My munchkin is about three months now. I barely have time to breath much less draw and it kinda makes me feel depressed. Not really at her being here taking up that time, Autumn is my pride and joy and I'll never intentionally view her as a burden, but at the very fact that it has been almost four years since I kept a steady healthy pace with my drawings and updates. I haven't sat down and had an hour long practice session in so long that I don't even know what I would sketch if I had that hour to spend. I would probably surf on my phone and that's what depresses me.
Art still is a big part of my life and very calming and relaxing but without having the confidence in the time I have to work on something I just feel like I don't make the proper time for it anymore. I would love to be able to start mapping out the storylines and plots that rumble around in my brain while I stand at the cash register working every weekend. I would have loved to make a resolution last month to be sure to sketch every single day and post my results. I really would love to make those goals for myself but I don't think it would be very realistic.
With the new fame of being on the front page of Imgur and pretty much going viral in one day I realized from the comments and messages received that I still have a lot to learn and catch up on. It only saddens me that I can't jump head first in to figure studies like I used to. Autumn is here and there is no changing that. My drawings went viral and that is something to be proud of. If you are an imgurian than you understand just how important getting to the front page can be. Hell, being on this site makes me feel like I'm no where near talented enough to even call myself an artist. I have to work so hard just to get noticed here and all I had to do was make one gallery post on Imgur and boom! It was like a mega slap to the face.
I brought myself down so far I didn't think it even mattered to practice. So here I am saying that I'm going to make an effort to practice more, not everyday or anything but whenever I have a spare moment to give to myself to practice. Finding free time with a new baby is near impossible but instead of surfing on my phone I'm going to make an effort to draw instead. Autumn needs to grow up knowing her mommy is the best artist she can be and not to give up on anything that makes you happy.
Here's to Autumn and her future;