Loki X Reader: Amnesia [Short Story]

A/N: Now this is quite the lengthily read so I apologize, I really didn’t know how to end this story, nor did I want to end it but I really need to start finishing things. Now I know I haven't been very active on DeviantART for the past month, I have been rather busy working on my novel and I'm quite eager to finish it. For my avid readers, I strongly suggest you follow me via Instagram, I am on there nearly everyday and post on my story everyday, so if you want to be updated all the time feel free to follow me. Anyways, I hope you enjoy this short story <3






    You struggled slightly as you walked toward yours and your husband’s chambers, holding a tray filled with fruit, wine and cheese, you had been married to the Prince of Asgard for almost a year now but it was love at first sight when you both had met; though things weren’t going well lately, all you and Loki had been doing was arguing, fighting for hours, most of the time you’d end up not talking for weeks at a time. You wanted to make immense, you loved Loki more than anything and you hated that you were fighting all the time, you wanted to talk to him and sort things out, you managed to open the door and walked into the room and closed the door behind you with your foot.

    “I know we haven’t been getting a long lately, but I think we should talk… Like we used to…” You muttered, you turned around to see Loki struggling to put his clothes on, then you saw a woman trying to hide her face with the sheets, “What are you two doing…?” You asked, then it set in, you looked at Loki in pure and utter shock; “You, get out at once!” You screamed at the girl as she fell out of bed and gathered her clothes before scurrying out of the room, closing the door behind her.

    “L-Let me explain…” Loki begged, trying to put his clothes back on.

    “We’re married and you do this?! I know we’ve been struggling but… How could you…?” You asked, trying your best to hold back your tears, “I have been completely devoted to this marriage, I would do anything for you, I have helped you through thick and thin and you do this?!” You cried.

    “Let me explain…” Loki begged, walking up to you only for you to slap him.

    “Do you not love me anymore? If you don’t want to be together, if you no longer want to be apart of this marriage than tell me…” You cried.

    Loki was lost for words, he stared down at the floor then looked up at you, trying to find hi words but he couldn’t.

    You turned around and walked up to the door about to open it when you turned and looked at him, “Do you love her?” You asked.

    Thor burst into the room, the door hit you scare in the nose, causing you to fall to the floor unconscious, “What’s going on? I heard shouting again?” Thor asked.

    Loki looked at his brother in concern, “Did you have to open the door so quickly?” He asked, he carefully scooped you up and carried you over to the bed and gently lay you down, “You knocked her out completely…” Loki said.

    “Why are you only half dressed? Did you and (Y/N) finally sort everything out?” Thor asked, grinning as he nudged his brother.

    Loki shook his head and sighed, “She found me with… With another woman” He uttered, he lovingly brushed your hair out of your face, “She’s going to be furious when she wakes up… She’s certainly going to have a lump on her forehead from you smacking her with the door” Loki said.

    “It was an accident…” Thor uttered, “I’m sure she’ll be fine… Right?” He asked, “Maybe we should try and wake her up, just to make sure she’s not dead…” He said, smiling innocently.

    “She has a pulse you idiot, she’s also breathing…” Loki said, he jumped when he heard you groan and try to open your eyes, “Darling, are you alright?” He asked.

    “Hmmm…?” You asked, wincing as you sat up, your blurred vision soon cleared, “Alright from what?” You asked.

    “This oaf hitting you with the door, he hit you so hard it knocked you out” Loki said.

    “Who hit me with a door?” You asked, seeing two men sitting in front of you, you then looked around the room in pure amazement, “Where am I? This place is very… Ravishing…” You uttered.

    “Look what you’ve done, you hit her so hard with the door she can hardly remember anything” Loki said.

    “I couldn’t have hit her that hard” Thor said, “(Y/N), how is your head?” He asked.

    “Who’s (Y/N)?” You asked, looking at the two of them confused, “Who are you?” You asked.

    Thor looked at his brother horrified, “Don’t joke with us (Y/N)… It’s not funny” Loki said sternly.

    “Is that my name?” You asked, “Who are you? Friends?” You asked.

    “This is Loki and I’m Thor” Thor said.

    “Okay… And?” You asked.

    “What do you remember?” Thor asked.

    “Well from what I can gather, you… Thor, hit me with a door and that would be why my head hurts so much, but other than that I have no idea who you both are, or where I am… Or who I am…” You mumbled.

    “Enough of trying to fool us, you can scream at me all you want” Loki said, with a roll of his eyes.

    “Scream at you for what? Are you family or something…?” You asked, “My brothers maybe…” You asked.

    “Loki is my brother and he is your husband…” Thor uttered.

    “I’m married…?” You asked.

    “I said that’s enough!” Loki shouted.

    You winced when he raised his voice, “I don’t understand why you think this is some joke, I’m sorry but I don’t know what you’re talking about…” You muttered, “If we are, truly married, what kind of husband are you to yell at your wife?” You asked, crossing your arms, looking at him unimpressed.

    “If I find out you’ve been fooling us, you will be in quite the trouble” Loki said sternly.

    “Now you’re threatening me?” You asked.

    “There is no way he hit you with the door that hard, there is no way it could have made you lose your memory” Loki said sternly.

    “I lost my memory? When I got hit with the door…?” You asked, looking at the two of them in confusion, “I’m sorry if I sound incredibly idiotic but I assure you I have no idea what’s going on… So, if I have lost my memory, just tell them back to me I guess…” You uttered.

    “Perhaps we should wait and see if it’s permanent or not…” Thor uttered, “We should wait and see if she remembers everything” Thor said sternly, looking over at his brother, he was thankful that you hadn’t remembered that you had found Loki in bed with a stranger, but he was worried you remember it eventually, and when that time came, who knows how you would react.

    “Will you excuse us for a moment please?” Loki asked, grabbing his brother, pulling him aside, “You will not speak a word of what I’ve done” Loki whispered to him.

    “You cannot keep it from her forever, eventually she will remember, or she will find out and when she does, she will be heartbroken, I know you both haven’t been getting along lately but why?” Thor asked.

    “We haven’t umm… Done much lately, if you know what I mean…” Loki mumbled, smiling innocently.

    Thor looked at his brother in disappointment, “You didn’t think to go to your own wife for satisfaction?!” Thor shouted.

    Loki quickly covered his brothers’ mouth, “We haven’t talked to each other in months, you really think I could have approached her with such intentions?” Loki asked. “If anything, that would have fixed everything!” Thor shouted. You awkwardly stood and watched as Thor shouted at his brother, “Is everything alright?” You asked, Thor walked over to you and grabbed your arm and pulled you toward the door, “You’re coming with me” He said, “She will speak to you only after you apologize for what you’ve done!” Thor said sternly, pulling you out of the room.





Later that night



    Once Thor was asleep and snoring away, you managed to sneak out of his room without waking him, you then managed to find your way to Loki’s chambers, in a way, you felt like you knew how to get there. You quietly opened the door and peaked inside to see Loki trying to shove away a woman who insisted on trying to kiss him, the woman finally pulled Loki on top of her and kissed him, “Won’t you make love to me like you did before?” She begged and pouted; Loki quickly pulled away, “And it will not happen again” Loki said sternly, “Now get out before I call the guards” Loki said sternly.

    “Are you going to let your wife watch? You certainly didn’t have a problem making love to me earlier, I think you enjoyed it” She smirked.

    Loki turned to see you peaking through the door, “No… No… No…”, he watched you run off but quickly ran after you, “It’s not what it looks like, let me explain!” Loki begged, grabbing your arm.

    “He told me everything… I don’t know why it hurts so much when I don’t even know you…” You muttered, trying to wipe away your tears.

    “We haven’t spoken in months, every time we spoke, we fought… It will not happen again, I promise you” Loki said sternly.

    “How many times have you been with her?” You asked.

    Loki hesitated to answer, “It was only once or twice…”, then he thought, “Maybe more than that” He said.

    You slapped Loki hard, you were ready to scream but couldn’t muster the words.

    Loki glared angrily at you and took a step toward you but noticed you take a step back and hold your stomach in a protective manner, he looked up at you in pure shock, he reached out to touch your stomach, but you smacked his hand, “A-Are you…? Y-You’re not…?”.

    “Thor told me I was two months… I didn’t tell you because we weren’t talking apparently… Your mother also came up to check on me earlier…” You muttered.

    “It’s not mine, is it…?” Loki asked.

    “Whose child would it be other than yours, I’m not unfaithful like you’ve been… How am I supposed to have a child if my husband won’t speak to me and he’s off sleeping with other women?” You asked.

    Loki tried his best to hold back his tears, he had always wanted to have a family with you but having children was out of the question once things began getting rough, “C-Could we talk about this…? Is it…? A boy or a girl…?” Loki asked.

    “Well obviously I won’t know until I have the child… I don’t know if I should keep it…” You muttered.

    “It’s my child too!” Loki said sternly.

    “You have no say in the matter! I’m carrying the child not you and you’ve been making love to other women!” You cried, “Thor told me I was the kind of wife that would have done anything for you, that I helped you through everything… And this is how you repay me?” You asked, tears rolling down your cheeks, “How long have you been unfaithful? Thor told me things started to turn sour right before the wedding… You were late, you didn’t show up for the honeymoon…” You uttered.

    “I was with her on our honeymoon…” Loki confessed.

    “All those times you were with her?” You asked.

    “And few other maidens as well…” Loki choked, tears beginning to roll down his cheeks.

    You winced and backed away, holding your stomach, “Thor…” You sobbed.

    Loki walked up to you and gently took a hold of your hands, “I don’t deserve such a devoted wife, let alone the amazing mother you’ll be to my child… I beg of you, please don’t get rid of the child” Loki begged, he gently placed his hand on your stomach, “I promise I will stay away if you wish me too, if you want me nowhere near you and the child, so be it, just don’t get rid of the child” Loki cried.

    “Do you not want to take part in raising our child?” You asked.

    “I can hardly be a husband, I don’t deserve to be a father to our child…” Loki uttered, wiping away his tears.

    You slowly nodded and tried your hardest to stop crying but it was no use, you reached out to touch Loki’s face but stopped yourself, you walked around the corner, only to breakdown in Thor’s embrace, you screamed and cried uncontrollably, gripping tightly onto Thor as you fell to your knees.

    Thor tried to pull you to your feet, but it was no use, “Please no more crying, it will stress the child…” He whispered to you, gently wiping away your tears.

    “H-He… This entire time, he was…”, you could hardly muster the words to speak you were so upset, you winced once again and carefully sat down on the floor, “He knows I’m upset…” You managed to muster, in between gasping for air, you sniffled and took a deep breath, trying your best to calm down.

    “How do you know it’s a boy?” Thor asked.

    “He’s like his father, he’s empathetic… He understands his mother is hurting…” You sniffled, “Loki doesn’t want to be my husband, he doesn’t want to be the father to his child… What am I going to do?” You asked.

    “Do you remember yet?” Thor asked.

    “You’ve told me everything right? What more is there to remember? It’s going to hurt more when I remember…” You muttered.

    “I’m sure my mother would have something very different to say about how my brother has been treating you…” Thor said sternly, “You know I will help in any way I can, you need anything, all you need do is ask” He said.

    Many months had passed, and not soon after, you had given birth to a beautiful baby boy, who much resembled Loki, though his own father had not been there for the birthing of his own child; Loki anxiously paced back and forth in his room, aware of what you were going through, should he be there? Should he not be there? He was torn and indecisive, he soon heard the doors opened and turned around to see his brother holding a crying baby.

    “Where’s (Y/N)?” Loki asked, looking at his brother confused, he cautiously walked up to him and looked down at the baby boy, who was crying and screaming at the top of his lungs.

    “You’re the only parent he has left, at least hold him and may stop crying…” Thor said, handing the baby to him.

    Loki awkwardly took the child into his arms but held him close and soon, the crying had seized, “What do you mean I’m the only parent he has left?” He asked.

    “(Y/N) passed away shortly after she gave birth to your son…” Thor uttered.

    Loki looked at Thor utterly heartbroken, he tried his hardest not to collapse on the floor and cry, “P-Please… Take the child… Leave me to mourn” Loki begged, though he hugged his baby boy.

    “What will happen of the child then? If you do not wish to take care of him or be his father?” Thor asked.

    Loki couldn’t bear to speak, he soon burst out crying, he slid to the floor holding his child close in his arms, “What have I done…?” He cried.

    “Thor Odinson, I swear to Valhalla, I just gave birth to a baby boy and you made me walk down here…” You grumbled angrily, stumbling into Loki’s room, “What have you done with him, I told you I was going to take him to visit Loki myself…” You uttered.

    Loki stood and walked over to you and handed the child to Thor, “Was this your idea to get back at me?!” Loki asked, pinning you against the wall.

    “What are you talking about?” You asked, you grasped tightly onto Loki but felt your legs buckle under the weight of your body.

    “You think this is funny, don’t you?! I love you more than anything in this world and you lie about your death and have my brother tell me the news!” Loki cried.

    “Thor what have you done? What did you tell him?” You asked, trying to pull away from Loki but he slammed you against the wall, “Please I’m very sore… I went through many hours of labour…” You muttered as Loki tried to pull you to your feet.

    “Was this your plan to get back at me?” Loki asked.

    “What plan are you speaking of, the only plan I ever had was bringing my son to see his father!” You cried, managing to pull away from him but fell to the floor.

    Loki grabbed you and pulled you to your feet once more but pulled you over to the bed, “Explain this instant!” Loki demanded.

    Thor awkwardly held out the baby boy in front of him as he began to cry.

    “Give him to me he is probably hungry… Don’t hold him like that…” You uttered, watching as Thor walked over to you, you took your baby boy into your arms and held him close.

    “It was all my idea…” Thor confessed, “(Y/N) was miserable when you weren’t there… The child needs a father, she can’t do everything on her own” Thor said sternly.

    You sat back on the bed and rested him on your chest, you were about to pull down your shirt when both brothers looked at you, “What are you looking at?” You asked, you draped a blanket over your shoulder and across your chest, “He’s going to keep crying unless he eats” You uttered.

    “Why would you tell me such a thing?” Loki asked, turning to look at his brother.

    “Loki… Come here…” You begged, you gasped and peeked underneath the blanket, never had you felt such a strange sensation, “Loki… Please come here…” You uttered.

    Thor grabbed Loki and pulled him aside, “She begged and begged for you to be there while she gave birth to your son, all she needed was your support… All through labour, she was talking to me about how once your son was born, she was going to take him to see you, so he could meet his father… That’s all she talked about, after she gave birth to your son, she looked around only to find you not there” He said, “I’ve been there for her for the last nine months, what have you done?” Thor asked.

    “I am no longer her husband…” Loki muttered, sighing, “If you love and care for her so much, then why don’t you help father the child?” Loki asked.

    Thor grabbed Loki and shoved him against the wall, “You’re her husband, she loves you and she is still devoted to you… Never have I met a woman so devoted even though her husband has been unfaithful…” Thor said.

    “She shouldn’t love me…” Loki uttered.

    Loki and Thor watched as their mother walked into the room, Thor quickly let go of his brother, they both fixed themselves before standing up straight.

    “Loki, is it true what I have been hearing about your marriage?” Frigga asked.

    “Y-Yes mother…” Loki uttered, trying his best to hold back his tears.

    “And why are you so upset?” Frigga asked, walking up to Loki, smacking him, “I should have you imprisoned for what you’ve done, when was the last?” Frigga asked.

    “Earlier this morning…” Loki confessed.

    “What is her name?” Frigga asked.

    Thor’s eyes widened, he quickly looked down at the floor but noticed his mothers gaze turn to him.

    “You mean to tell me that you’ve been making love to the woman your brother is in love with?” Frigga asked.

    Thor felt sick to his stomach, he quickly turned away and tried his best to collect himself, “Tell me its not true…” Thor begged, “Do you love her?” He asked.

    Loki remained silent and looked down at the floor, when he looked up, he saw you sitting on the bed, staring into space.

    “Sigyn was the woman I found you in bed with…” You uttered.

    “Like you haven’t made love to my brother?” Loki scoffed.

    “Never have I ever touched your brother, when I married you, I swore to you I would never, ever betray our love for each other, that I would be forever devoted to you and I have kept that promise…” You muttered, wiping away your tears.

    “How many women Loki?” Frigga asked, grabbing Loki by his ear, pulling him toward you, “Look at her and tell her what you’ve done, and apologize at once!” Frigga demanded.

    “I’ve been unfaithful, with… With multiple women…” Loki cried.

    “How many?!” Frigga shouted, pulling his ear harder.

    “There was the woman you found me with, Sigyn… and a few others… Maybe a dozen or so!” Loki winced, “I’ve been unfaithful even before we were married, I’m sorry…” Loki cried, “I don’t deserve such a devoted wife… I don’t deserve you period… You shouldn’t love me, you never should have… You should have loved my brother or another, not me…” Loki uttered.

    Frigga let go of him and pushed him onto his knees, “It would take you over a thousand years to apologize for what you’ve done…” She said, “Shall I have him imprisoned?” Frigga asked, looking up at you.

    You shook your head, “I want him banished…” You uttered.

    Loki looked up at you with beat red eyes, “Please, no… I’ll do anything… Don’t have be banished…” Loki begged.

“    You have no right to beg for anything, all you’ve done is spit in my face over and over again…” You muttered, “Take a damn good look at me and your son because you will never see us again” You said sternly.

    Loki cupped your cheeks and pulled you into a passionate kiss, “I love you…” Loki whispered, he looked down at his baby boy that was asleep in your arms, “I love you both…” He uttered, he gently kissed his forehead.

    Frigga looked at her son sadly but grabbed him by his ear and dragged him out of the room, she pulled him around the corner, “How could you mess up something like this?” Frigga asked, smacking him up the side of the head, “She’s perfect, she helped you through everything! She stuck by your side through everything! Why?!” She asked.

    “You know that if she found out my true parentage that she’d be furious, if she found out she married a Jotun… She’d cut off my head…” Loki uttered.

    “You know that’s not the reason, what could she have done to deserve this?” Frigga asked.

    Loki remained silent and looked down at the floor, “I always knew she favourited Thor over me and when she showed affection toward me, I never truly believed it… She goes to Thor for everything, she never came to me… If anything, Thor should have married her, not me…” He uttered, trying to wipe away his tears but kept letting out occasional gasps of cries.

    Frigga looked at Loki sadly and frowned.

    “I never felt good enough for her, we stopped talking almost completely… The only thing that made me feel better, I felt worthy again when I… You know…” He mumbled.

    “You’re trying to blame this on her, aren’t you?” Frigga said.

    “No, never… It’s all my fault, I lost the one woman who made all the bad things go away… She’d listen to me no matter one and supported me through everything and I ruined it!” Loki cried, “I love her, more than anything in this world and if I lose her, like I have before… I’d die…” He sobbed, “You can’t let father banish me, please… I cannot live without her…” Loki begged.

    “As soon as your father finds out how unfaithful you’ve been, he’ll ask her what to do with you and if she wants you banished, that’s what he will do” She said.

    “Every night, I pace back and forth in the hallway, going over every single possibility of how I’ll apologize, and things go wrong… I think of every time she’ll say no, or that she doesn’t love me anymore or that she’s fallen in love with another… When I found out she was carrying my child, I was the happiest man in this universe, but I knew that I would be a horrible father… That boy deserves a father much better than I” Loki said sternly.

    “Why do you always believe that you’re not good enough, ever since we were little…” You uttered, walking out from around a column, “Do you know how worthless I felt when I found my husband in bed with another woman, let alone a dozen more…” You muttered.

    Loki looked at you horrified and quickly looked down at the floor, worried he would make things worse.

    “I fell in love with you because once I saw those emerald green eyes, I thought my heart was going to beat out of my chest… I fell in love with how kind you were, how loving and passionate you were… The fact that you could make me laugh, just your smile could brighten my day… And then you just stopped smiling, I kept asking what was wrong and you just kept pushing away, further and further every time we spoke, and every time we spoke, we fought…” You uttered.

    Frigga walked up behind Loki and gently pushed him forward.

    “The only reason I went to Thor was because I didn’t know who else to go to, you have no idea how many times I was left alone crying in bed… Most of the time your brother was drunk, and that man will listen to anything when he is drunk…” You said.

    Loki noticed you stumble slightly when you stepped toward him, Loki gently grasped your hips, “You shouldn’t be walking after all the stress you’ve been through today, you should be with…”, Loki didn’t even know the name of his own son, “Have you decided on a name?” He asked, smiling innocently.

    “I named him after his father…” You said.

    “Did you love any of those women…? Obviously, you would do all this if you didn’t love me anymore, right?” You asked.

    “Did you not hear a word I said?” Loki asked.

    “I heard every word, it hurts more knowing that you did this even thought you loved me…” You muttered, “I still want him banished” You said coldly; Loki looked at you utterly heart broken, he squeezed your hand tightly and kissed your hand, “May I at least help you back to your room?” He asked, “No, I want you gone by tomorrow morning, if I ever see your face again, I will kill you myself…” You said sternly; Loki nodded and turned and looked at his mother, “Take me to father…” He uttered.



<div wytiwyg="1" align="center"Extended Ending



Two years had passed



    Midnight was almost upon us, Loki managed to sneak his way back into Asgard with the help of his brother, Loki took a deep breath and quietly opened the door to your chambers, he saw his sons crib from across the room to see his son awake and staring at him from afar. Loki smiled and took him into his arms, “You should be asleep young man…” Loki whispered, “Go back to sleep, we must not wake your mother” He said, he kissed his forehead and placed him back down; Loki turned around to see you sitting on the bed, staring at him in pure awe.

    “Please don’t shout, I just wanted to see you…” Loki uttered, he knelt in front of you and took your hands into his, “Just let me enjoy this moment, let me savor it please…” He begged.

    “Are you the man from my dreams?” You asked.

    “Do you not remember who I am?” Loki asked.

    “Am I dreaming…?” You asked, reaching out to cup his cheeks but he stopped you.

    “It’s only a dream if you want it to be…” Loki whispered, “I’ve missed you so much…” He uttered, kissing your hands.

    “Who are you?” You asked.

    “We were lovers in the past life… But I made a horrible mistake and ruined everything… I’m sorry…” Loki muttered, trying to hold back his tears.

    “Don’t cry…” You begged, cupping his cheeks, “It’s alright, I forgive you…” You whispered.

    “You would never forgive me if I told you what I had done…” Loki uttered, he looked up at you to see you look at him, he hadn’t seen that look in such a long time, it was look you had given him when you had first lay eyes on him, your eyes filled with desire, “I am just a figment of your imagination…” He said.

    “So, you mean to tell me that I am possibly developing feelings for a man that doesn’t exist, but only in my dreams?” You asked.

    “Soon, you will forget me again…” Loki whispered.

    “I do not want to forget you…” You muttered.

    “But you must my love, but always remember that you will always be in my heart… I love you…” He said, kissing you deeply, “Now go back to sleep for me… Will you?” Loki uttered.

    “Please don’t leave…” You begged.

    “I’m afraid I must, but I will visit you in your dreams again… Now go back to sleep my love…” He whispered, gently laying you down, “Close your eyes…” He said, kissing your forehead.

    You watched as Loki walked over to your sons’ crib, “Take care of her for me…” Loki whispered to his son, he turned back and looked at you, “Sleep my darling…” He said; you slowly closed your eyes and relaxed but when you sat up and opened your eyes again, he was gone, you looked around frantically but saw your son sound asleep, you took a deep breath and lay back down and stared up at the ceiling, before closing your eyes once more.

    Loki rested his forehead against the closed door, trying his best to keep himself together, he turned to see his brother walk toward him.

    “Father had her memory erased, she only has selected memories now, as far as she knows, you’re just a figment of her imagination…” Thor uttered, “After you were banished, she almost ended her life at one point… She was so upset and blamed herself for everything that had happened, so father had her memory erased, it was to protect her Loki… It was for the best” He said sternly.

    “Is she doing well?” Loki asked.

    “She is happy if that is what your asking, though she does wonder who the father of her son is… Mother tells her that a frost giant snuck into her room during the night…” Thor said.

    “May I see her again?” Loki asked.

    “You know how much trouble I would get in, just bringing you hear father would banish me… I wish I could allow it but it’s far too dangerous brother” Thor uttered, sighing.

    “Thank you so much for letting me see her one last time… If anything, I would take the blame if we ever got caught…” Loki muttered.

    “I promise to take care of her, make sure she is well…” Thor said sternly.

    Loki nodded and walked up to his brother and hugged him, “Thank you, I owe you my life…” He said, Loki was about to walk away when he saw Odin and Frigga standing at the end of the hall, Thor grabbed Loki and pulled him around the corner before his parents saw, “Go, I will distract them, Heimdall knows but he has sworn not to tell… Hurry brother” Thor said sternly, shoving him down the hallway, Loki hesitated but nodded and quickly walked off.