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well..and not to mention ive been posting most of my art on tumblr and not DA because im just to lazy to do it 3 times *sighs*


anyway. I may be getting a laptop sometime in December (uh, probably Christmas) so ill be able to get more work done then, and until then im going to be going through my tumblr art tag and uploading that stuff to here )probably with the same description because who wants to rewrite something they've already written).


hhhhhh im sorry I don't have much more to say I feel like I owe a huge apology for not posting...ever....


but I promise I will when I get the chance,

  • Listening to: idk some shit on pandora
  • Reading: bad angels & betrayals
  • Watching: like, 6 different animes all at once
  • Playing: nothing?? at the moment??
  • Eating: ....i should probably eat breakfast soon.....
  • Drinking: ^
well, as a few (or all...i was panicking almost all day XD)  of my friends at school may know, my tablet (the nice, good, fairly new one that i got only about a year ago) decided to stop working yesterday. And, of course, i flipped my shit over it. then on the same day, photoshop decided that if the tablet wasnt going to work, neither was it. so that stopped. (which really scared me, i thought my computer had finally died). and then of course the internet on my computer was down for the rest of the day.

first world problems at their best.

anyway, both of them (my tablet and photoshop) are working fine now, and im doing a small gif version of my icon (because i can) and...idk...i want to do a warriors picture....but....of what.....

no idea....

blah. artists block sucks ^.^"
  • Listening to: Fun.- "be calm" (<- best song ever bt
  • Reading: im going to start reading TFIOS soon :-:
  • Watching: Canaan
  • Playing: asdfgdsfn an OLD ps2 game that i never finished
  • Eating: starving...headache....bluh...
  • Drinking: ^
I feel awful for not posting anything on here!!! ;.; normally when im grounded i can still get on the computer (becuase im *cough*AMAZING*cough* good at that)  but my mom deleted the guest account and changed our passwords and im honestly to lazy to go through the amazingly long process of hacking it AGAIN, so i havent been able to draw anything. i feel like a jerk >.<"  but i have been very much active on tumblr =3 if that helps....

anyway, im gonna try to do a few memes on here or such (i know E tagged me in one that i have yet to do. its a character meme and im doing it on my OC Lizbeth, so, ya, thats happening) and once the new grading period starts, since its the last one, i should start getting good grades, and then i shall draw like a fucking mad

...they shoulod really fix that phrase...more woman are mad then should be officially changed to mad woman....*shrugs* whatever.

and by the way, i started reading the warriors book "the sun trail" so art of that will be posted.

....uhhh....ya...thats all ive got!
  • Listening to: Exogenesis 3 - muse / at least I\\\&#039;m not as
  • Reading: Wolfs Rain (BLUEXHIGEOHGODNO*SOBS*)
  • Watching: Castle
  • Playing: Kingdom Hearts (FinallyFinishingIt)
  • Eating: Pizza
  • Drinking: Salt water (bluh. sore throat, begone!!! &gt;.&lt;'s almost valentines day, so I thought "WHAT THE HE'LL! WHY NOT! A V-DAY MEME WILL BE LOADS OF FUN!!!".....

I was wrong

This was suprisingly depressing..


Oh well!!!!-

1. Are you single or taken?
Single. And it sucks cause guys I don't like keep asking me out and I keep turning them down cause theres a specific person I like and I'm just coming off as a bitch to them XD

2. Chocolate or flowers?
well...I would say chocolate..but if a guy is dating me he (hopefully) knows me well enough to know that getting me any amount of sugar will only end in me hurting myself (via running into walls/falling off benches/falling off desks/ general), about flowers? Specifically roses and magnolias ^.^ they smell the best and are absolutely beautiful together.

3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
I'm going to anime club and were having a party sooooo......yes? I think?

4. Do you like anyone?
NO! YES! YOURSTUPIDSHUTUP. *unsureOfHowToHandleFeelingsSoJustEndsUpFlailing*

5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
no...I've never been dating someone during valentines day...

6. Who do you want to spend Valentines with?
.....My friends??? I think.....

7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
It makes me sick to my stomach thinking about it

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
To many. And their all annoying guys that I don't like. In the end though they all get to clingy to me and I end up screaming at them. that tends to fix the problem =3 

9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
Probably not. But only cause that stuff makes me nervous to write....

10. Do you believe in Cupid?
After supernatural...idk if I WANT to believe in cupid, and cherubs XD

11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines? dad used to wake me up early and make me pancakes and give me a box of chocolate to eat at school (he would also give some to my mom and older sister) and my mom would give me a card....but now their divorced and my dad spends his time in love with a woman who despises me and she's his life ad he doesnt really remember me on valentines day anymore....just her and her daughter who's my age...and since my mom wakes up after I Not anymore. 

12. Do you still send out Valentine cards?
Uhhhh....yes? Kind of? Idk....I kinda had to ask TS_ how I'm supposed to celebrate valentines day ^.^" eheheheh??

13. Do you like candy hearts?
Im one of the few people who does, yes.

14. What is something you got last Valentines?

15. Is Valentines depressing?
For me? Quite. But I try not to ruin it for others =]

16. How is your love life?
it never ends well --.--" uhhh....and at the current moment....confusing....

17. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
Nope. Never dated someone during it.

18. How many roses would you want?
Doesnt matter, as long as they smell  really fresh and good ^.^" I really like how roses smell....

19. Will you have a girlfriend/boyfriend this Valentines day?
Probably not...but hell, you never know.

20. Who do you expect to get a Valentine from this year?

21. Who would you most like to receive a Valentine from?
.....not sure...(more like- "HA! AS IF I WOULD SAY IT ON HERE!!!")

22. How many Valentines will you be sending this year?
not sure. One for everyone I know I think XD

23. Have you ever not received a Valentine?
For the past three years.

24. What was the most Valentines you received in a single year?'s been three years since I've gotten ONE!! I'm not good at remembering things...

25. Have you ever received an anonymous Valentine?

26. Have you ever sent an anonymous Valentine?

27. Will you be sending an anonymous Valentine this year?
Nope. (not exactly my style XD)

28. What was the best Valentine gift you ever received?
A necklace with my birthstone (from my parents) I have a special fondness for necklaces...idk why....

29. What was the worst?
See: past three years- nothing. 

30. Have you ever started dating someone on Valentines day

31. Tag people.
:iconturquoiseskull: (<-PAYBACKS A BITCH, AINT IT!?!?!?!) and anyone else who wants to do it I suppose!!!
  • Listening to: Exogenesis 3 - muse / at least I&#039;m not as sad
  • Reading: +Anima
  • Watching: Castle
  • Playing: Pokemon- Platinum
  • Eating: Bread =]
  • Drinking: Root beer...
Hey everyone. I have some news! Not much, but it's good news!! =]

Now, normally I'm grounded about...90% of the school year right?? Because of grades??

Right, well. For once my grades are actually.....not BAD??? uhhh...their all A's and C's and then a D in algebra (but who didn't see THAT coming XD)

So for once I'm not going to be grounded all semester!!

Ok...Thats it....I'm going to go draw some now....I had a really old cinderXLion sketch that I found (you may have seen it if your seen my recent livestreams), so I'm probably gonna do that and then...idk...another speedpaint or maybe just a simple be honest I have some artist block at the moment so I'm a little idea/creativity deprived.... =/ yep...
  • Listening to: I&#039;ll follow you into the dark - DCFC
  • Reading: Will Grayson Will Grayson
  • Watching: Madoka (nat, I love this show XD)
  • Playing: Sims 3 (I.AM.GOD!!!!!)
  • Eating: ...
  • Drinking: Water..very near dehydrated ._.
im livestreaming again, only this time i have :iconturquoiseskull: and :iconthealmightye: with [a quick message from my lizard- ggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg] me, and they will be talking as well, so be sure to join us!

link to the stream-

just sayig, its a Q&A strea,. so feel free to stop by, throw a question in the chat (add @[name of person your asking, its me (Devs), Ts_, and E] so we know who your asking) and we'll answer it!!
  • Listening to: ...
  • Reading: Looking for Alaska (I am 100% done with this book)
  • Watching: Madoka (nat, I love this show XD)
  • Playing: Sims 3 (I.AM.GOD!!!!! XD)
hey guys, im streaming......good morning....dont mind me if i fall asleep...

link to the stream-

oh, and hey, for those of you who dont know what livestreaming is, its pretty much a big chatroom party where you can watch me draw and yell at me if i make mistakes XD
  • Listening to: ...
  • Reading: Looking for Alaska (I am 100% done with this book)
  • Watching: Madoka (nat, I love this show XD)
  • Playing: Sims 3 (I.AM.GOD!!!!! XD)
  • Eating: I only ate some pocky AD...
  • Drinking: Only thing I&#039;ve had today was a cup of water
Hey guys!! So first of all, anime day was awesome. Just saying.
(if you saw me, I was the one wearing the life shirt =] and jumping up and down about how excited I was about getting a tail. Trust me, in my life, that was a major achievement XD)

Anywho! I just went through my phone and added everyone who gave me their DA username sooo...YEP!! and I may or may not upload some pictures. Pawsibly a wip picture of my nepeta cosplay?? (see what I did there?? XD oh cod. I'm tired...)

Next convention I'll be going to is most likely megacon. And with any luck I will have my nep cosplay done by then. I just need a slightly better jacket, gloves, her hat, the horns, a wig, and some shoes (I thought the list wasn't too long but when I typed it....sheidgsiabeiwhriejheiwhe, but it's a lot more finished than my fef so, you know, WWHATEVVER!!)

Uh, ya...ill do a live stream some time Tommrow...hopefully...and...ya...I'm gonna go watch more madoka shhhhhh everyone.

  • Listening to: ...
  • Reading: Looking for Alaska (I am 100% done with this book)
  • Watching: Madoka (nat, I love this show XD)
  • Playing: Sims 3 (I.AM.GOD!!!!! XD)
  • Eating: I only ate some pocky AD...
  • Drinking: Only thing I&#039;ve had today was a cup of water
Hey guys! I'm livestreaming right now with TS_! I'm working on our minecraft pic, so come join us! The link is on her page :iconturquoisskull:, so COME JOIN US!!! =D we'll be up for a while tonight so...yep!
  • Listening to: Random music by &quot;the blanks&quot; (teds band
  • Reading: Looking for Alaska (I am 100% done with this book)
  • Watching: dr. horribles sing-along blog, its on my iPod
  • Playing: Sims 3 (I.AM.GOD!!!!! XD)
  • Eating: Cupcakes from b&amp;n =]
  • Drinking: coffee from b&amp;n, I&#039;m gonna be up late XD
Ok! Like the title says I'm going to an anime meet (it's kind of like a convention, but a little smaller, so idk what to call it XD) Tommrow! Unfortunately, since I'm slow and lazy and broke I WON'T be cosplaying anyone (though I'm working on two cosplays ATM, a Riza hawkeye one and a Feferi (or nepeta...idk) one!) I will however be wearing my "hero of life" shirt (*cough*LifeIsBetterThanTime,Nat*cough*) and I'll be with my Moirail who will be wearing her new "hero of doom" shirt! So if your going to (and I know a few of you are) look for us! 

 Not many this time (or, well, not many compared to last time ._.). if you didn't know lve started a cartoon series with my good friend TS_ (:iconturquoiseskull:) about the random/funny things that occur in our every day lives (I have a preview up for it  already, and as a special thing I'm updating it every few days so the progress can be watched) [my lizard just bit me  and is now proceeding to climb all over my iPod so please excuse any spelling errors] anyway. Oh! Speaking of that, I got an iPod touch for Christmas, so I'll be soon more journal Memes and journals (like I dont already do enough of those) [fuuuccckkkk, my lizard just bit my face >.< she isn't to happy at the moment]  and hopefully some more writing (maybe re-doing Escape [ya, that was never canceled btw, just put on hold for a long time XD] and then Continuing it) [lizard i now asleep in my hair...this REALLY hurts guys >.< halp]...idk...anyway! I'm re-drawing some Christmas presents and then I'll get back to work on some warriors stuff [JESUS CHRIST SHE'S EATING MY HAIR! THIS NEEDS TO STOP!] and more fan art (possibly some homestuck?? =]) 

Btw, I'll be livestreaming on Sunday, I'll post a journal when I start with the link. If you already have me, it'll be on the XxDevsElxX account, So YAY!! (btw everyone, TS_ is my moderator on the streams, so listen to her, ok? unless of course shes being TOTALLY irrational XD in which case i will yell at her again)

::EDIT:: im streaming RIGHT NOW btw, heres the link-

Anyway! I'm going to go now [and put my lizard away...she seems to enjoy hurting me this evening], night everyone! [ she won stop biting my hair D= whyyyy!!!]
  • Listening to: Random music by &quot;the blanks&quot; (teds band
  • Reading: Looking for Alaska (I am 100% done with this book)
  • Watching: dr. horribles sing-along blog, its on my iPod
  • Playing: Sims 3 (I.AM.GOD!!!!! XD)
  • Eating: Cupcakes from b&amp;n =]
  • Drinking: coffee from b&amp;n, I&#039;m gonna be up late XD
EDIT:: ok, I had a whole journal typed an it just deleted this to be replaced with a long journal in a few minutes XD cause i need to go retype the damn thing
  • Listening to: Random music by &quot;the blanks&quot; (teds band
  • Reading: Looking for Alaska (I am 100% done with this book)
  • Watching: dr. horribles sing-along blog, its on my iPod
  • Playing: Sims 3 (I.AM.GOD!!!!! XD)
  • Eating: Cupcakes from b&amp;n =]
  • Drinking: coffee from b&amp;n, I&#039;m gonna be up late XD
1. First thing you wash in the shower?
honestly, i just stand there until it only 10 minutes before i have to go to school and then i quickly wash my

2. Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
uhhhh....well..since im only 14 i should say coffee, but ive had the occasional SIP of alcohol and i kinda like it XD

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
never kissed or been kissed by anyone

4. Do you plan outfits?
yesh =3 but i own alot of repeating stuff sooo XD its not hard to plan

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?

6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
my phone

7. What would you do if you opened your door and saw a dead body?
i would die XD

8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
me and my friends at school in the morning where standing around and then a meteor fell and the world started ending but we escaped into sburb and then it was like homestuck alllll over again...but with my friends was weird...

9. Three of your current feelings?
boredom, hunger, craving for internet on my iPod

10. What are you craving right now?
bread....sourdough bread...i think ill ask my mom to get me some at the store actually...

11. Turn ons?
you mean, what i like in a guy? probably fandoms. my rule for guys is that he has to be a part of at least two of any of mine XD

12. Turn offs?
....not sure...... i gues siply not liking or hating the guy...

13. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
a head of cabbage....what else?

14. When was the last time you cried? Why?
about.....idk...a while back...because my dad was getting re-married to this total BITCH of an ex-wife (im gonna stop now or ill go on a rant about WHY i hate her...lets just say its because of her that im paranoid like i am)

15. If you could be a superhero, who would you want to be?
a shape-shifter >=D

16. Did the one person who hurt you most in your life apologize?
no...and i hate her for it...

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
both =3 ice cream in good...

18. Favorite movie ever?
"dr. horribles sing-along blog", i have every line (and song) memorized!

19. Do you like yourself?

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?

21. Could you handle being in the military?
im in NJROTC.......not at all ._. (in fact, im only in it because my parents forced me)

22. What are you listening to right now?
king & lionheart- of monsters and men

23. How many countries have you visited?
none, but ive been in canadian waters! =D

24. Are your parents strict?

25. Would you go sky diving?

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?

27. Whats on your mind right now?
these chips im eating have taken over my mind sooo.....dorittoooossss

28. Is there anything you want to say to someone?
yep! HEY!! guess whos getting tagged in this!? (list at the bottom)

29. Have you ever been in a castle?

30. Do you rent movies often?
i have netflix...

31. Whats your zodiac sign?
PISCES!!! (feferi bitches! GLUB!!)

32. When was the last time you had sex?

33. Name five facts about yourself.
  1-extreme introvert when around anyone but my friends
    2-i enjoy tackl-hugging people, but not to the extreme XD
     3-i very much enjoy doritos (eating a bag of them right now)
      4-i am medically diagnosed with a type of paranoia which causes me to barley trust anyone. i only REALLY trust one person, and they arent even one of my parents. its one of my friends.
        5-i am part of many fandoms, including SuperWhoLock, Homestuck, Warriors, and Hetalia.

34. Ever had a near death experience? If so, what happened?
last night i almost died, a ladder fell a few inches from my head..

35. Do you believe in karma or predestiny?

36. Brown or white eggs?

37. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
HAHAHAHAHAHA, half my closet ._.

38. Ever been on a train?

39. Ever been in love?

40. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you do it?
NOOOOOOOOO ._. ive watched WAY to much supernatural to ever do that

41. If you could trade places with any person living or dead, who would you trade places with?

42. If you could shorten your life expectancy by 10 years to become more attractive, would you do it?

43. Whom do you admire and why?
i dont really admire anyone....i dont "want to be like" some famous person, i want to be like myself.

44. What was your favorite bedtime story as a child?
goodnight moon =3

45. Youre walking down the street, you come across a burning building. A woman says her baby is trapped inside, what would you do?

46. If you could choose the future profession of your son or daughter, would you?
yes..though at the same time, no, id want it to be a suprise =3

47. What was your best experience on drugs or alcohol?

48. What was your worst experience on drugs or alcohol?

50. As your walking down the street you find a suitcase full of money sitting next to a parked car, would you take it?
maybe..... ._.

51. If you found that a close friend has AIDS, would you still hang out with them?
because they have AIDS or because of how they RECEIVED the AIDS??? eh, either way, ya, of course i would! their my best frond!

52. In front of you are 10 pistols, 5 of which are loaded. If you survive youd receive 100 million dollars. Would you be willing to place 1 to your head and pull the trigger?
._. dont ask me these kinds of questions! it to comp[licatedly impossible to answer >.<

53. How old were you when you lost your virginity?
i dont know......i havent...

54. Do you believe in ghosts, werewolves or vampir

55. If you could live forever, would you want to?
no, forever sounds lonley....

56. Which fictional movie character most resembles who you are?
jdflibvgeibcsd I DONT KNOW.......oh wait....possibly the 11th doctor XD i always being told that i act like him

57. If you could go back in time, which time period would you visit?
idk....i really want bread right now.. *gets up and returns with a 5 inch piece of sour dough*

58. If they were to televise a live execution, would you watch it?
thats....a really good question.....

59. If you could be the president of the USA, would you be willing to do it?
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, it seems to much work XD id take for adviser...or...vice president...

60. If you could choose the sex of your unborn child, would you want to?
no, cause i wouldent be able to, id just end up having someone else choose for me anyway XD

61. Would you rather live longer or be wealthy?
live longer! im already not wealthy and im perfectly happy with it =3

I TAGGGGGG- :iconthealmightye:, :iconturquoiseskull:, :iconazorukon:, :iconenharmony: annnddd :icontoxicdelta:(when she gets back from being grounded >=D)
(the first 5 people on my friends list XD)
  • Listening to: the new &quot;punk goes pop&quot; album =3
  • Reading: Looking for Alaska
  • Watching: dr. horribles sing-along blog, its on my iPod
  • Playing: ...
  • Eating: bread and doritos
  • Drinking: coffee from starbucks =3
HEY GUYS! im here with my friend :iconazorukon: and shes spending the night at my place so we MIGHT live stream later!! were derping around on photoshop, so expect things such as cheese lazer eyes and...well....other stuffies =3 like......photoshop livestreaming...on crack.... (though i promise, we arent doing drugs XD) anyway! ill post the link to the livestream later sooo...ya

  • Listening to: Dead and Divine- Lovley Bones
  • Reading: Looking for Alaska
  • Watching: Fringe (thanks mikki, now im terrified XD)
  • Playing: nope
  • Eating: unfortunantly no
  • Drinking: we&#039;re out of coke ._. im gonna die...


i mean, its not that im exactly BAD at them, im actually a great test taker, its just that i simple DO NOT LIKE THEM.

oh, and by the way! im extremly happy right now, because we just had our christmas with my mom, and i got a homestuck "hero of life" shirt *jumps up and down squealing*, along with a sufferer necklace (<- actrually wearing that right now >=3 so happy)

uhhhh....ya....idk what to say now...this is gonna be a much shorter journal post than my last one...

oh, im getting out of school early for the rest of the week, half days all week....uhhh...annndd......yep....then after this week ill be back in pensacola...anndd....then i wont be able to do shit...sooo.....ya.....

  • Listening to: Dead and Divine- Lovley Bones
  • Reading: Looking for Alaska
  • Watching: Fringe (thanks mikki, now im terrified XD)
  • Playing: nope
  • Eating: unfortunantly no
  • Drinking: we&#039;re out of coke ._. im gonna die...
so, today i was sitting there in bio (:iconturquoiseskull: was there, so she knows about this) and my teacher was sitting at her desk on the computer. all was fine and i was drawing something (can remember what exactly) in my notebook. then she [my teacher] looks at us and says "did you guys hear about this?" of course, she didnt say WHAT so we where all like "NAOP!! =3 what is ittt!?" so finally she told us what it was.

apparently a 20 year old guy shot almost 20 kids (all between 5 and 10) and 6 adults in A FREAKING ELEMENTARY SCHOOL.

just saying, i need to rant about this because things like this really piss me off. not shootings (though those are horrible), but when someone, specifically a adult (though who else would do it), kills CHILDREN. Remember that terrorist attack that happened idontknowhowmany years ago? where the guy pulled a truck-load of explosives up next to a office building and blew it up? well, if you didnt know (because i didnt untill last year), the office building had a day care in it. it killed all of the children. INFANTS. ALL OF THEM. AND THE GUY SURVIVED. later on, when questioned, they told him about the kids, about what he had truly done, and what did he say? "so?" SO!? HAHAHAHA! {" loosing it"} the only thing im happy about is that the guy that did that LIVED. ya, im happy he lived, and i hope he died, not by the hands of himself, but from someone else injecting that..stuff that cuts of your breathing and kills you slowly...into him. because these bastards that kill college students, high school students (such as myself), middle schoolers, and FREAKING ELEMENTARY SCHOOLERS, THEY DONT DESERVE TO TAKE AN EASY WAY OUT!! they DESERVE to die slowly. killing themselves with a gunshot to the head is quick, its over in a second, they dont feel shit. i bet those kids did though! i bet they bled to death, because he didnt exactly take time to end it quickly, from what ive read, he just broke into class rooms and shot people at random, aiming mostly for the kids, but also killing a few of the teachers. at one point, everyone (KIDS INCLUDED) heard a scream over the intercom. guess who that was? THE PRINCIPAL. BEING KILLED. yep!! and then he went and took the easy way out. killing himself.

i suppose why this stuff makes me so mad is cause i have a little sister myself who just started kindergarten this year. shes all excited about it and i hear about it every day from her. of course, i mostly act annoyed and just kinda say "whatever" or "reilly, I.DONT.CARE"  to her about it, but in all honesty, i love hearing about it! and i adore my little sister (just...not around her....XD), just ask any of my friends. a boy thats a year older than her called her "retarded" once and i wanted to beat his face in. when i was going through the rough time with my dads ex wife, when we went to their house, she [my dads ex wife]  would abuse me [mentally] and id lock myself in a room (not my room, because i DIDNT EVEN HAVE MY OWN ROOM, i normally just slept in my ex-step-sisters room. but my dads exwife didnt like that so she framed me, said i stole something from there (which i didnt) and then i wasnt allowed to have a door closed at all- anyway, thats another story), normally the bathroom, and cry nonstop about all the things that bitch [again, my dads ex wife] said about me and my mother and my little sister. i remember one day, i was crying and my ex-step-brother [whos 10] knocked on the door and said "hey, when are you gonna be done!? i need to get in there!?" i yelled at him to go away and he argued with me, after a few minutes of this i heard my little sister, 4 at the time say "leave her alone sam! lalas upset" and then she pushed a peice of paper under the door with a heart on it and "i love you". written in the worst handwritting ever and spelling butchered, but all the same. at the time, thats the only sentence she knew how to write. i adore my little sister and would kill anyone who hurt her. even if i dont show it.

all im trying to say i suppose is that, if i put myself in those parents [the parent of the kids who where killed] shoes, and if that shooting had happened at my little sisters school, and something had happened to her, id be a mixture of pissed, devestated, and oh-my-god-you-so-did-not-do-that-i-am-going-to-freaking-rip-your-head-off (<-yes, to me, that is an emotion). this needs to stop happening. this..pointless murder of children.  now i worried that one morning, im gonna wake up,  get ready for school, and then get to the door, and call out "by mom, by ry, i love ya" then leave, without actually seeing them that morning because their asleep still, and then im going to get home after school, and learn that shes been killed...since my parents divorce my little sister is all i have left of that, which i suppose is why i can be angry at her some times, she reminds me of a time id much rather forget, but its also why i love her so much.....*sigh* im getting really off topic arent i? well...this is a im allowed to do that...

anyway, i need to get off now..little sis is gonna be home soon and i have to think of what im gonna tell her (every one in my family is gonna say something to her, my big sister, my dad, my mom, grandparents, and me) just...something to calm her down hopefully...

good safe everyone =(

EDIT- oh, and I forgot to mention this because I JUST realised it, but, THIS HAPPENED TWO WEEKS BEFORE CHRISTMAS!! Those kids were probably so happy and excited, talking nonstop about family road trips, letters to Santa, presents, trees, cookies. I bt the parents had already gotten presents for the kids to! But now those presents will never be opened. They'll just b there.collecting dust while the parents grieve. Presents for kids who will never see another Christmas. (wow...that was borderline poetic...) gog...before, I was just starting to get a little into the Christmassy mood...but now...I just feel SICK....

EDIT- ok, just needed to paste this in here-

"When the shooting began, Roig said she quickly got up and closed her classroom door and ushered the children, all aged 6 and 7, into the class bathroom. She helped some climb onto the toilet so they could all fit. Roig said she then pushed a wheeled storage unit in front of the door.

"We all got in there. I locked us in," she said. "I don't know if [the gunman] came in the room... I just told them we have to be absolutely quiet."

"If they started crying, I would take their face and tell them, 'It's going to be OK,'" Roig continued. "I wanted that to be the last thing they heard, not the gunfire in the hall."

Roig said she just tried to stay strong for her students, but she didn't think they would make it out of the classroom alive.
"I thought we were all going to die," she said through tears. "I told the kids I love them and I was so happy they were my students... I said anyone who believed in the power of the prayer, we need to pray and those who don't believe in prayer" think happy thoughts.

Throughout the ordeal, Roig said her students were being very good and she tried to remain positive for them.

"They asked, 'Can we go see if anyone is out there... I just want Christmas... I don't want to die, I just want to have Christmas," she said."

ok, THAT right there my friends, is whats called an amazing person. just saying. and the christmas sick again =(
  • Listening to: heartless- fray cover
  • Reading: the news
  • Watching: the news
  • Playing: ...
  • Eating: ...
  • Drinking: gallon of coke (i drink coke when im pissed)

MEEEE!! =3

I'm gonna be putting most of my really old, shitty, disgraceful pictures into storage all week this week. But don't worry about  me taking down a picture you liked. Because I'm putting them in storage for a reason.

You see, a while back we had to get a new computer, and a while afte that is when I got my first tablet, so all of my mouse/mspaint art is the stuff I consider old, and it's not even on my computer anymore. So I'm going to take note of which ones where most popular and then put those ones in storage where I can still access it. Once I'm ungrounded I'll be redrawing some of the most popular and then reposting them!!

Consider it a Christmas present to everyone who watches me for my art!! Speaking of christmas presents, I'm drawing pictures for Some of my friends (do take it personally if I don't do one for you, it's probably because I just could'ent think of something to draw you XD) so I'll be posting digitally re-done versions of some of those =]  ("but Lauren! You wot even be in town during christmas break! And yu won't even be able to LOOK at a computer if your grades dont go up!!" "SHUTUP ME!! THEY DON'T KNOW THAT!! SHHHHHH!!!")

Uhhh...anyway.. The blueberry muffins I made are done now soooo.....*Absconds*

PS- I forgot to add this earlier so please don't kill me, Buuuttt today me and my friend made a bet that I could do every text meme sent to me via ANYTHING within the next two weeks...sooooo if you have a journal meme you want me to do, or if you just feel like torturing me for All the times I've been grounded and unable to post, send me a note (or reply in the comments section down there, though I'd highly prefer note ^.^ their easier to keep track of) with the meme in it and I'll e FORCED to do it!! Absoloutly no choice!! ._. I'm scared......

Anyway, LATER!!
  • Listening to: Volatile times - IAMX
  • Watching: Supernatural (CASTIEL ._.)
  • Playing: My friends AC3 XD
  • Eating: Fresh blueberry muffins =]
  • Drinking: The win-Dixie rip off of coke =\ wwhatevver
guys...i really wanna do a animated icon...but..i lost my icon-animating program when i lost my old laptop...guys....HELP!! i need to do this! XD

EDIT:: NEVERMIND!!! i found a new animating program =3 now i just need to find out how to save it as a gif and loop it ._. fuuuhhhh *goes off and hides in shame corner because she sucks at blending an animated loop so it looks natural and not like shit*

(btw, according to :icontoxicdelta: the way to fix every computer problem is to burn the computer and run screaming, just saying, i think we can all learn from this excellent bit of advice XD
  • Listening to: disco pogo - die atzen
  • Reading: finnished yellowfangs secret (brokenstar...NO)
  • Watching: Tumblr XD
  • Playing: skyrim (framerate.....1 per/ sec ._. someone KMN!)
  • Eating: hungrryyyyyyyyy
  • Drinking: .....i wish....
sorry..just..felt like typing something and doing something usefull ("but lauren, this isnt usefull at all!" "SHUTUP I KNOW WHAT IM DOING!" "no you dont!" "whatever T.T *huffs*") ANYWAY! im at school right algebra...and we finished a computer im bored...uhhh....and im busy blowing up :iconenharmony:s mailbox XD (shes sitting her next to me, im borrowing her terezi glasses and attempting to type, but i began failing at that sooooo...i just kinda have them hanging on my face) idk....but..i guess i should say know...IMPORTANT, so ill just do that now

OK! important stuff now!! i have my thumbdrive (so ill be able to uplo and a couple of hourse before my mom gets home each day, so im gonna try to start doing some pictures where i draw as much as possible in my allowed time, and then update the picture each day. it might turn out to be entertaining, idk XD. ill have them as WIP's untill their entirely finished, and once their done ill remove the WIP and submit them to groups and all that stuff (oh crap, i pushed up the terezi glasses and now i cant see shi..p...(<- *is in class and feels bad about typing a cuss word ATM*)) anyway ya, thats what ill be doing, so expect some really cra....bby (wtf???) sketches and stuff to appear on here within the next few days. then after a while that cra...bby stuff will start to turn into less crabby (STILL!? WTF!?) stuff and more and more untill it looks....decent... T.T idk...we'll see how this turns out now wont we?

anyway, class is almost over, so ill try to get some stuff done and posted tonight! LATER! (<- i originally spelled that LATWER...the glasses...NOPE!)

EDIT::hahaha, :iconenharmony:s pissed now cause i put her icon up on here.....hmmmmm

:iconenharmony: :iconenharmony::iconenharmony: :iconenharmony::iconenharmony: :iconenharmony::iconenharmony: :iconenharmony::iconenharmony: :iconenharmony::iconenharmony: :iconenharmony::iconenharmony: :iconenharmony::iconenharmony: :iconenharmony: :iconenharmony: :iconenharmony::iconenharmony: :iconenharmony: MUWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!! *prepares for a murderous rage to come from her right*

EDIT:: she want to teach her how to do that...ok en... here-
: icon(insertpersonsusernamehere):  like this!- :icon enharmony: but without the spaces.....
  • Listening to: THE SOUND OF FAILURE! (<- were taking a test)
  • Reading: finnished yellowfangs secret (brokenstar...NO)
  • Watching: .....
  • Playing: skyrim (framerate.....1 per/ sec ._. someone KMN!)
  • Eating: just got out of lunch =T
  • Drinking: .....i wish....
Friday- GAIS!!! guess who got ungrounded!! MEEEE!!! i finally got my math grade up to a C! now all i have to do is keep my other C's up and i should be fine!!

Saturday- *drawing stuff that will forever remain unfinished/tumblr/facebook/youtube, but does absoloutly nothing productive)

Sunday- *same as saturday*

Monday-........fuck....this...shit......*headesk* my bio grade is a D.......

Tuesday- IM UNGROUNDED AGAIN!!!! *flails* at least..untill wednesday....when my Lit. teacher puts my grades in......

Wednesday- *grounded*

i dont even know anymore XD im just destined to be grounded all throughout my school life, arent i?
  • Listening to: he is we- a mess it grows
  • Reading: Yellowfangs secreat ( i got it! expect fanart asap
  • Watching: doctor who
  • Playing: skyrim (framerate.....1 per/ sec ._. someone KMN!)
  • Eating: Candy corn (it is officially fall now XD)
  • Drinking: Water...(what else?)
So!! Who heard the new warriors book came out!? Who DIDN'T hear the new warriors book came out!? (not me of course, cause it wasn't like I've been waiting for yellow fangs secret to come out for like...FOREVER and have been dying to get my hand on it the day it came out and the. It turns out it DID come out BUT NOBODY TOLD ME!!!! Thanks a lot guys, now I feel loved XD jkjk) anyway!! I thinking of starting a warriors ask blog on here and/or on tumblr. But I'm not entirely sure of which character to focus on. I was thinking either hollyleaf or dovewing....any input??...

(btw, i just got the sample of yellowfangs secret on my nook XD)
  • Listening to: Matryoshka-vocaloid
  • Reading: I WILL be reading YS as soon as I can get it...
  • Watching: doctor who
  • Playing: skyrim (framerate.....1 per/ sec ._. someone KMN!)
  • Eating: Candy corn (it is officially fall now XD)
  • Drinking: Water...(what else?)