to reminisce

Hello,

Haven't posted anything here for... 6 years.

I was reminiscing about the years that I spent here after watching a video on the decline of dA. (If you know which one, you know.)

Decided it was long time since I cleaned house in here once again, even though I know I love to look back on my archived past, I decided it was high time I cleaned out my old posts. For personal reasons that is, nothing bad.

Looking back as I deleted them, it made me think of all the fun times I had here growing up, all the friends I made and those who have moved on to greater things. I will always cherish the memories I had here, be them good or not. They are after all, what shaped me into who I am today. Core parts of my personality, reasons why I am the way I am.

It's fascinating how I went from a kid who says to much in public, into a man who doesn't talk much out of private. Albeit, I've always been on the internet, I never left... just elsewhere.

I know I may be speaking into the void about my thoughts, being overly dramatic as always, but I felt the need to put this down here since this really is, my place of true artistic origin.

I remember my friend telling me about the site in school and being excited every fortnight to see what my online friends were up to.

It also warms my heart to see a pinch of people still striving and posting on here, I adore that perseverance.

Friends have come and gone but I still cherish the ones I used to talk to on here too, I've seen a fair few of them achieve great things over the years and it always makes me happy to see how far they've come. Even myself at that fact, I've actively improved my art over the years, learnt new skills and developed as a person.

Although I am no longer 'dasimsfreak' that some may have knew me as at first, I'm still me in the end. I'm the Mister Pancake that used to pump out UTAU content in his late teen years, the Pancake who struggled in his personal identity and openness in his early twenties and the Pann who is healing and growing at the age of 27, trying his best to develop video games.

I'm still Dylan in the end, just a better version than what I used to be. Ever getting better as the years pass.

I return to the site momentarily as an old friend to those who are still here, or those visiting to look back as I am myself. I miss you all dearly and hope your lives are growing evermore.

If you ever want to keep up-to-date with how I am, as of the current date posting this, I am most active on my twitter account, but you can find me on other platforms such as Tumblr, YouTube and more recently with my debut of visual novel development, itch.io.

With that, I'm going to occasionally post whenever I can remember, just as an indicator to say "Hey! I'm still alive." I hope you all are too.

Sincerely, Pann/Dylan.