Shop Forum More Submit  Join Login
About Varied / Hobbyist RickiFemale/United States Groups :icontrigun-maximum-fc: Trigun-Maximum-FC
 
Recent Activity
Deviant for 13 Years
Needs Core Membership
Statistics 393 Deviations 1,518 Comments 22,363 Pageviews
×

Newest Deviations

Castle Wall Mural by MillyT Castle Wall Mural :iconmillyt:MillyT 0 0 Snow Miku's Snow Day by MillyT Snow Miku's Snow Day :iconmillyt:MillyT 2 0 Ornament Fall by MillyT Ornament Fall :iconmillyt:MillyT 1 0 Olivia's Ornaments by MillyT Olivia's Ornaments :iconmillyt:MillyT 2 0 Noel's Fall Pumpkin Hunt by MillyT Noel's Fall Pumpkin Hunt :iconmillyt:MillyT 3 0 Shiro from No Game No Life by MillyT Shiro from No Game No Life :iconmillyt:MillyT 1 0 Noel and her Fox by MillyT Noel and her Fox :iconmillyt:MillyT 1 0 Nendroid Picnic by MillyT Nendroid Picnic :iconmillyt:MillyT 3 0 Sunrise and Jet Stream by MillyT Sunrise and Jet Stream :iconmillyt:MillyT 2 0 Mermaid's Purse by MillyT Mermaid's Purse :iconmillyt:MillyT 1 0 Mitsuki and Kitsuba by MillyT Mitsuki and Kitsuba :iconmillyt:MillyT 1 2 Nuthatch by MillyT Nuthatch :iconmillyt:MillyT 1 0 Titmouse by MillyT Titmouse :iconmillyt:MillyT 1 0 Spring Stream by MillyT Spring Stream :iconmillyt:MillyT 1 0 Winter Cardinal by MillyT Winter Cardinal :iconmillyt:MillyT 0 0 Pumpkins and Squash by MillyT Pumpkins and Squash :iconmillyt:MillyT 0 0

Random Favourites

Crystal Twilight by secret-pony Crystal Twilight :iconsecret-pony:secret-pony 885 146 Sonic Bubbleboom by secret-pony Sonic Bubbleboom :iconsecret-pony:secret-pony 515 35 [spoiler] Magic Duel by secret-pony [spoiler] Magic Duel :iconsecret-pony:secret-pony 1,373 121 Trigun: B.D.N. by solidgrafi Trigun: B.D.N. :iconsolidgrafi:solidgrafi 233 18 Derpy the wonder pony by andypriceart Derpy the wonder pony :iconandypriceart:andypriceart 785 63 Woodstock by Adreean Woodstock :iconadreean:Adreean 126 25 Sparkle In Your Dedication by BambooDog Sparkle In Your Dedication :iconbamboodog:BambooDog 2,315 79 MLP:FIM Celestia sculpture by CaptainWilder MLP:FIM Celestia sculpture :iconcaptainwilder:CaptainWilder 1,751 224 Twilight Witch by secret-pony Twilight Witch :iconsecret-pony:secret-pony 717 43 My Little Pony: T-shirt Designs by LittleMeesh My Little Pony: T-shirt Designs :iconlittlemeesh:LittleMeesh 39 3 Derpy Muffin Crash! by juniberries Derpy Muffin Crash! :iconjuniberries:juniberries 167 21 Generations by RDbrony16 Generations :iconrdbrony16:RDbrony16 314 50 Derpy's Talent by secret-pony Derpy's Talent :iconsecret-pony:secret-pony 388 30 Toasted Marshmallow by Katie-O Toasted Marshmallow :iconkatie-o:Katie-O 58 10

Watchers

If you happen to peruse my acrylic gallery you'll notice a few paintings that no longer exist.  One being the mural I had painted in my childhood room which I just posted today, and another I posted a few years ago which is a moon over clouds.  I'm sad to announce that both of these paintings only exist under layers of other paint thanks to my parents and in-laws deeming them "child's things" or some other such thing as they flippantly decided that I was "never going back".

When I was just starting into college I decided to paint my room purple for a change of pace, and thankfully my mom was a cool mom and allowed me to paint murals in my room.  She really didn't have much say in the matter as I did many of my paintings without her permission and then convinced her that it would be 'cool' if I did it.  I was a designer at heart to some extent at that time and if you look at the decor in the room, I had swords and unicorns and things to match the theme (ignoring the flowered comforter on the bed which was her later addition after I moved out).  Well, the painting sprung up over various months and probably took a few years to develop into what it was at its completion.  I even updated things on the painting as my tastes changed so it was kind of an evolving beast until I moved out with my eventually-to-become-husband.  There was a lot of blood/sweat/tears that went into it and I was fiercely proud of it because even though I've done other murals over the years, this one was guaranteed to stay where it was until such time that Mom sold the house and moved out - then the new owners could do whatever they wanted.

Or so I thought.....

Then came my In-Laws who painted over my husband's room the year or so after he moved out.  But he wasn't an artist, and everything he had on the walls moved with him, so no big deal.  They came and visited my Mom's house once a few years back and then never went back until this year.  The plan?  Go up there to help my mom fix up some things that were broken.  I've been trying to do that myself from time to time but it had been some three-four years since they'd gone, so I didn't think much of it.  Until they started talking about painting my room.

And I didn't think much of it then either because they were suggesting it during one of my most busy times when I was dealing with our convention and work and stress from trying to decide what the heck to do with my life because I was miserable with all of it.  When I get stressed out I tend to go into "zone out" mode and that's what happened.  I was numb to the idea of them painting the room and thought, "that can't be bad, it doesn't need to be purple anymore."

But I didn't think about the mural.

And when they announced it was all done and painted and all the holes were filled and then mom started talking about sanding over my paintings to smooth them out.... I realized it was too late.  My work was gone.  It's destroyed.  The only memories I have of it are a few crappy photos.

On the days after it was done, and my In-Laws were so proud of having helped my mom, I blew up, I snapped that they could have done anything else to have helped that house get fixed up, so why did they WASTE TIME painting over my room?  I wasn't sure at the time why I blew up, I was still in shock I think, and it only occurred to me that THAT was the reason, my work having been destroyed by them - after all of the other things in my life cleared out of the way for awhile.

So... what would you do?  Have you had your work destroyed by someone who just didn't realize how much time and energy you put into it?  I'm sure you have.  Would you have been numb to it or did you stick up for it in advance?  I'm still distraught by it and unhappy about it.  Both my mother-in-law and mother were both artists of sorts in their younger days, and yet they had no respect for something I did?  It just jabs it into me how I never felt like anyone was truly behind me as being an artist all of my life.  I never had artwork hanging on the fridge after a certain age, my mom never went out of her way to hang any of my drawings in frames, and anything that did get put up was taken down so shortly after that it was like I'd never done anything.  She'll display 3-D artwork that I painted for her at holidays, and a cross-stitch I did still hangs in her living room, but I feel like those were crafts...so why does it feel like this was just another jab at me as being an artist?

I think it's one reason I really haven't done much as of late and probably won't, because people shrug off what I do so easily.  But I wanted to commemorate this occasion with a post so I'll remember how I felt at this time of artistic slaughter.

deviantID

MillyT's Profile Picture
MillyT
Ricki
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Check out my new blog - www.whatcherstudios.com!
Interests

Comments


Add a Comment:
 
:icondilly-oh:
Dilly-Oh Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
OH MY GOD! IT'S HERE!

[link]
Reply
:iconmillyt:
MillyT Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Holy Crap you're right!!!! *ORDERING NOW*
Reply
:icondilly-oh:
Dilly-Oh Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I got mine! *Hugs it* Klaus is so frickin' adorable. I really hope Nightow continues the series.
Reply
:iconvictordepaula:
Victordepaula Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2011  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the fave and coment!
^^
Reply
:iconhiddentalent1:
hiddentalent1 Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2011  Professional General Artist
thanks for faving the vash and milly cutpaper chibies , I am really happy you like them
Reply
:icondwellin:
Dwellin Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hey you! Why don't you have a cosplay section with all the cosplay you have done? I just went in to look and couldn't find anything! :iconsadplz:
Reply
:iconmillyt:
MillyT Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Hmmm....I guess it's because I had a cosplay.com account and had the pictures there... maybe eventually I'll get it here. Guess I never thought about it. ^_^;
Reply
:icondwellin:
Dwellin Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You SHOULD because in a way, cosply is considered an art form here and shows just another of your amazing talents!
Reply
:iconkath-13:
Kath-13 Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the Llama :) :wave:
Reply
:iconmillyt:
MillyT Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome! ^_^
Reply
Add a Comment: