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Can you hear the silence?
Can you see the dark
?
Can you fix the broken?
Can you feel, can you feel my heart?

(Can you feel my heart)

Can you help the hopeless?
Well, I'm begging on my knees
Can you save my bastard soul?
Will you wait for me
?


A dreaded day was soon arising that week, weather was poor and a fog blew carelessly passed her face as she stared intensely at the whiteboard ahead of her. The voice of her crap teacher droned throughout the hour, clock ticking at a teasingly slow rate. ____ glanced over at her wrists, the thin and thick cuts decorating her arms and legs. Luckily, she had a green hoodie and black jeans that hid her pain. A rough hand pulled her up by her backpack, swinging her into the wall. By now the teacher had fallen asleep, dragged to sleep by his awful teaching skills. _____ Winchester, being pushed around by bratty bitches that loved to ruin her life.

On the inside, she cursed to their names but on the outside, she was as petrified as a cowering child.
"____ Winchester, faggot alert." This smug and unintelligent comment elected dozens of students.
"P-Please, spare me this once." She whimpered, feeling the sharp heel of the boot collide into her stomach region. Eventually after several punches, kicks and horrible words, the bell alerted everyone and they left her there withering on the floor.
Choking on her own breath, she crawled onto her knees and staggered down the halls on light feet. Her sneakers slid against the cement and the trek home was painfully long.


I'm sorry brothers, so sorry lover
Forgive me father, I love you mother
Can you hear the silence?
Can you see the dark?
Can you fix the broken
?
Can you feel my heart?
Can you feel my heart?
(Can you feel my heart)



Pushing the door open with much force, ____ fell onto the couch and buried her face into the pillow, ignoring the pleas from Sam to move. Groaning, ___ held her stomach and practically crippled over.
"____, me and Dean are gonna go out, you okay to stay with Cas?" Sam pressed his hand on her shoulder, rubbing it lovingly. Nodding her head, she sat up and gently rubbed her eyes.
"Are you alright?" Dean questioned, buttoning his shirt with ease.
"Grand." ____ muttered sarcastically.
The door slammed and ____ ran to the bathroom, slicing her wrists carelessly, not giving a damn if she hit a vein.
Slice
''You're not good enough.''
Slice
''Go die in a hole you're a parasite.''
Slice
''Anorexic freak, go kill yourself.''
Slice
'Whore.''
Slice.
''Slut.''

Slic-



I'm scared to get close and I hate being alone
I long for that feeling to not feel at all

The higher I get, the lower I'll sink
I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim
 


"____, you okay in there?" Castiel asked, his fist tapping the oak wood. Quickly, she slid her back against the smooth tiles and bit her lip, hiding the razor behind her back.
The door broke down, splinters flickering around everywhere and Castiel's eyes widened as he saw the blood trickling down her frail skin. Fumbling, his hands moved quickly as he held the blood down, reducing the chances of her dying.
"You're lucky I burst that door down." He held her chin up, balancing their gaze evenly. Looking away, ____ felt her eyes prick with tears before said tears trickled down her bloody cheek.
"You don't have to tell me but...why did you do this?" He sighed, pulling her into his lap.


I'm scared to get close and I hate being alone
I long for that feeling to not feel at all

The higher I get, the lower I'll sink
I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim



"I got low, I don't know why I did, I just...did." She eventually let out her explanation of self harm, the guilt washing over her heavily.
"You're really brave." Cas admitted, pulling his trench coat over her shoulders.
"Why?"
Smiling gratefully, she subtly put her head on his shoulder, his fingers stroking her cuts along and tracing them up and down.
Helping her up with care, Cas walked into the living, collapsing onto the couch.
"Everyone is so scared of death, the feeling of a knife piercing them makes them shiver; but you can push through that, that's something I admire." He smiled, his face so close to hers.
"R-Really?" Her breath hitched as he leant in.
"Yes."



I'm scared to get close and I hate being alone
I long for that feeling to not feel at all

The higher I get, the lower I'll sink
I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim


Smashing his lips to hers, her hands intertwined with his and she blushed a flamboyant red. A burst of fierce passion struck as her hands wrapped around his neck and his hands rested against her hip bones, running his hands across the smooth skin.  Carressing her arm, he pulled away from her lips and pressed his against her arm, kissing each, individual cut and smother it in his love.
"You-" kiss.
"Are-" kiss.
"So-" kiss
"Beautiful inside-" kiss.
"And out." kiss.
"And you're mine." His piercing, blue eyes dug into hers, clouded with love. Smiling, she pressed her lips tenderly to his, hands gripping his tie with a strong grip.

(Can you feel my heart)

Can you hear the silence?
Can you see the dark?
Can you fix the broken?
Can you feel, can you feel my heart?



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"Dean, we'll come back later."

"But-"

"You wanna see Angel boy and your sister get intimate?"


"..."

"..."

"Tacobell?"
"Tacobell."

"YOU'RE PAYING!"

A oneshot I made.
Dean, Cas and Sam belong to Supernatural ect.
Song: Bring me the Horizon- Can You Feel My Heart.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=QJJYps…
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LeviLikesRaviolli Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
That moment when you're wearing a green hoddie and black jeans 
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Ninjaunicorns221 Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I like how you added the bring me the horizon can you feel my heart lyrics it seems like a cas kind of song.
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Minxif Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2017  Student Writer
my thoughts exactly.
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IceandLion121 Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2016  Student Artist
Me: But the tacobell ending- lmao. DON'T FORGET ABOUT ME SAMMY AND DEAN!
Dean and Sam: *looks at each other* ... *nods then runs* SORRY-
Me: *Stops running* damnit- I was gonna give them another bad pun. Bastards- oh else, I'ma just have a bucket of pepper waiting when they get back. I better make sure the Reader and Cas don't do anything they'll regret. 
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Minxif Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Student Writer
I appreciate you for this omg
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IceandLion121 Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2016  Student Artist
XD thanks :3 
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IceandLion121 Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2016  Student Artist
That moment, when in a (creepy) song, has a knocking part, and it gets to the part where Cas knocks- holy shit I almost screamed- the knocking noise from my song scared me. 
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Minxif Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Student Writer
Oml :^)
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edgirl1 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
I got to admit cas looks sexy in his coat
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Minxif Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Student Writer
I know!!
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black-mockingjay Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2015  Student Writer
This actually hits home. At school I have had horrible experiences. They threw rocks at me and whipped me (with these bloody sharp plants) yelling 'monster!' . So this story really digs deep.

You are a beautiful writer. And I hope you write more in the future. 100000/10
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IceandLion121 Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2016  Student Artist
Holy shit, what the fuck! THEY ARE HORRIBLE MONSTERS! THOSE DAMNED BITCHES, YOU SHOULD'VE THROWN SALT IN THEIR EYES! HOLY FUCKING GOD, I SWEAR IF I EVER MEET THOSE LITTLE WHORES THAT DID THAT TO YOU, I'M GOING TO THROW SALT IN THEIR EYES! THEN I'M GOING TO GET A KNIFE, AND CUT THEIR WRIST, AND POUR SALT ON IT! NO ONE EVER DOES THAT TO SOMEONE ELSE! THEY ARE THE FUCKING MONSTER DEMONS! NOT A REFERENCE TO THE FANDOM, SERIOUSLY! THEY ARE JERK'S WHORE'S AND BITCHES! I HOPE THEY DIE! 
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black-mockingjay Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2016  Student Writer
Everything's okay now, we moved town and they're gone.

But thank you :)
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IceandLion121 Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2016  Student Artist
That's good, I'm happy you don't have to deal with them. 
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black-mockingjay Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2016  Student Writer
Thanks 😁
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satiricScythe Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
OH MY GOD SAM AND DEAN'S CONVERSATION AT THE END :DDDDDD
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EveryFandomGirl Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2016
Sam's unconcious, that was Dean and Bobby XD
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satiricScythe Featured By Owner May 9, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
eVEN BETTER
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EveryFandomGirl Featured By Owner May 21, 2016
Lol
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brightpaw8 Featured By Owner Edited Sep 10, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh my gosh... Okay I found this and literally, I was just having a *forced* talk with my dad trying to explain to him in little words as possible that I have depression and need professional help, but he just kinda blocks it out and says I'm not explaining it. He doesn't understand where I'm coming from and it hurts. So, after he left-and I'm not telling people to do this-I cut my arm. Big time. You story made me cry. 10/10
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Minxif Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2015  Student Writer
Hi sweethearts, I am so sorry for what you're going through. I can give you my kik and my twitter is @deanthirst so if you need to talk message me there. I will try to write that fic for you as soon as I can I'm just swimming in exams and homework and revision atm. You are not alone, always keep fighting- Eren
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brightpaw8 Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you Eren. If you would please kik me, I don't have a twitter(even though every kid at my highschool does and thinks I'm weird cause I don't) but my kik is hollywoodundeaddemon it should be the one saying Lu-Lu. I understand your trouble with homework and exams. School sucks. But I really appreciate you caring and would love to talk more. Been fighting for a long time and I haven't seen peace with myself in forever. It would be nice to vent I someone everyone and then.
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Minxif Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2015  Student Writer
Hi doll, my kik is MittyMinx. I can always try and help ya sweetheart. 
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brightpaw8 Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you. You are a very nice person.
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Phoebici Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
*Huggle* I'm here for you. I know it may not mean a lot from a stranger on the internet, but if you ever need to talk, I'm here for you.  :heart:
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brightpaw8 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
*huggles back* Thanks. Even just a little word of gratitude can help. If you can, would you do a Loki x depressed and/or self harming reader?
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Phoebici Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Wait, me? Or Minxif?
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brightpaw8 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Either, sorry XD I'm literally just got back from a long walk so I'm tired
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Phoebici Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
I'll see what I can do... ^-^
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brightpaw8 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you sweets.
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PJHPGF4evah Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2015
I JUST REMEMBERED DIPPER GOES TO TACOBELL OH GOSH WHY
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Minxif Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2015  Student Writer
<3
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mollienaturerocks Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2015
Hahaha, makes u wonder who pays
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Minxif Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2015  Student Writer
We'll just say Dean didn't have fun with his empty wallet that night.
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mollienaturerocks Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2016
*snickers*
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wintergamergirl Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2015  Student Artist
Best part.... Tacobell! "YOU'RE PAYING" XD I nearly died!
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Minxif Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2015  Student Writer
<3
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KaeRaeWinchester Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2015
Tacobell
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Minxif Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2015  Student Writer
T A C O
B E L L
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GamerGirl0002 Featured By Owner Edited Mar 28, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Love this song and the story. 1-10 I give it an 11 :)
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Minxif Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2015  Student Writer
Thanks love c: hug 
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phanofcastiel Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
I love that song so much
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sapphirelaufeyson Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2015  Student Artist
SUCK IT ASSBUTT, I'VE GOT AN ANGEL BOYFRIEND THAT CAN KICK ASS Hug 2# Me gusta 














no more cutting for me
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Minxif Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2015  Student Writer
Good, its a bad habit.
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KakashxXxAmaya Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2015  Student
I cut almost every day..
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mollienaturerocks Featured By Owner May 25, 2015
That sounded intense, you could really scare someone!
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moonangel111 Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Dat ending tho
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thatoneemoprincesss Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2014  Student Artist
"Dean, we'll come back later."

"But-"

"You wanna see Angel boy and your sister get intimate?"


"..."

"..."

"Tacobell?"
"Tacobell."

"YOU'RE PAYING!"

Omgs I love this
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mollienaturerocks Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2015
I agree, hahahaha, one of the best endings
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KalishRalich Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2014  Student Artist
Suck it blondes at school I have a Angel as my boyfriend and he could smite you.
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