copied from LJ, lolololol

Hmm.

My drawing motive is shot.

For one, I really need to practice again too. That's fine with me, it doesn't make me feel like "BAWW, I'M A BAD ARTIST" or anything, I just need to brush up on my skills again. But... I can't DO it if I don't DRAW.

And yeah, I'll doodle in school but it's always the same thing. I have ALL these awesome ideas for drawings or comics, but I never do them either. This goes back to practice, though--I need references of the thing I want to draw, need to take pictures of people to help me with my poses until I get better again, etc.

I wonder if this is a product of my senioritus? I'm not emo-ing or crying over this, but obviously it still bothers me. I'm an artist and I'm not drawing. I have lots of free time and I just don't wanna draw. But art is a big part of who I am, so I should get back to it. And before anyone tells it'll pass, this has been happening for MONTHS.

eh...

Saying "STOP BEING LAZY, JUST PICK UP A PENCIL" is one thing, but I want to see what happens after I graduate. See if my will to do ANYTHING comes back, and not just for I-should-do-it or for attention's sake. I want to do it because I WANT to. And that's when it'll come back. Because I want to.

My motive to do icons has come back, but I post those on LiveJournal and stuff. Maybe I should at least journal about them here, so at least it looks like I'm productive. xD;;