leading now, and how it compares to having been in the spotlight. I feel that she/he has a love for music, but I don't think she'll be able to return to the music scene without it being exactly the way it was before.

I've been banging my head over one of their songs to get a visual going on what I might do for a movie concerning these thoughts. And I've decided that somewhere along the line I'm going to make a movie that portrays these feelings. Which is why it's good I'm writing this down.

The movie opens with myself narrarating:

"Is it possible to reach someone across the world, who burned in a flash so brilliant and beautiful that it was over before you knew it existed?"

Some would say this is a departure from my style, but actually the movies I plan to make down the line (heaven hopes I get that far) are going to be more and more artistic, and less about violence. Which was my true intention from the start. I'm not too big a fan of violence, what I enjoy more is choreography. So though I might lose fans (particularly the caffiene loaded video game junkies who can't go 5 seconds without killing something,) in the end it's my work.

Not to say that said planned movie has no action. What I will try to symbolize will be Bou shedding tears while I myself am standing on an opposite shore slicing enemies where the strokes of my sword creates a wake that at it's very tip can be felt across the ocean in which it's force has dissipated to only be enough to cut a teardrop in half.

The rest is all up here (points to head)

Check back in a few years for this one
  • Listening to: An Cafe
  • Reading: 3D World, Gameinformer
  • Watching: Youtube/Gametrailers
  • Playing: Everything
  • Eating: Nime Chow
  • Drinking: Bubble Tea
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SupeSonicFan99 Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2014  Student General Artist
Less Violence?......Oh No..Oh noo...Oh no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no. MONTY VIOLENCE IS YOUR TALENT AND DANCING N STUFF WHAT HAS THIS WORLD COME TOO!.....what will happen to dead dizzy
bushitakagi Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2007
Bou is in a band right now if I'm correct, and has been since he left An Cafe.
WarGrafix Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2007
So far your work has been incredible, and regardless the direction you take, as long as you put the effort, the material will always be appreciated.

Sure action/violence has an excitement of its own but done right, artistic films can move you. And I'm not referring the overly snottish art films or the pretentious art films to does more violence by being boring. Genuine art film really try to explore the inner emotion.

As for the other issue, I'm going to a take a listen to their music. It doesn't really bother me what they chose to do with their lives. Regardless of orientation, talent is talent and what they do in their free time is their business.

I admit the first time I saw the pic I thought it was a girl. But did I shirk away in horror when the revelation was made? No, simply because its not the way to react. I think its cool you talked it out an got inspiration for your work. Because thats what art is really about.
montyoum Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2007  Professional Filmographer
Well said, so well said i didn't get it at first lol.

The one song that got me into tthem was this one.


It's just so damned energetic.

The song itself, then on top of the the truly cute video. Really fun stuff.

Bands and most Japanese stuff these days requires the sort of conditioning that we're use to when it comes to stuff like this.

I'll keep pressing aat making the best movies I can. The current one although lands more in the action with no real direction area, but it'll (hopefully) still be fun to watch.
WarGrafix Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2007
Just watched it. You are right, it really gets the adrenaline going. Fantastic work by them.

I was wondering, the video Haloid, did you have fun making it? If you did and you feel that it lacked direction, perhaps you should plan what story you want the video to tell.

The advantage of using the characters from the genre was that they are readily identified and no back story is needed. however the problem is that, when you use them, because of the copyright, there is little you can really do with them on a story level. From the various sequences, I'm extremely sure that with independent characters you can tell a far more interesting story because you have the freedom to play with the character.

Personally the action sequences flowed pretty well and take the examples of Bleach and Samurai X. They mix very touching stories with action that feels very fluid. Or perhaps my favorite, Samurai Champloo which felt almost perfect. The purpose isn't to copy but to learn how to mix the emotions with the action.
kedralynn Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2007  Hobbyist Photographer
I can't wait for that video. It's beautiful. And will mean a lot to many others, not just her. That someone out there has such sensitivity for this subject.
montyoum Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2007  Professional Filmographer
And to my point. This is exactly the response I was hoping for when I wrote this journal.

Now I just need to get that far

Thank you

JuggernautXUG Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2007
poor Monty. Well at least you have an awesome job that should net you any hot 100% japanese woman you want! LOL
ShaneNewville Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2007  Professional Filmographer
Hey man good luck with your
upcoming movies. I'm definitely
going to remain part of your
fan base and hope that someday
we can colab on something
(which would require me doing
a lot more in other artistic areas).
Either way I enjoy what you do
and am looking forward to all of
your future creations. Take care
SEspider Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2007  Professional General Artist
I didn't follow the band, but get what you're feeling, bro. It's scary and ambrasing all at the same time. Over time it tends to fade over time though. I suggest contacting the artist and tell what your thoughts are. It may help ya understand it more.

There's nothing to be ashamed of. No one knew it was a guy, and you can't expect those feelings to just die out immideatly.
I didn't follow the band, but even I'm worried about him and his future.
Zasshu Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2007
Sounds wonderful. I can't wait.
ShadowRunner27 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2007  Professional Digital Artist
Dude, that's amazing. O:=

Yeah, I feel your pain man! :flirty: :noes:
Suriz Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2007
lmfao, gawd ilu, i don't read anyone else's journals, and you have the funniest titles...

<3 Don't let it change you, and get back to work!! Dx
arvelous Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2007
I would love to see your compelling story.
Firia Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2007
As I mentioned before, having some feelings for a transgender (Ixnay on the Transvestite-nay) woman does not make you gay. You shouldn't even be worried about that. If you find yourself concerned that you have feelings and feel the need to catagorise what these feelings are and why they are, then you need to analyse what exactly is it about her that appeals?

At a glance, she is the very model of sexy attractive japanese women. But for some reason, you can't help but think about her genitals. Are you attracted to what you see and know about her career and what she stands for? Or are you looking at her crotch and going, "Now that is what I'm talking about."

I'm going to go ahead and assume you admire her for her talent (much like your admirers like you for yours), and whatnot. This is nothing to be guilty about.

Just forget about trying to deflect and defend agaist concerns about posable gayness. You have a beautiful girlfriend. Whatev, right? Just be confident in your masculenity that you can find aspects of this Transgender woman appealing.

Besides; it's been my experiance that those most readily defending themselves from beliefs that they are gay usually more often than not, are. :) So if you're not, just don't worry. If you are, keep that shield up until you're ready to admit you are. ;D
montyoum Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2007  Professional Filmographer
You know, reading back I guess it's sounds like I'm overly concerned about sounding gay, which is actually not true. But again, to be so sad about something, well I'm actually proud of the feelings I have. Really I am. I'm looking forward to the day that movie gets made and people treat it as a lover letter to someone who regards inspiration as a great form of love.

I hope someone sees me that way someday as well.
Firia Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2007
Yeah! :D Inspiration is great!
SirceUnlimited Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2007   Writer
it's good for artists to try new fields of work.

And being that it's your work, you can do wtf you want with it. Unless I should find your movies supporting slavery, communism, and/or naziism, I shall always support them! (unless one or more of three stated are in effect)
SophieHoulden Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2007  Professional General Artist
well I'm all for art over violence. the reason people like any martial arts film is because people are moving so beautifully. sure they are trying to kill one another, but its the dance they do that captures people.

you will lose some gun obsessed types, but if you are doing it just for them you will lose me ;p (j/k, I'll always watch your stuff :hug:)
Zeeblee Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2007
I for one support the artsy turn you're thinking of. Good luck with everything, especially the job.
jessesk8rboi Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2007
Cant wait to see whats next....good job and keep at it...
mozzaratti Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2007
Heheh, big congrats on the brainskills to keep up in that crazy world of game design you're caught up in these days. And I actually applaud you for your intentions of becoming more artistic with your movies in the future.
NeoBubblemonkee Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2007
Nothing wrong with actually showing you care, though.
ThornedVenom Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2007  Professional Digital Artist
First part seems to show that you've been ego boosted by +10 points. Congrats, you've leveled up as a 1st class game designer. =)

Second part... yeah, I guess I can feel your pain about AnCafé. >_<

Third part... I'm anxious to see your new style. =) Was never a full fan of your violent side of animation anyways. =P
Raynorn Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2007
" . . . caffiene loaded video game junkies who can't go 5 seconds without killing something . . . "

Ouch! At this point I am guessing most of your fans are video gamers brought in by your very unique and very cool Haloid video. Please skip the negative gaming stereotypes next time. I am a avid gamer (video game junkie?) who's favorite titles are RPGs, puzzle-games, and sim-games. I guess that would mean that I can't go 5 minutes without trying to figure something out, right?

As far as switching your style to more realistic with less violence. I am very interested to see what you post next. Personally I would love to see you do a tribute to Bou.

Your thoughts on Bou reminds me of a conversation I once had. One of my friends has her degree in cultural anthropology and she has a very interesting take on sexuality. When people say someone is gay or heterosexual, they are oversimplifying, individual sexuality is very nuanced, a gray scale with very few people at the end of one spectrum or another.
Raynorn Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2007
Thanks for the clarification & the compliment. :D

I personally love the twist on the Spartan, it is very fitting as a crossover with Metroid, as very few people would have ever guessed that Samus was a woman while they were playing. I remember being completely bowled over when I found out.

I can't wait to see what you have planned for Final Fantasy! Keep up the great work
montyoum Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2007  Professional Filmographer
Haha, generalizing is tough, but I certainly didn't have all gamers in mind. Particularly I was thinking of the large mass of halo fans who can't even look past that I made the spartan a girl. Etc etc.

Generally the people who have sought me out at deviantart are all of greater calibur for at least looking one step further into who I am. So that certainly includes you.

I for one love RPG's, and if you like Final Fantasy, you'll love my next movie. (Has lots of action)
Kyu-Chang88 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2007
I don't know whether to laugh, vomit...
...or empathize. After watching Coffee Prince, I don't know WHAT to think of myself.

We're still men. We're still heterosexual men.
Blucaracal Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2007  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
your gonna be makes games now :?

:D dont worry so much about that dude that looks like a chick , theres all sorts of people on this giant floating rock in the middle of nowhere we call earth :D
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