Mirri

Hi guys! This year has been rough and I had to be very selfish to get by. Staying at home during the lockdowns was a blessing for my mental health but after a year, they decided that bookstores are essential and the lockdowns no longer affected me. Don't get me wrong, I'm very grateful to still have my day job, but my mental health wasn't very happy about it. Social isolation felt good and I got used to it. My anxiety attacks became more frequent again, I felt overwhelmed by life and as if that wasn't enough, I simply couldn't draw anymore. Combine these things and you get a vicious circle that felt impossible to break out of. I tried to apply all the things I learned during my therapy but I wasn't able to get very far. Somewhere around April, I came close to another suicide attempt and was living with constant suicidal thoughts. I know why I get those thoughts and I know that the reason is something that my mind makes up but knowing that doesn't change how true and