Zombie Body Positivity (Redraw)

This is a redraw of a doodle that I did randomly in class one day. 

I suffer from really bad body Dysmorphia. This causes me to always see myself worse than I am. Specifically having struggled with my weight all my life, I see myself as much more Fat than I am, and I see all my worst parts. My brain hyperfixates on these things causing negative self image and very little self confidence. I also struggle with anxiety and depression, which just feed into this mindset. Meaning I Never feel like I will see myself as beautiful.I feel like nomatter what I do it will never be enough. I've been battling this for my life since about 10 years old. Since the first time I was introduced to the BMI chart and told that, even though I didn't feel fat in any way, I was considered Obese. No matter how hard I tried since, I cant escape it. I have been struggling recently to try to be positive and kinder to myself, but its not easy. I feel like somehow I am attempting to rewire my brain and unlearn so many things I thought about the world and my idea of beauty and where I fit into it. Im tryiong my best one day at a time. Who knows, maybe one day I will be able to see what other people do.