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Far past time for a new journal, eh?

Going to be brief. Some amazing things happening in my life, and my art. Won't go into details for assorted reasons, but the long and short of it is that I had to sit down and sort out which projects really matter to me, and which ones I had to let go--because life's too short to have time for everything. So, here's the run-down:

MY FICS: discontinued.  All of them.  I know some authors like to get fancy and call it an "indefinite hiatus," but let me not kid myself. I'm very happy with what I managed to finish, and I'll always consider my time writing fanfiction well-spent. As for the people I'm watching on, I will of course keep up with y'all and continue reading and reviewing. You guys put out amazing stuff.
If anyone wants to know how ____ ends or has any question at all about one of my stories, send me a note and I'll disclose everything, I promise. I've got... a jillion miles of notes on my computer, no joke.

MY COMICS: Oh gawd, Chimera Quest. It's not dead. It will be slow for a while, though. New OTGF comics will happen when they happen, as well, although it's taking a back seat to...

FLEETING DRAGONS: Definitely not dead. You'll see. You can't kill a Phoenix so easily.

I'll talk about the other thing I'm working on when it's ready. So...  how's everyone doin' this fine year of 2011?
  • Eating: ramen
  • Drinking: fruit juice
Time to make a proper journal entry before November's out. I hope everyone's holidays are going well!

Creatively speaking: New ideas. Not nervous, but strange anxiety. Can't sleep well. Haven't slept right in months. Can't escape the feeling of not having enough time. Can't talk about new project. Wish I had more room in my life to work on the old ones. Something's gotta give. Hopefully not my grammar.

Going to do one damn cool thing before my time's up, I swear.

I'd talk more about my personal life but, eh... boring, that.

So here's another meme ganked from Nyaasu


[x] You’ve never done illegal drugs.
[x] You have a lot of friends (If the internet counts...)
[x] You get along with everyone
[ ] You haven’t made fun of someone for at least two months (erring on the side of "probably not" even though I can't think of anyone offhand)
[ ] You love soccer
[ ] You love baseball
[x] You’re into writing and art
[x] Favorite music genre is pop rock
[x] You believe in “innocent until proven guilty” theory
[ ] One of your favorite colors is red or gold
[x] Good grades at school
[ ] One of the worst things you can do is lie
[ ] You plan on going to college/university (guh, never again)


[x] You’re content with mostly everything in your life right now.
[x] You laugh a lot.
[ ] You like to follow trends.
[x] Politics suck.
[x] You love to swim
[ ] Water polo is awesome
[ ] Pink is one of your favorite colors
[ ] Black is morbid & depressing
[x] You’re an optimist.
[ ] You’re completely straight edged.
[ ] You’re very emotional
[ ] Rap, R&B, & hip-hop is your favorite music genre
[ ] You don’t believe in going steady at a young age.
[ ] You’ve made fun of at least one person this week.


[x] You’re depressed to a certain extent. (For creative purposes)
[ ] You love to read.
[ ] You appreciate theater & arts.
[x] Sports suck.
[ ] You’re shy.
[ ] Loyalty is the MOST important thing in a relationship.
[x] Hate is completely unneeded.
[ ] Indie is your favorite genre of music.
[ ] Every once in awhile you have little anger outbursts.
[x] Lying is sometimes okay
[x] Blue is one of your favorite colors.
[ ] Serious is better than funny.


[ ] There’s at least one person you hate.
[ ] Basketball is a good sport.
[ ] Football is amazing.
[x] Black is a cool color.
[ ] You’ve lied about something serious.
[ ] You’re a very deep person.
[ ] You have considered suicide.
[ ] Very loyal.
[ ] You like metal.
[x] They make school seem more important than it is.
[x] You’re scared to grow up.
[ ] You’ve done drugs in the past month
[ ] Anger is one of your primary feelings.
[x] You have trust issues. (Does being gullible count?)
[ ] Guilty until proven innocent.

Total: 4
  • Eating: strawberry cake
Brought to you by ANONYMOUS FRIEND: Final Fantasy humor. Oh yeah.


(This is all we do in chat, I swear.)


friend: If we're going 1-10 Rinoa's stats are 4 Crazy 8 Stupid
friend: She has to be at least a little crazy because of her retarded plots, rebelliousness, finger waggling, and dog affinity
friend: Quistis is about 7 Crazy 3 Stupid
friend: Zell, 1 Crazy 8 Stupid
friend: Squall 4 Crazy 2 Stupid
friend: Selphie 9 Crazy 1 Stupid
friend: Irvine 1 Crazy, 3 Stupid
me: Geez that makes Selphie like an aspy or something
friend: She is, man
friend: She flies the Ragnarok like with no training
friend: And who but someone who was spergin would go on about trains so
me: And Seifer?
friend: Game start - 6 Crazy, 5 Stupid
friend: Game end - 9 Crazy, 9 Stupid
me: Also dude, an 8 for Zell? There was at least that part where Squall's like "I should give this guy more credit I guess *SIGH*"
friend: Zell is very stable (despite appearances) but his ideas need some work
friend: His Lunatic Pandora mission was a thing of epic fail
me: But I suppose you're adding points for the one time on-screen he nearly smothered his lungs in hotdogs--implying so many more times that's happened
friend: Yes
friend: And blindly rooting in Squall's groin for many minutes
me: ahahahaha
me: "Never pressed X so fast in my life"
friend: Nah I let it linger for hilarity
friend: As for the others
friend: Raijin 2 Crazy, 9 Stupid
friend: Fujin 8 Crazy, 2 Stupid
friend: Crazy doesn't work as a stat for all the games though
friend: For example in FF9 it would need to be replaced with "Gay"
friend: And in FF10 "Fashion"
me: I demand this fashion list
friend: Okay, the higher it is, the more insane
friend: Yuna - 2 Fashion 4 stupid (Outfit basically normal, black boots add one, stupid enough to be attracted to Tidus)
friend: Auron 4 Fashion 1 Stupid (Rather canny, nice gimp sling, fuckface)
friend: Rikku - 5 Fashion (jailbait slut bicycle shorts) 7 Stupid (DISASTERRIFIC)
friend: Wakka - 6 Fashion (Who the fuck walks around in a sports uniform all the time) 9 Stupid (Come on, do I have to explain this)
me: Ouch that's pretty high--and I only say this because it leaves no room for Tidus to be dumber
friend: Lulu - 7 Fashion (Belt-braced melon-udders) 1 Stupid (Pretty on the ball)
friend: Kimahri - 6 Fashion 7 Stupid (Incoherent Naked Blue Cat man, incompetence as leader canonically proven)
friend: Tidus - 10 Fashion (the fucking nadir) 8 Stupid (I want my journey to be full of stupid)
me: HA HA HA, HA HA *nasally breath* HA HA HA
me: (ugh it hurts even impersonating that laugh)
friend: Dona - 9 Fashion (STRAINING AT THE SEAMS) 6 Stupid (Barthello)
friend: Barthello - 8 Fashion (He looks like a fucking gimp) 8 Stupid
friend: Seymour - 8 Fashion (GET IN MAH BELLEH) 7 Stupid (Note backstory)
friend: That's all the ones I remember
guy: Oh wait
guy: JECHT
friend: Jecht - 9 Fashion 7 Stupid 10 Drunk
friend: And now on the FF9
friend: our stats are FLAMING and STUPID
friend: Dagger - 1 Flaming, 5 Stupid (GOTTA... CUT OFF... M'HAIR)
friend: Eiko - 3 Flaming (Keeps she-moogle in pants), 7 Stupid (Keeps she-moogle in pants)
friend: Steiner - 6 Flaming (Fucking EYE SHADOW? ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS), 7 Stupid
friend: They call me the 8 FLAMING AMARANT (8 Stupid)
friend: Quina - 1 Flaming (totally asexual) 10 Stupid (fuck this beast)
friend: Freya - 2 Flaming (Jaunty Hat) 6 Stupid (Amnesia Boygriend Nonsense)
friend: Zidane - 9 Flaming (Looks like he's had more cocks in him than a henhouse) 6 Stupid (Da trooth hurts)
friend: Kuja - 10 Flaming (Singaylarity) 9 Stupid (He's like Ayn Rand only somehow more murderous)
friend: Beatrix - 3 Flaming (Aggressive lez) 3 Stupid (Brainwashed but otherwise souund)
friend: Vivi - 1 Flaming (Asexual) 4 Stupid (Naive)
friend: and I think that's all of 'em
friend: I'm comfortable with FF7 being Crazy - Stupid by the way
friend: FF9 is the outlier in the PS era
me: lmao
friend: if only i could turn this into a marketable skill
me: If only we could coin "singaylarity"
friend: Cloud - 9 Crazy, 7 Stupid. Tifa - 6 Crazy, 4 Stupid. Barret - 3 Crazy, 8 Stupid. Cid - 4 Crazy, 6 Stupid. Red XIII - 2 Crazy, 2 Stupid. Aeris - 3 Crazy 7 Stupid. Cait Sith - 9 Crazy 8 Stupid. Yuffie - 8 Crazy, 5 Stupid, Vincent - 8 Crazy, 3 Stupid
friend: you know it's true
me: Oh Vincent, why so crazy
me: I guess ubergoth can equate to crazy
friend: Vincent? Why so crazy?
friend: The zogga sleeps in a fucking coffin, case closed
me: (stick a nail in it, this shit closed)
friend: Some may feel that Cait Sith's Crazy/Stupid is too high but let's be honest, any dude whose solution to espionage AND corporate greed is a fucking robot cat is at LEAST 9 Crazy
friend: And don't accuse me of being anti-furry, Red got the highest marks by far there
friend: Although he is slightly crazy because we can't be sure he wasn't gonna hump aeris
friend: Also you could argue the whole hearing voices thing makes Aeris even crazier
friend: Really I'm not sure with the exception of Red that any of the FF7 cast should be less than 5 crazy
friend: Tifa gets such a high rating because when a dude showed up making up entirely false stories about their childhood she was like "Cool bro let's bomb the fuck out of this tower"
me: Well, 10 is Kefka-crazy, and I don't see anyone breaking that
guy: Well, hojo was pretty batshit insane
friend: I mean you start the game as a terrorist and just get nuttier from there
friend: Although given the way Japanese entertainment white-washes shit I'm sure they say the reactor explosions didn't kill anyone
guy: Well, their actions are overshadowed by when Shinra drops 1/8th of the city on itself
  • Watching: Red vs. Blue
  • Eating: Hey who ate all my cake
Thanks to everyone who wished me happy birthday! (And to the power of DevArt reminders, I suppose.) Y'all are cool people.
I had a good time and scored some nice loot from the family. My grandparents took me to Trade Days, which is pretty much an oversized flea market, only more redneck-y since this is Texas. Worth the trip just for the sights and smells.


- A stack of old Disney VHS movies for $1 a pop
- Finding a 2' tall Chewbacca doll next to an ewok doll, next to a full-head rubber Batman mask
- A 15' mountain of old iron-spoked wheels
- A sixty-year-old hardback copy of Robinson Crusoe with a creepy old black-and-white photograph of some anonymous old man for a bookmark
- cow-hide patchwork quilts
- fried boudain balls
- beer bottle trees and coke can Christmas carolers
- a booth that exclusively sold 'diabetic socks'
- a yard full of bleached and decoratively painted steer skulls (some with flames, most with the Texas star and stripes)
- a display full of pencil drawings that doubled as optical illusions with Bible scripture hidden in them
- assorted crosses and Texas-shaped sculptures made of old and rusty license plates welded together
- one of those "Iraq's Most Wanted" playing card decks
- two overweight women speeding across a grassy lot on one of those motorized shopping carts, with a man chasing them shouting, "HEY, DON'T THOSE THINGS HAVE A WEIGHT LIMIT?"

And entire storefronts filled with homemade wooden signs with such classic sayings as:

There was also one a shopkeeper was using: "I may not be watching but the Lord is... You'll pay sooner or later."

I was particularly taken with the custom doormats that read: "OH SHIT NOT YOU AGAIN," but no matter how I pointed, Granny wouldn't let me buy anything with those "ugly words." Alas.
I didn't bring much money anyhow, so all I bought was one of those Disney tapes (Hercules), a little plastic Dallas Cowboys helmet for sis, and some Skittles from a vending machine that melted so much in my hand I could've slapped someone and made them taste the rainbow.
Good day, good day.

Now hmm, I wonder where I can find someone good at painting backgrounds that'll take commissions...
  • Watching: Red vs. Blue
Not gonna lie; I'm really only posting to show off my new avatar. Boo yeah.
Doesn't hurt to clear off last month's junk, anyhow. Let's see... I guess I could talk about my boring life.

I work nights at the jorb, now, so hurrah! Not even sarcastic, there. Seems a lot of people can't stand working graveyards, but I love the peace, quiet and cool, refreshing darkness.

Stuck on the before-final-dungeon round-up grind of DDS1. Just whooped me a Frost King.
And I'm up to the last season of The Wire. I guess that's the latest scoop on my electronic entertainment.

Fics are still rolling, slowly, like boulders humping moss--LitW, Cheating With GFs and King of Thieves if somebody can kick my ass hard enough. And I promised a moogle bro more CQ. In the meantime, Fleeting Dragons due for November. Maybe December. Hmmmmm.

(At least I'm never bored.)
  • Watching: The Wire
  • Playing: SMT: Digital Devil Saga 1
So I've been working hard on Fleeting Dragons, which ties into my Great Fox comics (I'll have something to show for it sometime this year, I swear), and dwelling on a dilemma that's been sitting on a shelf in my mind for several years, now:

Is it possible to write a good Mary Sue?

The forthright answer seems to be a glaring no--it's a contradiction in terms. By its nature, a Mary Sue is an original character gone horribly wrong, and the best way to write one well is not to write one at all. I can't think of a single original character in any fanfic that I could positively identify as a self-insert/Sue and simultaneously not hate to death--but was that because of the principle behind the character's creation, or the way the character was integrated into the story?

It doesn't take a long shot to guess that I'm thinking of Mishu/Myshu, who has been a major character of my Phoenix Chronicles from the start, and from whom I derived my online handle--because I was fifteen and thought she was cool. Isn't that how all Sues get started?

So the question hasn't been whether or not Myshu is a Mary Sue; there's no point deluding oneself (she bombed the litmus test at the very first question.) The question for me has been whether or not to keep her--whether or not her very presence would compromise the integrity (haha) of the plot and drive away anyone who might otherwise be interested in a somewhat decent adventure story.

When I went into (re)writing Dr. LEA's Diary this year, I seriously considered writing her out entirely. While that could have been accomplished with minimal damage, I felt like that would be removing the most tangible link between that story (and consequently, the cast of CT) and Fleeting Dragons, not to mention the core quest of the series: the search for the Phoenix.
It would entail rewriting the entire series with a new set of motives for half the characters, finding another character to provide the impetus for their quest (and who's going to have both the position and the give-a-damn factor? ...Magus??) and finding a different way to relate the reader to one of the major races/antagonists. It wouldn't be easy, but it's not impossible, and can probably be done with favorable results.

But do I WANT to? Do I want to throw away a character I've been working with for ten years? Is it truly impossible to write her in a way that is both interesting and supports the story--or at the very least isn't a terminal brainsore?

  • Watching: The Wire
  • Playing: SMT: Digital Devil Saga 1
So, these llamas.
They're okay, I guess. I am a lukewarm llama. I have been reciprocatin' any yammabadges I receive, so if you wanna trade it's coo', and if you don't we're still coo'. Gotta admit it feels weird every time I get one from a total random stranger, even if I know they're just tossing 'em out like candy off a parade float (apparently there's a limit to how many you can give out?)

Put off LitW this month to work on Fleeting Dragons, if anybody's wonderin', although if I get an itch to finish the next chapter this weekend, I might crank it out. FD is going well, by the by. I have three peeps on the d/l giving me a little help (shh guys, keep it a secret.)

Gonna beat DDS1 this month too, I swear to pie. Summer is a time of relaxing and gaming, yes.

Oh, lesse, what else... if you like some of the series HBO puts out, go watch The Wire. It's good shiz.
  • Watching: The Wire
  • Playing: SMT: Digital Devil Saga 1
Found on Nyaasu's frozen body.

Bold the ones you’ve read COMPLETELY, italicize the ones you’ve read part of, and no cheating. Watching the movie or the cartoon doesn’t count. Abridged versions don’t count either. BTW, according to the BBC if you’ve read 7 of these, you are above the average.

(SPOILER: I DON'T READ--real books, anyway. I barely even read when it was mandatory for school, and just took the failing grade for the assignment out of lazy indifference, so this is going to be funny. Mostly I'm posting it for the sake of spreading the meme, 'cause it's interesting anyway.)

1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4 Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire- JK Rowling*
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveler’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel*
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night - Mark Haddon*
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones' Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Inferno – Dante
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte's Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery*
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

Alright, y'all can play with that.

By the by, the next LitW might be a bit delayed while I finish sorting out something vaguely-maybe-perhaps resembling an outline for the plot. I NORMALLY don't have to do that for my fics, but this thing has 140 KB of notes backed up from the past couple of years, and they all have continuity but absolutely no order, so if I want to get this thing written without doubling back and correcting or rearranging whole scenes every other chapter, I gotta get it straight beforehand. It's a bit of a headachey process--I've been hacking at it for three days.

(Luckily, I never get headaches. ...Yet.)
  • Playing: SMT: Digital Devil Saga 1
After many years of stubbornness and abject laziness, I finally bought myself a tablet. Something small and cheap for now: a Wacom Bamboo Pen, 5.8" x 3.6". Just came in the mail today (geez UPS, leave it out on the doorstep in broad daylight, why don't you?) Can't wait to see what I can do with it!
  • Playing: SMT: Digital Devil Saga 1
  • Eating: Great American Cookie cake
La-de-dah, it's been a month--might as well clear that last journal entry off my page. Here goes nuthin', ganked from maggiekarp

DISGRUNTLED SPEED MEME GO--I'm handing over the mic to my foul-tempered alter-ego, the shu.

1. What does your deviantart name mean and why did you join this site?
"Myshu" was taken (Curse you stranger! You know who you are.) She's my newer model Sue. Miya Yoshi is my very first Mary Sue (she was in a Star Fox fanfic, of all things. Gads, my tastes in everything is gaytarded.)

3. How many watchers do you have now?
Fuck you if I'm clicking off this page to go look--this is a speedmeme.

4. Name 3 of your favorite artists on DA.
See above--really, I like everybody I watch for different reasons.

5. Do you comment, fave, or both?
If I like a picture, just not enough to heap it onto my favlist, I'll be sure to leave a nice comment. If I REALLY like something I'll fave AND comment, but sometimes I just favebomb.

6. Do you participate in clubs' contests here on DA?
Nah, unambitious. Too lazy, incomplete sentences.

7. What is your most popular deviation?
Without checking again, I'm pretty sure it's the one with Krystal's naked blue boobies. GJ, furries. (Should redraw that one sometime, it's pretty sloppy.)

8. What are your favorite non-anime TV shows?
No time for TV, interrupts my naps.

9. What are the things you wish you could draw better?
Faces and expressions, definitely.

10. Summer or winter?
Too cold to do anything in winter, so summer.

11. Rain or Sun?
I totally dig the rain.

12. What's your favorite type of music?
The embarrassing kind.

13. PC or Mac?

14. Anime or Manga?
I'm more exposed to Anime...

15. Coke or Pepsi?
Go to hell

16. Read or TV?

17. How many hours a day do you spend on DA?
An hour or two every other day, I reckon. Sometimes I play "DeviantLottery" when I use the computer at work, wherein my boss and I load the front popular page and count how many pictures of cats or naked titties there are (answer: at least one of each, always. We don't really win anything but perverse satisfaction for playing this.)

18. Name a hidden talent.
I'm double-jointed at the elbows--and knees. Pretzel attack woo

19. Flash or traditional cartoons?
I can swing both ways.

20. What is your favorite fast food restaurant?
Burger King.

21. What are your top 3 favorite books?
Reading a real book wut now

22. Wii or Playstation?
My PS systems see more use, shamefully enough.

24. Are you a fast, slow, or medium typer?
Above-average on the speed, I'd say.

25. Do you like Denny's?
What that? For Ayla eat?

26. What is your favorite emoticon?
So is that a tongue or a lopsided grin? Whatever, it's cool in my book.

27. What do you want to be now?
(alone in the world)

28. If you could eat one person, who would it be?
Yummy Frog! For Ayl--okay no.

29. What character would you hate to be stuck in a room with?
Ahhhh, uh... HATE to be? Stumped me, there...

30. When is your birthday?
October 8th.

31. Favorite type of ice cream?

32. Last book you read?
Something I found in AT and fen's house--a campy as hell Devil May Cry story (it was awesome.)

33. Which store would you max out a credit card at?
Fuck shopping.

34. Do you buy / sell / both on eBay?
Fuck shopping.

35. What is the most annoying thing people ask you?
Never really bothered me much, but people tended to ask "Are y'all twins?" when I was around my sister all the time.

36. Favorite all time TV show?
Old school Simpsons comes to mind.

37. What was your favorite show as a kid?
I got up early to watch me some fukken Pokémon--and Monster Rancher, which aired right before it.

38. What are you listening to right now?
My Chronotorious CD just came in today, so I'm jammin'~
(Can you tell I'm on a CT kick lately, say wut)

39. What is the last thing you ate?
Some wicked chocolate ice cream thing with caramel. Sweeeeet.

40. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
Is this a fucked-up way of asking my favorite color or what? Light blue, at any rate.

41. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Whether or not he wants to kick my ass (an important skill for my line of work.) I suppose this applies to females as well, only replace "kick" with "bitch."

42. Favorite sport to play?
Wii Sports.

43. Favorite Day of the Year?
Any day I don't have work.

44. Hugs or Kisses?
Get the hell out of my personal space, you grabby hands fuckernaut.

45. Chocolate or vanilla?
Oh shit I can't choooose

46. Favorite Board Game?
Board game, boring game.

47. Favorite smells?
Well, vanilla IS a nice smell...

48. What inspires you?
Honestly? Second-rate work--that is, when I see something I think could be done better, I tend to jump on board and try it, myself. Does that make me a one-upping artistic douchebag or what?

49. Do you have any piercings?
Get that stabby hole thing out of my personal space, you stabby hands fuckernaut.

50. How many siblings do you have?
One and a half.

51. Bacon Bits or croutons?
ew crunchy bits

52. Favourite Day of the Week?
Again, any one I'm not scheduled for work.

53. Favourite phrase?
Lately I'm prone to say "yaaaaaay" at things.

54. Favourite Restaurant?
I used to love nearby Pizza Inn, but it closed many years ago...

55. Favourite animal?
Cats rule.

56. Favourite thing to do outside?
Walk down the road, or hike through the woods--not so much the latter anymore, since I'm a lazy hermit.

57. Favourite thing to do when it's raining?
Watch it--one time I sat on the porch and just watched it rain for like half an hour (er, also because I was locked out and waiting for someone to open the door.)

58. Favourite Disney character?
Hell, I dunno... My favorite Disney flick is The Lion King, so pick some critter outta there.

59. Do you like coffee? If so, what kind?
ew coffee


59 questions? That's kinda an odd number...

Oh well, back to my usual bull.
  • Playing: Dissidia Final Fantasy
"Men cry not for themselves, but for their comrades."

*FF7 spoilery stuff ahead, look out*

Allow me to pose a query.

How many of you cried at the end of James Cameron's Titanic? Just, don't be ashamed, it's okay if you did. At the time I first saw it, I thought it was another stupid sappy romance, too, but I cried anyway. So, why? It's not because the damn ship sank--we all KNEW it would, and we still watched the thing. It's one of those cases where knowing the disaster is coming makes it even more painful when it actually arrives, because now you've spent so much time getting invested in the lives, hopes and dreams of the protagonists.

Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII is like that. I'm an easygoing person and don't get worked up over much, but I motherfukkin' cried at the end, and I think that makes the first video game that's ever drawn tears out of me (FFX came close, if I remember myself right, but it's not the same thing.) Granted, once I got to the point where the J-Pop music kicks in I was perkin' back up, because it's hard to stay sad when they lay on the extra cheese like that. Not giving the game any points on its musical score, there.

All told, Crisis Core is pretty dang fun. Equipment/materia customization is great to experiment with, and there are tons of ways to build a game-breaking character (besides, y'know, mashing X to hit stuff with a big sword.) Graphics and environments are awe-inspiring, and it was hard to convince myself that I wasn't playing a PS2 game. The DMW is an interesting gimmick that I rather got to enjoy--it's like winning a slot machine, y'know? Final dungeon and boss are rather lacking--sorry, pretty boy, but I just couldn't feel for ya. Missions are tedious as hell and sometimes even harsher on the difficulty scale, but thankfully were 100% optional, and yielded some good rewards (the Yuffie missions in particular were a treat.)

Say what you will about the FF7 compilation and all its retarded retcons and spinoff-er-y bullcrap (ugh, go to hell, Dirge of Cerberus), Crisis Core is a well made game that does an incredible job of delivering a story. Zack's last battle is the most heartbreaking thing I've ever played in my life. They actually make you play it, and even if it's crazy you'll want to give it everything you've got--I was throwing quake spells down like a madman.
And gads, the DMW, the damn DMW says it all. And it's a just damn battle mechanic. Freaking epic.

FYI, it's pretty hard to watch pretty end-game FMVs through a haze of tears.

In conclusion, this game was entirely worth the thirty-five bucks I paid for it at the time, even if it's going to be a while before I have the strength of heart to play it again. If you have a PSP and even moderately like FF7, get this.

I'd say you are, Zack. You really are.


Now, what the hell was I drawing, again?
  • Listening to: Rufus Wainwright - Go or Go Ahead
  • Playing: Crisis Core: FF7
Rah rah rah FINALLY I've finished drawing lineart for that... project thingy I started back in... holy crap, November? I've been eating slow beans. Now to color 'em all, which should be hella faster. 16 down, 10 to go.
Apologies to those who've been waiting for new Great Fox comics or Chimera Quest while I've been working on this. It's all kinda related, I swear--you'll see.

Unfortunately, it's hard to focus on anything right now since HELL YES DISSIDIA IS OUT. I snapped that shite up--I am shameless fangirl.

Then I took it home and very abruptly realized that I am horrible, bad, bad, atrociously bad at fighting games. Fortunately there's an unlockable "I'm a pussy" mode for those who want command-based battles.


Clever tutorials, with all the cameos. Steiner, Quistis and Yuffie made me chuckle. Also "Biggs" and Wedge, hell yeah.

Holy crap items and collectible-thingys, there are too many. I am overwhelmed.

L O L Cloud.
As I've told chat, this guy's entire story arc consists of "I'm an indecisive douche" and all his lines are delivered like Shatner on downers. And yet, it is incredible how Firion, Cecil and even Tidus (in that "Hey man show me your gunblade pleeeeease" Zell-esque way) line up to suck his overly-compensated cock.
The only thing more hilarious are his one-liners, which are so abstractly depressing that you're not sure whether to laugh or shoot yourself. Personal favorite victory line: "I'm not going to sleep well tonight."

Geebus Christy, Cloud.
I like the guy, all the same. He's a fun sword bunny with issues.

Furthermore, THAT CHOCOBO. CUTEST THING SINCE MOOMBAS. Gads, I love that little chirp it makes.

Ironically enough, I'm five hours in and haven't even touched my favorite characters yet (lol difficulty ramp.)

Now, time to go sock Sephiroth in the jaw. That's all for now, friends.
  • Listening to: Hans Zimmer - The Kraken
  • Playing: Dissidia Final Fantasy
Frozencat: university/scholarship applications are evil
Frozencat: sum up your three biggest lifetime achievements ._.
DK: "1.) Fucking. 2.) Your. 3.) Mother."

Oh shipe, I've been TAGGED (hi thar :iconja-punkster:). Okay, let's see...

le rulez:
1. Post these rules
2. People Tagged must post 8 things each about themselves in their journals
3. Tag 3 people and post their icons on the same journal
4. Go to their pages and send a message that says you tagged them
5. No Tag-Backs

1. So I was thinking about stuffing this with something really snarky, but the only thing that comes to mind is
2. I
3. think
4. this
5. meme
6. is
7. really
8. boring

Ohhhhhhh SNAP.
  • Listening to: Weird Al Yankovich - The Saga Begins
  • Playing: FF7: Crisis Core
I figure it's time to update this, if for no other reason than I beat KH2 some time ago, so the last journal entry is officially out-of-date.
Also, on nice days I connect at 45.2 Kbps! Like right now! Awesomesocks.

Moving on, meme ganked from :iconmaggiekarp:

FIRST UP, testing your MALE side!!

[ ] you love hoodies
[X] you love jeans
[ ] dogs are better than cats
[X] its hilarious when people get hurt
[X] shopping is torture
[ ] sad movies suck
[X] you play XBOX 360/PS2
[X] you played with Hot Wheels as a little kid
[ ] at some point in life you wanted to be a firefighter
[X] you owned a DS, PS2 or Sega
[ ] you used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
[ ] you watch sports on TV
[ ] you go to your dad for advice
[ ] you own like a trillion baseball hats
[ ] you used to/collect collector cards
[X] baggy sweatpants are cool to wear
[ ] its kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
[X] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors
[ ] you love to go crazy and not care what other people think
[ ] sports are fun
[X] you talk with food in your mouth
[X] you sleep at night with your socks on (it gets BLOODY cold in the wee winter hours)
[ ] you have fished at least once

NEXT,to test your FEMALE side!!

[ ] you love to shop
[ ] you wear eyeliner
[ ] you wear the color pink
[ ] you go to your mom for advice
[ ] you consider cheer-leading a sport
[ ] you wear very little black
[ ] you hate wearing the color black
[ ] you like going to the mall
[ ] you cried watching walk to remember (never seen it)
[ ] skirts are a part of your wardrobe
[ ] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies
[ ] you take around one hour to shower
[ ] you are/were in gymnastics/tumbling
[X] you smile a lot more than you should (this is girly?)
[ ] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes
[ ] you care about what you look like
[ ] you always/sometimes wear dresses
[ ] you like wearing body spray
[ ] you like high heel shoes
[X] you used to play with dolls as a kid (stuffed animals, really)
[ ] you like putting makeup on others
[ ] pink is one of your favorite colors
[ ] you laugh more than you breathe
[ ] you absolutely love chocolate

Male 10; Female 2.

Mascuchicks unite m/

And hey, I OBJECT to the DS being a "guy" system. More chicks buy DS's than they do PSPs or TV consoles (at my work, anyway.)
  • Listening to: Days of the New - Enemy
  • Playing: Crisis Core

  • Playing: Kingdom Hearts 2
Hmm! Won't waste time building up this entry. Just gonna get to the point:

I'm looking to HIRE a colorist for my fancomic, Chimera Quest. Will pay real monies (not from my Monopoly box) for each page. Familiarity with the comic is not required. Interest in the Final Fantasy series is preferred (you know... fan comic.) Skill at digital coloring need not be super.

The point is to help get new pages done faster, or at least give me more time to work on "Once Upon a Time on the Great Fox" and an animation project I started (you'll see...)

This post feels kinda ironic, since six months ago I was begging for commissions, and now it's the other way around. Oh well, that's how life rolls.

I know how taxing it can be for an artist to get caught up with someone else's work, even for pay, so I don't expect much response. But on the remote chance someone's interested, send me a note! I'm definitely looking for an assist.
  • Playing: Kingdom Hearts 2
Who'da thought a simple itch would grow into such a huge rash.

Four things going on at the same time! Woo! Gonna hurt myself. Stretching too much? Maybe. Too little to show for it, too soon. It's not yet safe to say what's going to pull through and what isn't. Everything's formative.

I hate to update this thing to say I have nothing, but for now nothing is what I HAVE. Nothing worth posting about, anyway.

Here, nibble on a quote for now:

"I know it's not very manly to deal a low blow to a fellow male, but when you're a three-foot-tall cat-rabbit-monkey-thing, low blows are all you have."
  • Playing: Super Smash Bros Brawl
  • Eating: banana bread
I should put something new here.

I have this... this ITCH. In my thought-meats. Fleeting notions at first, then nagging softly, and now more persistent these recent months. Imploring, BEGGING me to give in and try it.

I say, 'Nay, I have too many projects, and this one is too big, to boot.' I go back to drawing comics.

But the itch doesn't go away.

I might have to give in and scratch it.

(Maybe it'll be nothing.)

This cryptic post was brought to you by the letter H.
  • Playing: World of Warcraft
  • Eating: chocolate
  • Drinking: fruit punch
Finally picked up work on my comic, Chimera Quest, which is fun stuff.

I've seen people posting their webcomics wholesale here on DA, and have considered doing the same. I'm reluctant because it's 50+ pages already, and that's a helluva spam to my gallery.
Eh, should probably stick to only posting little bits.

I have RED GUMBO. It's made with tomato sauce and win.
  • Listening to: DBZ - Piccolo's Theme
  • Eating: Red Gumbo
  • Drinking: Fruit Punch
Oh yeah, obviously I fixed that video card thing ages ago. Just forgot to mention it. Ooops.

On to new business.

I don't normally do this, but right now I'm taking commissions! I need the extra cash like crazy. I'll draw anything (for reals), and my prices range from $10 to $25, depending on subject, colors, etc. I'm cheap! (insert bawdy joke)
Drop me an e-mail or deviant note and we can work out details.

Speaking of unfinished business, here are the stragglers from last meme:

Ah, a poet--and such vengeful, delightfully dark poetry here.
Even though you left me
Coming End
Obscene Reality

A powerful imagination + a flair for costumes + bright colors!
My love letter to nobody
Before he was Tails
Goodbye for now

And that'll do it. (Help a yoshi out this Christmas!)
  • Listening to: 3 Doors Down - Be Like That
  • Playing: Kingdom Hearts
  • Eating: strawberry cake