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Sorry that I missed a few days of 'Quote of the day'. I was busy and I didn't get a chance to post any.

(Belated) Quote of the day (1): "Work for a cause, not for applause. Live life to express, not to impress."

(Belated) Quote of the day (2): "Don't forget you're human. It's ok to have a meltdown. Just don't unpack and live there. Cry it out. Then refocus on where you're headed."

(Actual) Quote of the day: "You deserve love, and you'll get it"
Quote of the day: "Be a pineapple. Stand tall, wear a crown and be sweet on the inside" That Ananas 
"What about you Connor? You look human, you sound human, but what are you really?"
Quote of the day: "When you can't find the sunshine, be the sunshine."
just got a MacBook. Everything is so strange compared to my other laptop. happy cry XD 
[slowly walks onto the stage, a hush going over the crowd] ahem. [gently leans into microphone, adjusting it on its stand] Bryan dickhard. [voice echoes through the room like god’s, there is a pause for a moment before the entirety of the audience stands and cheers profusely. tears fall from eyes and the standing ovation continues as I exit stage right]
Quote of the day: "Every day may not be good but there is something good in every day."
Quote of the day: "Stars can't shine without darkness"
Quote of the day: When life is sweet, say thank you and celebrate. When life is bitter, say thank you and grow.
Quote of the day: "You were given this life because you are strong enough to live it."
For some reason, I don't ship Connor and Traci but I ship Bryan and Amelia... well shit...

For those of you who don't know, Bryan plays Connor in DBH and Amelia plays Traci in DBH.
The new video is up. 
The beautiful subtitles (in the subtitles section obvs) were handcrafted by moi in an hour and a half
There is a new video on the way. It may or may not be a DBH video...
Hi. My name is Connor. I'm the android sent by Cyberlife. Connor Connor Wink - Detroit Become Human 
Hey guys. I'm alive. I'm sorry if I worried you guys and I will never forgive myself for that.

I feel better after taking a break from everything. My stress has decreased and so have my dark thoughts.

I have chosen to get help and I am hoping that I will be close to being completely better by the end of the year.

Once again, I am sorry if I worried any of you. 
Hey guys. How you all doing?

I have something that I need to talk about and to get out there. People who have heard this from me before are probably growing tired of me complaining about it but I need a way to vent about it and get it out of my head so I can focus on the more important stuff.

I'm not in a very good mental position at the moment and I can't hide it. The mask that I wear is starting to shatter and my façade of sorts is wearing thin which is causing my world, my emotions, my happiness, to crumble and spiral into a dark empty nothingness as if a tornado had sucked them up and sent them to another world where I won't be able to find them. It's like my mind is shutting down and completely giving up on everything. I don't have the energy to do stuff that I used to love to do. I have to force myself to leave my room and to leave the house. I'm not able to eat properly, think properly, do anything properly.

My positive thoughts are vanishing as quickly as they come and sometimes they don't arrive at all. There are times when I feel like not doing anything but then again, I guess we all have those times so that's nothing new. Sometimes my mind is quiet and peaceful but then come along the thoughts of how ashamed people are of me. How I have disappointed so many people who had trust in me. How worthless I am. How every moment I'm here is causing myself to suffer because of who I am.
There are times where one day I don't need to wear a mask. Where I don't need to have a facade but then the next day I can't do anything. I don't even have the energy to put on a mask. These days are arriving so much more often than not.

Before anyone says "Try seeking help" or things along those lines, I have tried. I have tried to get help but my mind rejects it all. I have completely lost hope that I'll get better.

If this is the last thing I ever type, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for being a miserable fucking mess.
I'm sorry for being a disappointment.
I'm sorry for letting you down.
I'm sorry for even existing in the first place.

I will end this here. If I keep going it will probably turn into a whole book.

If I don't do anything stupid, I'll talk soon.
If you don't hear from me again, goodbye.
From today I will be starting my official hiatus. I will be back when I finally get inspiration to do something. Cya guys when I get back. Bai. Hopefully I won't do anything stupid while I'm gone.
Sorry for not posting in a while. I've been stressing a lot recently so I've not been able to get much done. I will try to get something out before I go back to school.
F2U pixel rose - bisexual To all my new watchers and people that don't already know, here is a video I found to explain something - 

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Pajunen Featured By Owner 5 days ago
Thank you for the Watch!
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mmdlover100000 Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Student Artist
No problem ^^
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montag451 Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks very much for faving!Nod Clap +fav +fav +fav
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No problem ^^
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Feel free to like and comment on my deviations. 😁
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BlueAquarelle Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2018
Thanks you for the fav' <3 
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mmdlover100000 Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2018  Student Artist
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lilyrjensen Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2018   Digital Artist
Hi there!

I just wanted to say thank you so much for the fav on this one Nuu

Neon Lights - Ilya Kuvshinov's tutorial by lilyrjensen

It means a lot! I hope you have a wonderful day xx Heart
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mmdlover100000 Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2018  Student Artist
No problem ^^  I hope you have a wonderful day as well ^^ 
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Thanks for the watch ^^
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