Miker204

"There Is" This vacation's useless These white pills aren't kind I've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive I miss the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9 And slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights I've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have The days have come and gone Our lives went by so fast I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor Where I laid and told you, but you swear you loved me more Do you care if I don't know what to say Will you sleep tonight will you think of me Will I shake this off, pretend it's all okay That there's someone out there who feels just like me The

Well... i cant say i feel any better... well maybe in some aspects but im just pulled back down by others... life is never easy, always throws you hurdles... I fell like i disconnected myself from my family... i hide from them... i dont communicate.. They just dont know who i am because i dont let them... Tonight it hurt me to come home at 4am and find my mother sitting in a chair in front of a computer crying... I tried to put positive spin to the situation but there was not much there... But the thing that really got me was i didnt give her a hug... some kind of physical affection... to let her know its okay... What the fuck is wrong with m

I dont know what to do... i feel trapped but dont know what by... I think it is just being where i am now... New England i dont like you!.... 2 weeks ago i cut my wrist just to see if i could still bleed... I dont know i guess i was really stressed, depressed, and just really feel like someone shot down my hope and dream... i feel like what i am striving for is no longer there... I will work really hard for the deam i have.. but i just dont see it anymore... Anyways i think i should go just turn myself into a crazy house... I look at my scar and i want to make it bigger... I want to cut it open again... cut it a little bit deeper, let it blee