I wasn't gonna do it, but to put things simply............ I can't. I cannot draw. My motivation, my spark, it's gone. I was fighting it and pretending it's alright, but past year was horrible. I opened last commissions because I needed to, but I was already pretty sure I won't be having any motivation aside of money to do it. Now not even that is much of the help. So I'm not taking any more comms. Not the BIG ones at least. It was a mistake to take the big sets for characters and outfits. They burned me out very fast. I won't be taking character design/outfit comms like I did before anymore.
If I open comms it'll be only small pieces I know I can manage.
I know I will need to open comms. But I will do some small over tumblr for now, some on there later on. My priority there is to finish comms I owe. There's a bunch. They took a lot, all of them being in warying steps of wips, but most being boiled down to 'this needs so many fixes because I cannot stand my art style' and just being stuck in a loop. Which is all my fault and I cannot offer refunds, I can offer extras if one wishes for it.
Because all that was just eating me up the longer that dumb art depression thing was going on. I will add the full comms in progress list probably tomorrow, for now it's just info I wanted to get that out.
I'm just not doing great, drawing stresses me out more than it helps, I cannot stand my art style and motivation? it does not exist. Big comms like ones I do only add to the stess of it and honestly, past year was........... bad. I lost the joy for art. I need a break. Something different. Last break didn't work so I have no ideas but I have to give up on big comms, I cannot force myself.
I'm finishing ones I owe and then.... I dunno. Something will happen.