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So, something that really bugs me is when someone comes to me and requests something, then makes no effort to say anything once the image is complete and I have notified them (by dA note). I just spent 8+ hours of my own free time, for free, creating something for someone else and I don't get any acknowledgement! That really ticks me off!

I am not expecting the requester to swoon over it or anything, but a simple "thank you" is what polite people do when others make time in their lives to honor your non-paid requests. I don't have a whole heap of time for artsy stuff - I have a toddler who thinks Momma's tablet is the coolest think to rub her grubby little fingers all over.

I could imagine someone might get shy if they didn't like what I made for them - that would make me a bit uneasy if I were in their shoes. But the polite thing to do is just say "thank you for your time". You can throw in a "while it's not quite what I was looking for, I appreciate your time and effort", also, if you want.

So, what happens when this occurs is I decide that the requester is an ungrateful little shit and I make a mental note to never, ever do another request for them - or even a paid commission.

....

That being said... I think that this happening to me could very well be cosmic karma for not having finished my half of an art trade I entered into with :iconrachaelm5: many years ago. She made the fabulously stunning Octoparrot, and I got extremely intimidated by the idea of creating a "jazzdragon" (I over thought it and psyched myself out. In fact, I am still over thinking it...). While I did acknowledge Rachael's awe-inspiring work (and I swooned over it, too, which is an appropriate reaction to her work) like a nice polite person, I still feel like an ungrateful little shit for not having finished my half... yet.
So... as I may have mentioned, I am in the middle of uploading all my old art (circa 2000-2003 stuff). I am going through this folder on my computer alphabetically and I am only at "h"... I mean, I am *already* at "h". *sigh* This feels like it is taking freaking forever!!!! :crying:
If I have anyone still actively watching my gallery and they're wondering why there is suddenly an influx of art that seems below my normal level, I will explain:

I am uploading a lot of legacy art. I am fearful that if I do not, I might lose it, and so-far dA has been the most consistent place to house my work (I keep coming back and it keeps staying up).

This is also giving me a much-needed break from the WoW monkey, so that is good, too. And also, my daughter is allowing me to do this so I need to take it while I can.

I don't know if there is any way to prevent this oldy-goldy work from showing up in my recent uploads... it would be nice if there were because I love it, but not in my recent work. I haven't drawn like an 8th-grader since I was in 8th grade! :D

So, fyi... if anyone cares.

Devious Journal Entry

Tue Aug 7, 2012, 11:25 AM
:iconmolicalynden:


















So, since I have the opportunity to do so today, I am testing out journal skins. :D

I loathe server maintenance days on World of Warcraft. But I suppose they can be a good thing, too. I have been wanting to go through all my old art papers and scan stuff, but it keeps getting overlooked and forgotten. It is mainly because it is just easier to play WoW. A friend once recommended I get that monkey off my back (in reference to WoW)... and I did for a little while. But it's a nice co-op game that my husband and I can play together and it gives me the opportunity to do a lot of things that would sound incredibly pathetic once said out loud or typed out (like the fact that I achieve more of my goals in-game than in real life, etc. see, pathetic). So, I keep coming back, and non-critical priorities keep getting pushed aside...

So much for all that The Seven Habits taught me... *sigh*

Honestly, though, it is a LOT easier to just crank out a few levels on my lap top than to pull out the scanner and scan pages with my toddler's new-found interest in EVERY little thing I do. She just has to do it, too... and paper gets shredded and eaten, etc. It's not fun... so I tend to avoid it.

I really should stop avoiding things... that's how pretty much everything ends up undone around here... and then life kinda sucks... wow, this entry ended up being kinda depressing and pathetic... [note to self: need to work on that]





Tic-Tacs

Water! YUM!

Rockabye Baby

WoW: MoP Beta

Yesterday, I realized, with quite a stab of pain, that I have not created any artwork for AT LEAST a year!! And my DA page has been neglected for two years! *sigh* Granted, there have been many things in my life to take up my attentions - I've been married, become a Marine wife, relocated, and have had a baby in all of this time - but, honestly, I just can't bring myself to blame any of this... I just let my passion fall to the wayside, and I don't really know why.

I miss it. But, I don't know when I will be able to reintegrate it into my life...
  • Listening to: K-Love
  • Reading: Facebook updates...
  • Watching: Eureka
  • Playing: WoW, what else? Okay, I admit it... Farmville!
  • Eating: not Gluten!
  • Drinking: water
Wow, okay, so it's been a while since I have been very active on here... I guess art has taken a backseat in my life to World of Warcraft, family, and work. Who would have thought?

The big news in my life is that I got married on Sept. 25th. It was about as awesome a wedding as a wedding could be, I think. (I loved it.) We managed to throw it all together in just one week! (It helped, though, that I already purchased my dress last December). It was a very quick, simple wedding, followed by gluten-free cake! (yay for my new mummy!!) And I am still kinda in shock... we'd been planning this for over four years now, it was bound to happen, but I just wasn't so sure until it actually happened!! LOL.

And, all during this same time, my spiritual walk has intensified... for the first time in my life, I am slowly coming to understand a lot more of God's plan for me and my life. It's been a lot of work to get to the point that I am at now - it's been a lot of pain, and a lot of happiness - and it will be a lot more for me to keep going. With each step, I confront a new monster that has been conjesting my life and my spirit. I am scared... and also excited. I know that there is a lot awaiting me in the future (can anyone say Marine Wife?) and I pray that I will be ready for it.

I would really like to be able to say now that I promise to post more art and blah-blah, but who am I kidding? No one reads this crap that I post (and I don't really expect anyone to, that's the funny part), and I really have no intention of producing any art in the near future.

I have enough on my plate right now just getting through the day... art doesn't sustain me like it used to. Perhaps again in the future it might, but not now.
  • Listening to: Incubus
  • Reading: blog posts!
  • Watching: Stargate: Atlantis
  • Playing: EVE
  • Eating: cookies!
  • Drinking: SOOOODAAAA!
I've never really been one for the blogging. I've always had about the same reaction to blogs that David Duchovny's character Hank Moody on Californication had. Blah. However, I have recently joined a Yahoo!Group (EveryDayMatters -groups.yahoo.com/group/everyda…) in hopes of relocating my sonofabitch muse (how dare he go and run off on me that dirty little bastard!). It was actually my fiancé's idea - join a group where I can talk to artists, do assignments, and be held at least a little bit accountable for completing them. (mainly because it has been months upon months and I still have not finished my trade piece for Rachael!)

So, here I am, member of a mailing list again and owner of a real life blog - and I am loving every moment of it! Seriously... I can hardly believe it either. lol. But the group is great. Very active. Sweet, funny, informative, supportive! And talented, inspiring!

In fact, today has been the first time in months that I have actually produced something worth showing! And not only did I journal, but I also managed pull out my camera and pop off a few. Yippee!

Hopefully, this will be something I can stick with. Then I might feel okay about getting a prints account and monopolizing off that damn popular pink photo that I hate. lol. ^____^

so, anyway, here's the bloggage: molica-makebelieve.blogspot.co…
  • Listening to: New Wave bands
  • Reading: Next, by Michael Crichton
  • Watching: Bond, James Bond
  • Playing: World of Warcraft... again...
  • Eating: mmm... fruit and veggies
  • Drinking: Water. Just water.
So, I'm still alive and kickin - amazingly.

I discovered a backup CD of all my goodies, so my art was not lost after all! YAY!

I decided to start a diet on New Years, although it was more of the right time in my life than a New Years Resolution. The timing makes it difficult for anyone to take me seriously, but I am on the second Phase of the Fat Smash Diet and doing well! I've rediscovered a few things I lost a long long time ago, like fruit and veggies and excercise. So now I am back to the figure I had in high school and still losing. Which rocks my socks!

I've also become a planner junkie. I got the 7 Habits planner from FranklinCovey and have been addicted ever since. It is really helping me take charge of my life! YAY!

Since one of my priorities is getting to RCAD, I have to compile a portfolio - so hopefully I will have some new artwork on here soon (hopefully). ... at the least a sketch-dump. :)
  • Listening to: U2, Depeche Mode, Beck, and Fiona Apple
  • Reading: ... i'm out of books! O.O
  • Watching: Bond, James Bond
  • Playing: World of Warcraft... again...
  • Drinking: waaaaaay too much Mountain Dew
Yeah. Tons of fun.
My computer decided to break while I was in the middle of a WOW stretch and my video card pretended like it fried.

My fiance David, who doubles as the household network administrator and local computer genius when he's not being a totally smexy lover, decided to wipe my hardrive and tell XP to f-off and installed Vista. YAY! (yes, seriously. it's f-ing awesome.)

I technically have a backup dvd I burned a couple 'a weeks ago, but I am naked without my spanky programs to make pretty things. *weep* So, I dunno when I'll be able to do much of anything besides play WOW. *more weeping*

And this DOES put a HUGE hamper on the trade I had with Rachael...
grrrrrrrrr....


... and to top it off, it's my off week and I am in the strangest mood...


EDIT: AND, to top it all off dA decided to revert me back to some hideous avatar that I had and since I do not have any fanxy programs I am limited to paint and am using that damned Think Pink image!


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  • Listening to: U2, Depeche Mode, Beck, and Fiona Apple
  • Reading: crappy romance (eeeew!)
  • Watching: Bond, James Bond
  • Playing: World of Warcraft... again...
  • Drinking: Mountain Dew
*sigh* So, I'm still here, maybe. I keep hitting ups and downs. Work is good. Life in general is good. But things keep ending up on the down side.

The neverending quest to find initiative isn't going so well. I am not quite sure how to install such a thing into myself.

The evergoing quest to get to art school is almost to the point of abandonment. I just don't think being an "artist" is the right thing for me. I have more of a reoccuring passion to be an educator, and everyone seems to really be pushing me towards it. They say I have a natural talent for it... even my Meyers-Briggs peronality type is great for being a teacher. - and the prospect does appeal to me.

My mom thinks I should be a math teacher. She says that the "arts" are the "first thing to go" when a school cuts budgets. Supposedly they "keep band because of football" and that I would have job stability as a Math teacher. *rolls eyes* Not that I wouldn't have a problem being a math teacher, it's just that I have a hard time taking any of my mom's advice to heart.

Anyway, due to these recent developments, I am not sure if I even want to attend National Portfolio Day. My portfolio sucks giant ass right now.

.......

I'm supposed to be making a Jazz Dragon for Rachael, but I keep coming up dry... I dunno what to do. I was kind of inspired bythe Tymps song by Fiona Apple and thought of doing a skeletal jazz dragon - maybe kind of give it a strange New Orleans flare.... hmmm...

........

Well, hands-down it seems that my photograph Think Pink is the most favourited piece.... and I am not sure what to think of it. It was a crappy shot that I colour manip'd on Photoshop... and I peronally don't particularly like it. I think it's one of those things where if you draw anime-anthro-gayboi-art then you're bound to be popular, must be the same for pink disco balls. *shrugs* Not that I really give a hoot about favs or pageviews. I'd much rather have a good heartfelt comment... but whatever... lol.


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  • Listening to: random shuffle(80's stuff and... stuff)
  • Watching: Star Trek: The Next Generation
  • Playing: World of Warcraft... again...
  • Drinking: water... mmmmm
Just sort of a random post of boredom... I'm supposed to be working on my half of the trade with :iconrachelm5: but I'm lazy. And I have some ideas for stuff that I want to do... plus I need to clean my house...

but World of Warcraft calls to me...*sigh*

Good newf for me, though, is that I only have one more day of work and then I'll get three glorious days off. AND, Tuesdays are Server Maintenance days for WOW, so I am forced to do things in the real world... like eat and sleep...

lol....(wow my attitude right now reminds me of a stoner...)
anyway, I was updating the little box that has my mood and "listening to, watching, eating, etc" thing and noticed the Star Trek: the Next Generation that I had typed from a previous journal entry and it totally reminded me of my dream last night...

it's pretty bad when you dream about making out with Data, right? Yeeeaaaah, I thought so...

I'm gonna go back into my geek cave now...


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My entire watch list: It is too big, so it has it's own entry.... oh, and it's not sorted. It's mostly random.

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  • Listening to: Depeche Mode - Playing the Angel (Instrumental)
  • Watching: Bones and Star Trek: The Next Generation
  • Playing: Command & Conquer 3: Tiberium Wars, Kane Editi
  • Drinking: Sunkist (orange soda)
What person in their right mind is going to buy prints of some crappy teeny-bopper artwork that is poorly scanned/cropped and on lined notebook paper?

I seriously saw a very beginner artist trying to sell that in their Prints gallery. I'm not trying to be mean, but their work was poor and they had no idea what they were doing when they scanned and cropped the image. Plus, it looked like a 5-min junior high in-the-middle-of-4th-period notebook doodle, which might (and a very questionable might, at that) be interesting in a complete art book, but not as a high-quality high-dollar print!

I mean, seriously, I'm not even self-absorbed enough to think anyone wants to buy all the crap I cranked out in junior high... lol, I don't think anyone even would want to buy my stuff now! (what I do have listed as a print is for my own self)

All the freaky teenaged poser-crap art that I stumble on around here really creeps me out and kind of bothers me... (like all the crappy teenage cosplay crap - ie fat Zelda with acne - yeah, that's real art there).

But I guess, to each his/her own. No matter how f'd in the head is seems... I guess.


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On a happy note, though, I freaking love v6!
  • Listening to: Tears for Fears and Depeche Mode
  • Watching: Bones and Star Trek: The Next Generation
  • Playing: Command & Conquer 3: Tiberium Wars, Kane Editi
It's been a while since I've said anything here and I was bored so...
I yoinked this from :iconyami-caffeine:

1. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:
(mother & father's middle name)

Lynn Stuart


2. NASCAR NAME:
(first name of your mother's dad, father's dad)

Robert Charles


3. STAR WARS NAME:
(the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)

Peomo (Padme, eat your heart out)


4. DETECTIVE NAME:
(favorite color, favorite animal)

Green Turtle (... lame. might as well just add ninja to it...)


5. SOAP OPERA NAME:
(middle name, city where you were born)

Lynden Anaheim


6. SUPERHERO NAME:
(2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning)

The Purple Pina Colada (... lame)


7. FLY NAME:
(first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name)

Moes


8. GANGSTA NAME:
(fav ice cream flavor, fav cookie)

Mint Chocolate Chip Sugar (rofl)


9. ROCK STAR NAME:
(current pets name, current street name)

Jax Hardy (lol, I love this one!)


10. STRIPPER NAME:
(name of your fav perfume/cologne, fav candy)

Beyond Paradise Peppermint (or maybe just Paradise Peppermint? lol)


11. PORN NAME:
(1st pet, street you grew up on)

Pitty-Pat Bellmont ... or Lily Nineteen

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Oh, yeah and on another note, I got some floofy invitation to join some MiracleOfArt community website thing (or something like that) the other day. Yeah, so I checked it out and it was a total crap bag - worse than sheezyArt, and I though that one was pretty damn bad. lol.

Guess I'll just stick with mah dA and Elfwood on the side (my Elfwood page turns me up under the search engines so I have to love it a bit, AND it helped my long-lost best friend find me after 7 years... awwww, sweet stuff).



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  • Listening to: Brit music on my station on Pandora.com
  • Watching: X-Files
  • Playing: Guild Wars
Well, I just got done with some admin stuff that my gallery has really been needing (especially since dA added the new gallery options - I love you, I love you, I love you). This included updating most of my Creative Commons liscenses on my work (adding some to pieces that had none) and creating a line art gallery. I've officially "closed out" my account theflipside.

Some new, never before seen line art has been added, so check it out if that's your sort of thing. The "rules" (rolls eyes) are listed in the gallery - they're not complicated. :D Basically an ask-and-you-shall-recieve thing.





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My sister: :iconmitzee-hime:
My cousin: :iconsailorenergy:
My local friends: :iconrachaelm5: :iconbrice-c:

My entire watch list: It is too big, so it has it's own entry.... oh, and it's not sorted. It's mostly random.

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  • Listening to: Brit music on my station on Pandora.com
  • Watching: X-Files
  • Playing: Elebits
  • Eating: Tropical Fried Rice
So, I've spent the last two days walking down memory lane - kind of delving into the me I used to be. I don't know if I am particularly happy with the results. I discovered that Philip has a delightfully happy life - which honestly makes me bitter when it shouldn't. I should be happy for him - eventhough he treated me like trash.

I also found some artists that I liked back in high school: :iconslimu: and :iconleoandban:. It's kind of cool seeing them here on dA. It's also kind of interesting taking a look at the way my interests have changed over the years - not that I don't still love these guys' work ('cause I definitely still do), but my tastes sure have changed.

And finding Leo and Ban was pretty cool. They really helped shape the look of some of my own characters (esp. my beloved Marek).

Anyway, memory can be good and can be bad too (in the case of dredging up unwelcomed Philip/Tom memories and feelings).

Oh, yeah, and I got a new job that lets me have 3 days off a week and gives me free breakfast (mmmm granola cereal!). Happiness seems to be easier to obtain. Now if I could just get working on getting ready for Florida and getting me rear in gear for Ringling! (gotta get that portfolio stuff done, ya know?) :D


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Family and close friends:
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My entire watch list: It is too big, so it has it's own entry.... oh, and it's not sorted. It's mostly random.

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  • Listening to: the 90's Alternative Station on Yahoo Music
  • Watching: Angel
my shift button is jacked up on my keyboard so i'm not gonna use it unless absolutely necessary (damn zboard).

so... anyway....

i practically quit wow. yay me! i'm not a sr officer in the guild anymore and i don't really play a lot. i have better things to do, ya know? like get my rear in gear and get my ass into rcad/rsad!

i've been watching a lot of angel, which has been nice, and i just saw the new futurama movie last night - hoping for more (i don't have cable so i'm outta the loop - it'a a miracle i know what ugly betty and heroes are!) not real into movies right now - but my wii has become more inviting and my tablet is quickly becoming more of an appendage than a best friend...

david surprised me with a spectacular valentine's day that really put my love back into the holiday - you know, you can only suffer through so many horrible v-days before you just give up, but i guess that holiday and i have finally made our peace - thanks to david! :D

my house is a friggin mess that i will have to clean someday - i can only be a slacker so long. david got a scale to check his weight (he's hoping to gain weight, which never happens - he remains at an envious 120lbs) and i've happened across it a few times and have been delighted to know that i am actually losing a little weight and am far lighter than i originally thought! as a result, i am having far fewer "fat days" (you know, days where you're wardrobe doesn't work right and you look in the mirror and just think "urarghbleck!", which is something of an "ugh", "arg", "blech", and misc exclamations wrapped up together - all of which equals up to a fat day).

i stopped by some places 'round here to catch up with the art of the people i love to admire from afar, and be envious of at times. and i have to say that i am still in a pretty good mood. i guess 'cause i'm high on the hope and dreams i've vested in getting into rcad (ringling college of art and design, in sarasota, fl). which could be just what i need to motivate me ... or just what i need to kick myself in the ass... hahaha.


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My entire watch list: It is too big, so it has it's own entry.... oh, and it's not sorted. It's mostly random.

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  • Listening to: the 90's Alternative Station on Yahoo Music
  • Watching: Angel
Everytime I hear the phrase "New Directions" it reminds me of the first track on Sugar Ray's second album, where they switch from the weird hard music they were first doing and jump into the happy music they're known for. It gives me a nice mental-image.

I've decided to give up World of Warcraft. I'm tired of the extra stress. I am tired of wasting my life on something that does absolutely nothing for me. I've had some good times, met some nice people (who, ironically, I really don't get to take out of wow with me - how useless is that?) and actually learned some things about who I am and what I am capable of (in a real-life social way, not a gaming kick-your-ass way). But I am WASTING MY LIFE. I have far better, more useful and constructive hobbies. Hobbies, that someday I want to further develop, expand on, and mayvbe turn into a career. All of which, really can't be done with a dumb video game.

Spring is coming! It doesn't really seem like it right now with all the cold and rain/snow, but it's Fabruary and Spring always follows pretty closely! This is the portent for some great things that I am really looking forward to!

David is getting his Kawasaki ZX-14 soon, and I can't wait to take a ride on it! We're planning to travel around on it a lot! Then, there's photography! So many places I want to take pictures! (hop on the bike, go somewhere and take pictures!) I also want to do a LOT more art! I don't know where my muse went, but he suddenly came back and I am TEEMING with drawing desire!

Also, I want to further develop my boring, practical programming skills. And I want to take some art classes to buff up my portfolio. I still can't shake the dream of being in Florida at Ringling - I refuse to give up on the first dream that I've had in a long time. And, I want to take some belly-dancing classes (I've always wanted to try it).

I'm also pondering a breast reduction/lift. Somewhere, someplace someone might actually appreciate 36DDD, but I do not. It makes me feel like a fat girl, which I am not and refuse to ever be. it would be nice to be 36D again - so my proportions wouldn't be so bizarre and hard to buy for (how do you buy for a skinng waist and giant breasts? people just don't seem to think they can co-exist!), so I could actually get cute sexy underwear, so I could actually shop at thin-girl stores like Hot Topic and Victoria's Secret and not fat-girl shops like Lane Bryant and Torrid (which don't really even fit at all because I'm not really a fat-girl, but big busted!).




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My entire watch list: It is too big, so it has it's own entry.... oh, and it's not sorted. It's mostly random.

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  • Listening to: U2, Blaq Audio, Shiny Toy Guns
  • Reading: romance novels - brain rot in a box...
  • Watching: just finished Buffy- omg, they killed Spikey!
  • Playing: World of Warcraft
Christmas was good, I guess. My sister left for Michigan and got my family in a tizzy. And, the guild I'm apart of in WOW kinda fell apart and, surprise, David and I were there to help clean things up. We pretty much spent most for our Christmas vacation playing that game...

So, first with my sis - I really hate going over these feelings over and over again, but somehow they keep showing up... the decaying relationship between my dad and sister - because he won't talk to her and she hates him, me always stuck in the middle - playing telephone, referee, being the "safe word", it all pisses me off. And then, throw mom in the picture with her contant plotting (whether it is intentional or part of the grand scheme, i still don't know) and there's a recipe for disaster... so, Christmas with the family was a nightmare. Fun. ... the rest of the family were wonderful, as usual - supportive, friendly, funny, typical story-book way family should be. I suppose it all balances out in the long run...?

New hobby - World of Warcraft. Oh my goodness, where do I even begin with this? I mean, it all started with David and me playin this game and all of a sudden we're Sr Officers in a guild! I don't know if I can handle all this responsibility... There's a lot to do and I just don't like having to devote so much time to a video game. I mean, I used to (back in the days when I played Harvest Moon all weekend and David and I yelled, and it just wasn't a fun place...), but not so much anymore. Now, I have my tablet, my art supplies, sunshine - I wanna go to art school, clean the house, watch movies, get lost in Buffy and pretend work doesn't exist... not babysit a bunch of kids, coordinate 150+ person events, manage a web page, and still manage to level up to 60 so I can at least start raiding with everyone and not feel left behind! (add to it that work sucks and has mandated overtime...)
It seemed so much more fun when it was just me and David playing together and randomly helping people out... I mean, yeah, I've made a lot of new "friends", but I've lost a lot... I've been treated like worthless shit and disrespected by former guild officers and cried over a stupid game far more times than I would like to admit... Sometimes, I feel like I get home from work (where I get help-desk calls and answer stupid questions and get harassed and yelled at when I don't have the answer people want to hear) and have to go back to work again, except I'm not getting paid...
Don't get me wrong, I love the helping people part, and the community - it makes the game more fun... but it seems there are so many things I am expected to do, and I hate having to bend myself to other's expectations - haha, personal insight, I've run away from expectations my whole life. I procrastinate, I avoid, I run away, I rebel... anything to get away. Maybe 'cause I can't say no...

So, wow, I was in a good mood when I started this, and now... well, not so much. I'm sure that's a good sign. haha.


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  • Listening to: U2, Muse, Shiny Toy Guns
  • Reading: State of Fear - Michael Crichton
  • Watching: Heroes and Ugly Betty like an addict
  • Playing: WOW
  • Drinking: Coffeeeeeee keeps me awake.
LOL. You would think I'm more into photography if you glanced at my gallery now that I've actually made some uploads! haha.

David finally got me on the back of his motorcycle... and now he can't get me off! OMG, I LOVE it! It's like a rollercoaster ride without the cheap trills, like flying without having to worry about heights, like horseback riding... on a really fast horse! So, lately we've been grabbing the camera, hopping on the bike and just going - anywhere!

It's a nice distraction from the fact that my life feels pretty stagnant lately. I'm kind of a dead-end place in my job and I'm getting bored. David recently switched from 2nd shift to 1st shift, so I am now getting up at 4:20 am but going to work still at noon. It's tiring, but I feel like I get a lot of time in the mornings. ...I never knew I liked mornings so much! lol.

So, anyway, I've found a college that I like better than KCAI - it's in Sarasota, FL and it's called Ringling College of Art and Design. I'm thinking about going there for their BA in Computer Animation. However, it would be like 2 years before we could get this house sold and be able to move down to FL, which sucks. I want to go back to school now!

... but I suppose it is ok because I still have to crunch and make a portfolio. The requirements say I must submit observational art, which I haven't done in YEARS! I'm gonna have to pull a couple of still-lifes out and dig up some other mediums ... yay.

So I'm reading Michael Crichton at work to keep my mind off things, riding a motorcycle to blast away some stress and anxiety (and work those inner thigh muscles! lol), dabbling with some art, and snapping pictures as I go along! Also, I finally got some good music to listen to, so that also makes me happier.


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I don't even know where to begin...

Well, I've decided that I'm really not happy with my gallery so almost everything is in sotrage, except for the stuff of Cat's I coloured and a few misc things. I don't know when/if it will ever be put back out on display. Someday I hope to fill it with pretty stuff I can be proud of. I have some things I am working on, but my moods fade in and out. I am certain of nothing at this point.

I hate my job, but I am quickly finding things to do to occupy my time. I wish I could take my tablet into work with me. It would make the day much nicer. Internest is still locked down so I don't still don't get much time to visit here.

I've been playing World of Warcraft with David in the evenings after work. It has been a lot of fun. I'm on Nordrassil under the names Sisterverna or Alourah if anyone else here plays. (there was a guy at work who snubbed me 'cause he decied I was too much of a geek once he found out I played WoW. Oh well. His loss. He was a creep anyway.)

My current slogan is Art School or Bust! I've spoken to an admissions counselor at the Kansas City Art Institute about their Animation school. It all hinges on finances, which always sucks, and I have a lot of things to work out. But I'm not giving up. For the first time in a hell of a long time (so long that I barely can remember), I actually have a dream and some goals. It is amazing how that can make you feel - almost whole again having something to hope and work for.  So, yeah, I want art school so bad I can taste it!

Well, I'm too exhausted to keep blabbering. Peace!



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