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Streassed Out Midnight by MidNightFlyer53 Streassed Out Midnight by MidNightFlyer53
SPEEDPAINT : www.youtube.com/watch?v=PQutSs…

i was going to make a journal but most people don't read them anymore so this happens. 
At this state i'm being way to stress. i'm losing weight because i am being stress. now what i'm stress about is a few thing's.
my art. commission's and other stuff. i work so hard on it then either my paint tool closes on it's own or my laptop shut down on it's own.
my YouTube channel. i'm losing subs on my channel and making speedpaints are hard. a 2 hour piece can take a 3 day to edit and upload. having a YouTube channel is a lot harder then you think it is.
then my father. my fucking father. it's a lot of shit that i do not want to talk about. lets just say it's a lot to deal. 

so there's why i haven't gotten anything done and i haven't posted anything for a while. feel free to leave something nice to help my days go better. 
even my boyfriend is helping me feel better. he's trying his best and i love him for that. he want's the best for me i understand that. 
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KingThrogg Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I won’t lie, it won’t be easy to get over this kind of stuff. I’ve been where you are now, before, and it was hell. Pure and simple. I was alone, no one cared about how I was feeling. I had no friends to talk to and none of my family members knew. No one loved me or have me the inkling of them liking me. I wanted to give up and die... but I didn’t. I realized I had a higher purpose than to bleed out over a sink. You have things that I don’t. Friends, a lover, family... words may not do much to many people, but from the bottom of my heart, I hope you get other this trifle and you find your higher purpose. I’ll be keeping you in my prayers, you’re a damn good person and I’d hate to see someone like you go down the drain. 
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MidNightFlyer53 Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2018  Student Digital Artist
i understand
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KingThrogg Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Promise me you won’t even think of doing what I almost did..
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MidNightFlyer53 Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2018  Student Digital Artist
i promise but here's a story i will tell you. a year ago i did something i go regret doing and forgive my self. at that time i couldn't handle it because people keep asking me do i cut my self because the way i looked. i did once and i learned my lesson. i even made my self go though hell by putting limon juice on the cuts to burn the hell out of them. from that point i never did it again because i don't want to go though the pain ever again.
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KingThrogg Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I’m so sorry.
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MidNightFlyer53 Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2018  Student Digital Artist
you did nothing plus at that time i had no one to look up to. but i got help and not i'm better. but i'm stress from all the work i have to do
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KingThrogg Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Someone lie you shouldn’t have to go through things like that.
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MidNightFlyer53 Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2018  Student Digital Artist
no is lying here. ha blame me because i put this all on my self. and plus i'm happy because i get to go back to school after missing 4 and a half days
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SPIRITOUSPOND Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2018  Professional Filmographer
U have a good boy, u make speed-Paint and u have YouTube Channel!..

U can be better "Just Do It!", u have a family, but u r independent so u need make all for u!
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MidNightFlyer53 Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2018  Student Digital Artist
yes i did but thank you that helps me a lot
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MoonHeart77 Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It'll pass trust me. I know I say it a lot but it's true. Just look at the bright side of things.
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MidNightFlyer53 Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2018  Student Digital Artist
i am and i'm fighting it with everything i got.
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