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Evan Bernardi
Artist | Hobbyist | Film & Animation
United States
My name is Evan Bernardi (other wise known as mibevan)
I am a young Filmmaker, and A member of a group known as The Shaded Scythe Studios.
I have made many great films such as
- Easter Egg - Snow on Mt. Silver
- I am Nerd
- Saw (Starring The Shaded Scythe Studios)

I am also known for an online series called Mystery Brony Theater 4000.

All and all. I'm a really nice person. ;)
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EV IS HAPPY ONCE MORE!! :D

Throughout these past weeks I've been a tad depressed. Lost all motivation, and interest in basic activities. Yesterday I spoke to my psychologist where I was able to let out some anger and dive more into my mind. After getting some time to talk to my Friends Including A-Bright-Idea , GinKadia ,  and TheEditorMLP   (To name a few) I think I'm finally back on my feet. In my mind I see everyone just giving me a big hug (Art).

Now I will confess can imagine it's not gone all the way but in the end I am still happy.

I will resume my work following Holiday Matsuri. I expect that the next season of MBT4K will be late though, not that I'm saying I won't try to make the deadline.  

While I am on this subject I want to apologize to anyone I was rude to along the way. It was not right of me to act that way towards you and I can honestly say my frustration over the situation is not an excuse, Nor was it an excuse to begin with. I would also like to Apologize to any chats I may have upset if any. I guess when your emotions get the better of you you just want to ask questions to people about their lives, and try to let out some steam. 

I also want to apologize for showing weakness. After much thought it was very much unprofessional of me, especially as a leader of a production company, to show these kinds of emotions. Not that I'm saying showing those emotions were bad, I was namely referring to the Drama over my own work. I'd like to thank Twilyx360  for helping me realize this. I promise to not be such a whiner and continue to show professionalism


With that out of the way It's time to continue moving forward and focus on what I want next. I am in development of a discord server for SSS and I still need to add rooms and test some things. I may release a video discussing what I have planned for 2019. Until then see you all soon. 
LIZARD LORD 3
He was just hanging out on my wall over an electrical socket. Glad he let me snap a photo before he scurried away.
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These last 3 weeks have gone by faster then I realized.

I don’t know why but I feel like I have taken a new turn in all the wrong ways. I won’t hold back anything and I just want to lay it straight. I CAN’T DO ANYTHING!

I can’t think, I can’t edit, I can’t write, I can’t code, I have so much anxiety right now, and I am hoping to god that I haven’t lost all motivation to do anything. It’s like I plan to do something and then the moment I’m in front of my computer, all interest just disappears. It worth noting I have had this happen to me before but not at this frequent rate.

I spoke to a friend and he told me “It’s part of growing up, you lose motivation to do anything”. Heavily doubt thats the case. The most I ever made was the logo and opening video for an upcoming new talkshow I’m starting in February.  I also consider myself lucky that I have not lost motivation to do my client work. I think its my own work that’s  being held back. Which is NOT GOOD. I have to work on the next season of MBT4K. It has to be done in spring I can’t take longer then that. I mean granted I don't have anything to work on right now. REALLY HOPE WE CAN RECORD SOMETHING NEXT WEEK.

Even my website is taking a toll in this. Usually on the last week of the month I make some major updates to the site but this month I just couldn’t bother to do anything with that.

Seriously I have no idea what is going ON, Its as if any amount if devotion I have is just slowly disintegrating. Maybe It’s just me being paranoid.  

At least my cold is gone and I’m seeing my psychologist tomorrow. I still have Holiday Matsuri to look forward to as well.

Really curious as whether me making this entry is just me let out emotions, or a cry for help.
I finally got my stuff back. She sent me two packages. Both were small yellow envelopes. 
the following was returned to me. 
- "A series of Unfortunate Events" books 1-4 - I lent her these books because of her interest int he Net flex series. Honestly I wouldn't have minded if she kept those. I've read them before and haven't read them in a while. 

- My iron Cross (She never wore it)

- My ring (Belived to have belonged to my grandmother most likely that she also didn't wear)

- The promise ring (WHICH SHE ALWAYS WORE)

- An empty plastic ziplock bag (which I assumed she meant to put them in)

The last things she ever said to me were the following:


--------( will not be  giving names)--------
"You’ll be expecting the jewelry and the books. I’m sorry that I cheated I regretted what I did. I will miss u a lot. I wish in all the best u so as far as life goes I think u have a lot of potential in smartness wise and other things"

My response:

"Thank you. I will let you know if you forgot anything."

(Disappointed emoji)

"...Goodbye"
"And Good Luck"


THE LAST THING SHE EVER WROTE:
"U too I wish u all the best I really do I’m pretty upset about all this as well it’s hard for me too"

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I originally had some things to say but In the end I couldn't. Most of my friends said not to say anything. But at this point I couldn't say anything. Maybe because I am gullible, or just a nice guy. In the end IT JUST WASN'T WORTH SAYING ANYTHING!
I deleted the Conversation shortly after.

The only real thing I have left is the promise ring. 

At first I wanted to save it and give it to another Girl in the future. But that post got A LOT of negativity. So I guess this weekend I'll try and give it away. Not that it matters. I can imagine the ring will be worth as much as a sandwich from the local Wawa.
Still People think that keeping the ring was a sign of not being able to let go. Far from it actually. She was out of my life moments after. If there is anything I can't get rid of is the photos. Even outside of her Photos are the only real thing I can Never part with in general. I just felt like the ring could be recycled. 

Anyway what's done is done. I'm still getting a lot of sorrow and sympathy from people online and at work. And as I said before I really feel like I don't deserve it. But I think them very much. Just the fact that my friends got my back is enough.

But there is one sad truth I would like to share. As I wrote a few journals back I have Now had a Total of 4 girlfriends in my life. I lost each one because they cheated on me. I will confess forward If this happens to me again...well...I just won't know what to think. I really look forward to talking to my Psychietrist about this next week. Theres also Holiday Matsuri coming which I will finally be able to attend, depending if I'm not too sick. I'm catching a cold (fantastic). 

I have enough on my plate as is with client work, my own projects (WHICH I HOPE TO MAKE THE DEADLINE FOR) and other things. 
EV IS HAPPY ONCE MORE!! :D

Throughout these past weeks I've been a tad depressed. Lost all motivation, and interest in basic activities. Yesterday I spoke to my psychologist where I was able to let out some anger and dive more into my mind. After getting some time to talk to my Friends Including A-Bright-Idea , GinKadia ,  and TheEditorMLP   (To name a few) I think I'm finally back on my feet. In my mind I see everyone just giving me a big hug (Art).

Now I will confess can imagine it's not gone all the way but in the end I am still happy.

I will resume my work following Holiday Matsuri. I expect that the next season of MBT4K will be late though, not that I'm saying I won't try to make the deadline.  

While I am on this subject I want to apologize to anyone I was rude to along the way. It was not right of me to act that way towards you and I can honestly say my frustration over the situation is not an excuse, Nor was it an excuse to begin with. I would also like to Apologize to any chats I may have upset if any. I guess when your emotions get the better of you you just want to ask questions to people about their lives, and try to let out some steam. 

I also want to apologize for showing weakness. After much thought it was very much unprofessional of me, especially as a leader of a production company, to show these kinds of emotions. Not that I'm saying showing those emotions were bad, I was namely referring to the Drama over my own work. I'd like to thank Twilyx360  for helping me realize this. I promise to not be such a whiner and continue to show professionalism


With that out of the way It's time to continue moving forward and focus on what I want next. I am in development of a discord server for SSS and I still need to add rooms and test some things. I may release a video discussing what I have planned for 2019. Until then see you all soon. 

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Penobscot207 Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2018
Thanks for Watching, Evan!
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jadethestone Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave on my Pokemon artwork! Have a great day!
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starwarsfannick Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2018  Hobbyist Writer
Hey.
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mibevan Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2018  Hobbyist Filmographer
Hey
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MillArts-Artworks Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2018  Hobbyist
I have a question why don't you have a patreon to help with MBT4K? And work full time on the show? Or accept donations on you live stream?
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mibevan Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2018  Hobbyist Filmographer
Honestly It never really crossed my mind. 
The reason for not accepting stream donations is simply because of an upcoming project. I am doing that involves moving the stream to a different channel. 
That and Idk if I can work full time not he show. Considering the series is a non profit parody (when I say that I mean as in the individual videos are unmonitized)
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MillArts-Artworks Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2018  Hobbyist
That's one of the reasons to have a patreon if everyone of your subscribers and watchers gave you a dollar a mouth you would be set. 
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mibevan Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2018  Hobbyist Filmographer
I'll concider it
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diosrubra Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2018
thank you for the faves :thanks:
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